lazy

been lazy to post something for ages...so I hope everybody like this new skin...personally I do like it...
Lately I'm addicted to an online game...can't stop myself from playing haha...so that explain why I'm absent from the blog for such a long time.
This online game is quite nice to play.....
For those who are bored you may go to the URL below to download this game...
www.maplesea.com... the name of this game is Maple story.
BTW I wish everybody a very Merry Christmas.....
It's only 5 more days to christmas and I haven't even found a present for my friend...drat!!

Something about the future

I'm sure some of you guys may sometime day dream about your future life but maybe nobody does that but me.
I've always wished that I'll be rich,well who doesn't......Maybe not that rich but I'll live a comfortable life.With a nice house and all those cool stuff to decorate it.
The house will have a water feature....a pool or a pond or something else and definitely with some night light for it to be seen at night.
I wouldn't want a big house, a medium one will do, cos I hate the cold feeling you have in a huge house,the cosy ones are much better....
The house will have some sky light in the living room....you know the ones that has glass on the ceiling.....so I can watch the star at night while listening to soft and slow music....
as for the bedroom,it will have soft carpet where it will feel like moss when you walk on it.......with a walk in wardrobe....
the room will also have french windows that open up to a small balcony overlooking the sea..yea it'll be nice and on the balcony I will put some holes on the wall so I can put on the candles at night.
For the dining room,there will be glass windows that strecth from the ceiling till the floor so that while I'm having my meals I can also admire my garden.
of course to realise all these dreams I'll have to work extra hard to earn that kind of money....haha

happy birthday great grandfather!!

I celebrated my great grandfather's 100th birthday yesterday.Yup!he's still alive and strong,quite proud of him too :)

I have been wondering why nobody left any message for me lately???Is my blog starting to get boring liao....haha.
Anyway I change my hairdo liao,I curled my hair and even coloured it so the next time you see me I think you'll get a shock.
Well most of my relative can't recognise me when they first saw me.....so I don't reckon anybody can figure it's me when they see me with my new hairdo.

By the way,wen ching is coming back to malaysia on the 19th and can't wait to meet up with her.Miss the old days so much.....

As for my job, I quit again!!what's the reason??Don't ask,it's the same one....hee hee..goodbye comic books and extra income :(

One of my old classmate is back from the down under,but haven't had the time to meet up with her....and I owe her a proper birthday hug.

and One thing......I'm BROKE!!!
sad:( have to find another job liao....wonder what to do this time....
oh worse!is there any job available....
haih!!
who would want to hired me

Unorganized deep thoughts

I felt pretty left out lately, from friends...Family....

my surrounding area.Every where I go I just don't fit in....

as if in this world there is not a place where I can call it my own...

nobody really understand me.

They tend to judge me by their version of me,just felt so helpless because they never think of my feelings.

Maybe you'll think I'm selfish...

maybe I'm selfish...

but I just want people to notice who I really am and not their version of me....

I just want to know that somehow people care about me...

that I'm not an invisible human.

You may say that I'm hungry for attention...

There is so many times that I wish that someone

would ask me how am I feeling today.....

who would see me through all those action and

understand the reason behind those act...

I have always felt out of place....

with my family,my friends

anytime,anywhere.

Seems to me whatever I do or say

always comes out the opposite.

Either I have problem in conveying my message across

or it's that they interpret the meaning wrongly.

My guess is that it's my problem and not the others

cause it's not possible for everybody to interpret my meaning wrongly

right?

Maybe I'm just jealous when I feel that my family

seems to like my sis more than me...

that my sis is a better person than I'm.

Felt that I can't live up to my parents hope.

It' s just so difficult...

difficult not to feel that way.

I just don't fit in...

not with anyone or at anywhere.

What will happen to the world if I was not born into this world?

will everything be the same?

I wonder.

Yeah!I'm thinking too much...

but I need the support

I need the advice

I need the help

I need to feel that I belong somewhere...

that someone will actually think me as one of the important person in their life

but who am I to be consider as one?

Alone in this world it's what I feel....

nobody really care what happen to me...

maybe my family do...

but apart from them I just can't think of anyone else.

I'm just a pedestrian in their life

so are they in mine

but why am I asking the pedestrians to care about me?

Maybe I am always taking

and not always giving.

and there's a quote which says that

we must give more than we take.

wow!!I actually got a letter from ANU.....

Long time never post a thing in this blog.....

alot of things has happened this past few days......

as you all know,I'm now working as a cashier in a book rental store.

The story begin on a rainy night around 10pm...

It's time to close shop and I was summing up the cash of the day when I found out that.....the cash was actually lesser than the total amount in the register!!!

Man,at that particular moment my body went cold.....

and i started panicking
The actual sum is RM 28.9 lesser than the total in the register!!!
when I told my boss about it,his face immediately become black like hell.....
well you must be wondering what happen to the 28.90......to be honest I don't know because apart from me,there is also a girl working the same shift that night.

I was scared that the boss will accused me of stealing....and he sounded angry when he talk to me after that.....

he told me to go back and think over what happen to the money....and I was confused...

why isit only me he is suspicious about....what about the other girl???

she took over the counter when I'm out having my dinner....

in addition to that who would be that stupid to steal the money when he/ she is in charge of the money!!!

As expected the girl denied every responsibility,saying that she register every sales that pass through her hand.....and I think the boss believed her.
Naturally,all suspicion falls on me.....
On that very moment my stupidity got hold of me.....I didn't defend myself...I just say nothing!!!

I cant sleep that night....

spend the whole night worrying.......

will the boss believe me

if i tell him that I didn't took the money.

I feel like quiting the job.....

because who would believe the cashier after she lost the money.

It is definite that the trust wouldn't be there after

this type of incident......

But I can't...

At the end my boss minus the sum of money loss from my salary :(

to think that I have to work for 1 day and 2 hours

before I can get that sum back!!!

Just feel unfair...

what about the other girl ????

well, I think my boss never deduct anything from her salary.

Next time when I'm sharing a shift with somebody else...

I definitely won't be the cashier.

自私？？I think not!!

以前总觉得人人都很自私，

也就这样我也慢慢开始审问自己。。。

我是否在别人眼中也是一个自私自利的人呢？

其实“自私”的定义是什么我自己也不太清楚。。。

那我为何又说别人自私呢？

是因为他们的所做所为是为自己而做

也没考虑到这个做法到底我喜不喜欢

所以另到我不悦吗？

从此他就背上了“自私”的罪名！？

啊！原来我比任何人都自私。

SHIT! I hate them!!!!!!

I hate them!I hate them!I hate them!
So what if you are one of my relatives !!!
Why should I always be the one who accomadate what you all need....
Why should I be the 1 who let you have what you want......
You think tears can let you have everything you want?TRUST ME you are so damn wrong!!!!!
And i personally will make it so hard for you that you will regret treating me wrongly!
Respect that's what they say we need for each other,
why should I respec both of you while you don't even treat me as a human......
Yeah right!You are always the snobbish Know-it-all,who thinks you are always right......
and you,you that has been spoiled since young,you think you can get away with everything .....that they just don't noe what you are doin behing their back.
TRUST ME.....THis Stupid big MOuth will spill out all your beans if you are not careful.just you wait!!!!!!
GOsh I really Hate you 2 man!!!!!
HAte!!!It's the only word I can describe the fellings i have for you 2!!!!!!

The creature

There was once a creature,who live in an island.
It was a small but very cosy island,
Apart from this creature
There was also some other animals
Who share this island.
There was a dog, a rat, a snake and a monkey.

The dog is a very wise and has a very stable character,
While the rat is a very kind and understanding animal.
The snake is smart and beautiful
The monkey has a bright mind

Eventhough the snake is smart but it is very selfish....
Eventhough the monkey has a very bright mind but it is never understanding...
Eventhough the dog is wise but it never listen to the others...

What about the rat?
Well,because it is kind and understanding
The others tend to bully the rat.....

The creature is a very observant animal but has a very low self esteem.
It always compare itself with the snake and feels that the snake is better.

The rat like the snake,the dog and the monkey....
but I'm not sure if it like the creature.

The snake is very close to the rat, the monkey and the dog....
but I'm not sure whether it like the creature.

The monkey like the company of the snake,the dog and the rat....
but I can't find out whether it feels the same towards the creature.

Why?
I don't know.

But one thing I'm sure about the creature is that....
it feels that it is being left out
Maybe it is because it doesn't know how to take people's heart
Maybe it is because it felt that nobody understands
Maybe it is because it separate itself from the others.....

What is the real reason behind ?
This I'm not sure.

It keep on thinking why doesn't anybody understand or tries to understand...
The creature has tried a lot of ways to join in the group
but none of it seems to work....

(well,now you must be thinking what is the main point of this story?)
(I'm not sure)
(Maybe I'll just stop here)

How?
The creature think and think....
Not sure of what to do
because whatever it do
It always seems to be wrong.

Harry potter 4

Went to watch the movie yesterday with my friend.
This is first time I went to a movie with him,I'm a bit surprise since we have known each other since primary school.
The movie is quite hilarious and exciting and I can say it's better than the last potter movie....Much better...And it's the best among it's kind,but if you have already read the book don't expect the movie to be exactly the same.....The plot in the movie is rearranged.....To a simpler version...Without all those explanation of course...
The acting of the casts has improved especially Daniel.However, there is some bad acting in the part of Professor Dumbeldore.Well,he seems very unstable...Not like the one we know from book.
On the whole this movie is definitely worth your money whole movie length is about two and a half hours....(I think the ad accommodate nearly 20 minute of the time)
The most exciting part of the movie is when Harry perform the first task.
So,for those who are still thinking whether to spend your money on the cinema or pasar malam...then I suggest you go to the cinema..the sound effect is much better...although you may hear some little irritating kids calling out to their parents .(well,me and my friend have this kind of situation...hope you don't meet one of those brat during your session)
after the movie....we had lunch and I met my college mate...and I end up going shopping with my her...haa haa...that's how I spend my day off....
By the time I reached home it's already 5pm!!Phew..what a tiring day...

a change of...

while munching on my peanut butter and jelly sandwich this is what i wrote:
just came back from work......oh ya!I changed my job already...so fast?!!..yup...because my parents is too worried about my safety...so i just quit...now I'm working in a book rental shop called Walk-in-rent-a-book.well compare to the previous job this is much less exciting.....but I get to read comic book whole day!!!!haha....is this nice or what? summore no need pay money....wow.What is good about this job is that it has shorter working hours,near my house yet far enough for me to get enough exercise and if I can stay on this job for a month.....I get a raise...from RM3.50 to RM 4.....perfect right?.....so now I'm content.No more complaining about being bored anymore.hee hee

first day

Wow!Now i'm super tired....been working fo 9 hours straight.But the work is very enjoyable....I work in the CD-Rama department so I get to play loads of CD....yay!especially Jay Chou's and some instrumental CD which is super nice!!!Now you can ask me which CD is worth buying and which is not...and which has the discounted price.....haha...cos I've been changing price tag for the whole day liao....tear until my hand sore liao...now I still can feel the sticker in my hand la.....but they also got raised some CD price.....
When I got back from work,kena scold by my father cos..by the time I reach home it is nearly 8 o'clock.He even call me to quit the job....hope I can persuade him to let me work for a while yet...until I run ourt of CD to play...haha!!!!
I do enjoy my work!It' just the journey to work that makes me dread it....now I wish I got a car....
ok gtg liao.....my hand is on the verge of collapsing....will post in more if I still got my hand ....hahaha!!!night everybody.

害怕

忘　我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘
那些和日記一起收藏的過往
孤單在思緒之中變得很漫長

想　我沒有很刻意讓自己不去想
那些和照片一起靜止的模樣
我學著堅強　堅強到不用學著不想　學著遺忘

＊還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
　還是害怕不經意的聽見你的消息
　然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰
　當擁有已經是失去　就勇敢的放棄

　還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
　還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
　然而當愛最後的出口是分離
　我會這麼相信　走下去＊
Repeat＊

忘　我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘　遺忘

success!

haha finally been able to get a job liao....eventhough the pay is not high....at least I get something to do...so if you happen to be in 1 utama....you can come visit me in the Popular book shop.

finally!

Found a suitable skin for my blog liao....so what u guys think abt it then.
However there is still some problem with the music player.will try to solve the prob..
u can play some of this songs:

• jay chou-qing tian
• jay chou-an hao
• britney-sometimes
• stef-silent all these years

BTW....

been busy the whole day...u noe have to find work.tomorrow still have to go for interviews ...

jobless!

aihhhhh.....been back from china nearly 2 weeks and yet I still can't find a job......restless as ever,wishing that I would be able to find a job before this week is up....now I'm jealous of those who had to work from morning till night......at least they have something to use their brain on.....
Gosh!I so miss my school days .....
To imagine that I spent nearly the whole day blogging.....finally I have run out of ideas to contribute to my blog!

~*aLoNe

Alone....
are we alone in this big wide world ....
or is there alien out there(PEOPLE ALWAYS ASK THAT)
sometimes i wonder.
some is afraid to be alone in a place....
while some always stay away from everybody.

how do you desribe it?
isit...
the feeling that nobody care for you?
the feeling that all the people that you know are far away from you?
the feeling that appear after a fight with your love ones?
or isit...
the feeling that appear when you feel that nobody is there for you?

Loneliness is a very grey and great thing ....
he can reach you where ever you are...
even in the middle of a crowd
with hundreds of people with you
or he can make you sleepless throughout the night

how many people can stand being alone?
everybody?none?
we just don't know
So..
Are you afraid to be alone then?
can you stand the quiteness of your life without your friend?

That's what friends are for

Found this poem somewhere but i forgot where liao..
so if you are the owner of this poem...can you pls put your info in the
comment box,thanks.
And i never thought i'll feel this way

And as far as im concerned

Im glad i have the chance to say

That i do believe i love you

And if i should ever go away

Well then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me for sure

Thats what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

Thats what friends are for

Under RENOVATION

I'll be renovating my blog again this week so don't be alarmed when you will find it different when you visit next time......
BTW if there is any problem...pls inform me k?

Back from china

feels like a lifetime ago .......finally I'm back from China....overall it was a very intresting trip...the scenery in jiuzhaigou is amazing and I get to experience to type of seasons there....autumn and winter....and I finally got the chance to how white a mountain is when there is snow covering it and how beautiful is with different hue of colour covering the hills.....
the waterfalls and lakes in Jiuzhaigou is magnificent....it's really a heaven on earth....
however if you want to reach there you have to bear with some side effect from the trip up the mountain.....and the road up the mountain is horrifying!
but trust me the trip is worth all the pain that you are gonna get...because you get to see the magnificent view of mountain and high plane that is untouched by human.You can even see snow covered mountain along the way or hills that contained amazing waterfalls....
There are hill tribes living and sometimes if you are lucky you can even be the audience of their amazing singing......it's just like in the sound of music.....because their singing will be blown away by the wind.....you can listen to their singing even you are far away....
It's sad to think that eventhough China is progressing as I write.....there are still people who starve to death....the distribution of wealth in China is still far from being even.....the life is very tough...living through everyday is a big challenge for some...just imagine you can buy four orange with RM1!Imagine what they have to go through before they can the tree to bear fruit....some don't even own their own land, they rent it from the local gov...

November's chopin

Yes!Jay chou is going to release his sixth album....The November's chopin....on the 1st of november.The first track is known as Nocturne.....quite nice....so if you guys wants to listen you can go to www.getfox.net you can download from there.
The album's concept walks the line of "being temperamental". And, in order for the visual affect to flow with the thick sense of classical themes, the singer especially went to the city on the water, Venice, to get shots. Maintaining the style that started from his well-received album "Ye Hui Mei", this album's image and cover was created solely by Jay Chow.
They are taking in the orders for this album....for those who order beforehand will get the special edition of this album and his posters...so hurry
JAY CHOU rox!!!!

am I doin the right thing??

Found myself asking this question countless times....this morning my mom and I had a talk about the course I am going to study....nursing....my parents had some doubts about it...mainly on whether am I suitable for this career or not....

Up till now I still manage to surprise everyone with this choice....the first reaction is naturally the same..... haaaaa!why you choose this course ?Your result very bad meh?There are many other course for you to choose from,why choose this one?..... well, first thing first..I'm happy with my A-level result and is nursing that bad?everyone sounded as if I told them that I'm doing something insane.......

I know it's an uncommon decision I had made and for those who know me wouldn't even imagine me being a nurse....cos I'm can be consider an impatient girl with lousy temper and the clumsiness is my famous trait....
Most of you may thing that being a nurse may mean doing dirty jobs like cleaning after the patients....but I think this perception should change cos being a nurse means taking care of the very sick and ensuring that they can recover rapidly....it is nearly as noble as a doctor's job.

Since I know my grades won't allow me to be a doctor,nursing is the next best job in saving people lives...

as usual my dad starts worying about whether I'm suitable for the job (when I'm not even starting the term yet),the job hazards that i'm goin to face especially with the avian flu (predictably)on the rise.I know my dad just doesn't want me to do jobs like cleaning the wounds and stuff...and with my personality I may end up killing a person in the process..haha....
even though I'm sure that I'm going to study this course... but am I doing the right thing?can I stand it ?

well....I think only time has the answer to my questions..

I can't!I'm allergic you know......???

Haha finally I'm irritating everyone with my freelance state....Hey guys you do notice I rarely posted something like "what a peaceful day!!" right...I think it is probably the side effect of the medication I'm taking for my cough.....You know...Hallucination...starting to imagine things liao....
In case some of you are wandering what am I with all the free time in the world...then I'll keep you up to date....
You see after spending a few weeks of free time my day kind of fall into a format...

• Starting by waking up around 10 am....(maybe a bit later this few days due to unforseen circumstances..hee hee) of course this include the morning routine of bathing and all those stuff
• then had my brunch....you see I had the luxury to have it everyday while most of you guys can only enjoy it during the weekends! :)
• read the newspaper thoroughly including the classified section.....you know to find jobs...
• by the time i'm finished with the newspaper......it's probably around 1pm...YaY!...psst....the record time for when i finish reading the paper is around 2pm...
• then help my mom with the endless chores.....to prevent me from getting fat...
• follow by the whole afternoon of books and naps...this is my fav part...haha

(by the way for those who are busy from morning till night feel frre to slap me...hahahahaha)

• then i'll drag my dog for a long tiring walk.....now i think I know every detail part of the padang.....
• had some dinner
• then it's series time!!
• first starting with the cantonese at 7pm and follow by the korean series at 8.30pm.....in between the two series I have a short intermission of 30 minutes..you it's tiring to keep on watching TV :p
• then I'm playing games on my PC...or updating my blog!!

ok...that's practically all the general details of my everyday life....and HK I think I know what you want to say......Go find a job!!!(am i correct??)

eer...the details may subject to change due to unforseen situation...and time may vary.... :p

What a peaceful day!

It rained this morning and how comfortable and lucky was I to spend the whole morn in my bed.... when I woke up around 11am and whoa....the sun is already shining so bright....
Had a heavy breakfast or more appropriately a brunch with the daily newspaper and off I go nagging my bro to get prepared for school....done some chores for my mom
Today is a windy and sunny day...it seems almost a perfect day .....so peaceful....so relaxing....with the leaves rustling when the wind blew...it makes me think that i'm back to the beach where I usually spend my holidays in....
There are very big trees on that seaside and when the sea breeze came the tree leaves rustle forming some kind of melody which always makes me doze off to sleep......
Just imagine yourself sitting under a big old tree with its branch partially blocking out the sun ray and there's a mild wind keep on whistling around....and in front of you there is the big wide ocean...where you can doze off whenever you want.....without ever worrying that you have to finish something afterward...or to meet up with somebody.....it's just you and the surrounding.
Oh how I miss the seaside...

an unusually eventful day

This morning woke up early to help my mom with the apple tarts,which took me nearly 2 hours to prepare the apple filling and the baking of the crust......and after that took a shower and off I go to visit my student.....well today was suppose to be children's day...played some games with them....and had a very good and crazy time with them....I'll surely miss them...the first ever cute bunch of kids I teached...haha....
Then,I had some lunch withmy primary schoolmates.....finally I tried the ever famous nando's chicken....it's delicious ...if you haven't taste it before,I highly recommend you to taste it....although I suggest that you order the mild one...because it can be quite spicy for some...hee hee...
Guess what happen next.....I made a very quick decision to go on a shopping spree with Soo Imm.....I think we spent nearly seven hours in 1-utama......where among it is an hour wait for our dinner to arrive.....
to be honest this is the first time I really went on a shopping spree.....bought many things....you see I'm usually not a big spender but dunno what got into me today....nearly spent finish my whole working salary!!!hahaha.....
at first I feel it is the most heart breaking thing I have ever done....but I look at all the things I have bought...and the time I spent with my friend I think it is worth the money....although I still think it is a bit dangerous to go on a shopping spree with Soo Imm....haha cos she can manage to persuade me to buy all kinds of things.......
here is a list of what I bought today:

• A purse
• A bag
• A t-shirt
• A Jacket(the favourite!!)
• a hair clip(still think it is expensive la...imm)
• a few facial mask....haha....

had a wonderful dinner although we have to wait for an hour before our food arrive.....aihhhh

ok nite then i'm off to bed liao cannot stand la.....

my leg having cramps now.....from the over exercise....haha

news from abroad

Just saw one of my friends blog....
She is having a hard time there....well it really shows that studying overseas is not that easy as it seems....just hope that this friend of mine can really stay strong enough...wen ching,eventhough we can't be there for you when you are facing all those problem,you still can phone me no matter what time it is.....that is if you can wake me up...haa haa.....
hey i'm not joking ok?just try,maybe you'll get lucky.....
well enuf of that...as for me...i have done totally nothing today....ok ok....i noe i'm becoming a parasite liao....hee hee....
actually do any of you noe any good violin teacher ar???
i want to learn la.....

maybe that's why

Hey I found some really cool things just now...why i'm looking on my fren's blog...
and I know the reason why...hee hee

Your Birthdate: May 2

Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life. The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil. It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

just nice to know...

well,thanks for your comment hk... i'm touced by what you said and thanks for the advice.....
maybe i'm too free la...got nothing to do then only simply think....just as you said things come and go...but sometimes it's too late to change anything or to grab on something that is not gonna be yours forever....
tried that once...but failed and learned a lesson...never hold on to something that doesn't belongs to you.
I practically slept through the morning today...haa haa you'd probably think i'm a pig...well...haven wake up that late for ages...and spend nearly whole hour hearing my mom lecturing me on how not to waste time and call me to go find myself a job....
maybe that is what i'm going to do...if not I'm goin to become a parasite liao...haa haa....
miss the school days la...cos at least i got something to do or read...and not wasting my time on television...
Now,I'm alone in my house everyone has things to do except me....I'm bored to death...
I think i nearly finish all the books in my house...maybe except a few of the non-fiction ones...who knows maybe I will start reading it later...
Was wondering how will my student perform in their maths test...hope they can score well....and hope that I did help them a little...
ok...that's all for now...enjoy your day everyone....

回忆

唉！我又失眠了。。。。。
现在这个时候全部人应该睡着了吧！
在这个夜深人静的晚上。。。。。我又胡思乱想了
我现在好怀念以前那三更半夜聊的电话。。。。
因为在这个时候。。。。心底想说的话都很容易说出口
不会像白天那样隐隐藏藏。。。那么幸苦
不过我想以前常和我聊天的那个人现在应该不会再跟我聊了。。。。
为什么？？
因为我们都觉得电话费太贵了。。。。哈哈哈哈
我们最高的记录是接近5百零吉。。。。
最长时间是3小时多。。。
你说我们变态？？对你应该说对了吧！
其实我并不会讲很久的点电话。。。。可是不知为什么一跟她讲起电话就不能停
聊的都是我们以前遇见过的人。。。对某件事的感觉。。。那一时候说发生的事
不然就是想办法解决彼此所面对的问题
有时候也会讨论班上所发生的事。。。有时还因为对方的事而哭！
现在想起来觉得当时的我们真傻。。。。
聊完后我都觉得很舒服，好像心中的大石头都放下了。。。轻飘飘。。。
一躺上床就可找到周公了。。。哈哈哈哈
真的很想现在拿电话拨给她。。。
不过我们可能聊不到一分钟。。。
挂上电话后我可能会比之前更难入眠。。。
明明彼此了解的两个人应该可以拥有永恒的友谊。。。
友情却如此的短暂！

What a long week!!

Finally I find some time to post something in my blog!!Had the most unbearable week of my whole 19 years of life.....
It all started when the vice priciple from Puay Chai called me to go back and substitute a teacher who had been transfer to the other school......this is where the problem start....well as usual I too good to say no....and off I go for another week of teaching......
Thought I would enjoy this week but it turns out that my prediction is wrong.....the vice priciple is the rudest teacher I have ever met......she even snub my dad....
On thursday,which is yesterday,this vice scolded me for the mistake that she has done this is not the worst part.......the worse is it happen in front of the entire class of student.....I thought I never care about my reputation...but in that very moment I realise......I DO CARE!!!!
Gosh!how I hate that vice....even thought of quiting the job immediately (which is a very rare decision for me ...)she even insulted me for not being responsible and dedicated to my job.........I JUST DEFINITELY HATE HER!!!!!!!
well.....enough of the job.....this week I even met the most ungentlemen and the most unimpressive guy!!....now You must be thinking that how come I am in such a bad state this week......don't ask me ......
I made 2 stupidest decision this week....

1. I decide to teach for a week.....again!!!
2. I decide to go see a movie with a guy I barely even know...just because All of my friend is just busy and I can't find anyone to accompany me......

stupid Right???

Tragic things that doesn't come true......

I......

I lost a best friend because some other people's stupidity

I met a friend few years back and we are enjoying each other's company

cos when I am with her I can talk my heart out....

Everyone around me keep on saying how I lucky I was

To have a friend like her

and of course I was proud.

Yet things turn out quite sour for both of us....

cos everybody started talking about our relationship

they think that the friendship we shared is too good to be just friends...

we chose to ignore these things

thinking that we did nothing of that sort

but unknown to us is that

because of this ignorance it slowly eats up our friendship

I end up hurting myself and her.

When I think back now,

I still don't get it....

why would they want to say that behind our back?

Those were the one whom I believe to be my friend!

FRIEND.....

friend don't these things to each other.....

How can they do these to me....

I didn't hurt them or done anything wrong .....

and to make friends isn't illegal.

don't they realise that because of their big mouth

I lost a best friend...

and to be honest I still find it hard to forgive

eventhough it is better to forgive and forget.....

but tell me who would forget these horrible things people done on them....

However I thank her for all the things she teached me

and indeed she is a good friend

And I hope she will find a better friend.....

In the future

my teaching experience

Been teaching tuition for 2 days liao....never thought that it would be that tiring especially you have to keep on repeating the same question again and again.....but i feel nice just to help them with their homework because their math teacher have been on medical leave for nearly a whole year liao.....

Well,this week i went back Puay Chai and to take over one of teacher's class for one week....this teacher teaches english and art for standard 3,4 and 6.....but honestly ...imagine me teaching english...hahaha.......a very bad english grammar user teaching english!!........pity the student..

But it is fun seeing the student struggling to finish their drawing...well i call them to draw an underwater world theme picture......and here comes the funny part.....ther was one standard 3 student...who only know how to draw sword fish...but after i teach him how to draw a jellyfish.....he fill his whole drawing paper with jellyfish and swordfish!!!

Blog of the day

This is the second post I have written today.....
Woke up very early this morning around 6.30am.....can't even open my eyes yet...had a wonderful dream yesterday night about food....cos I had some fruit cake before goin to sleep...hee hee.....maybe that is the cause of me having dreams about food...
I reached school quite early today....help Jing Tien with her marking and wrote the teaching record book.....the teacher's in the staff room had all kinds of conversation...some talking about their naughtiest student.....some joking about something which I don't get it but the others laugh like hell.....well,the joker must quite a pro then since I can't get but others was laughing like hell....and some was doing research on which brand of 'kaya'(this is a kind of jam....a malay traditional jam...to be exact)taste the best...
After work,Jing Tien and me went to a coffee shop near my house to have some lunch......and today's menu is roasted duck....
wow!the duck was delicious....ate half of it.....both Jing Tien and me....we can't barely walk when we finish it....
Thanks Jing Tien for the lunch....it was nice...next time "belanja"you ok?

To the scar I left on Hwa Khang's hand....

Well it all started on the day when the lord of the lantern roam the neighbourhood......well Hwa Khang offer to put a stick(but more appopriate to describe it as a twig) in his back pocket of his jeans..(was it a jeans or.....well..never mind)to act as an extra,in case one of the stick that is holding the lantern break.......
the story goes on with us walking around the neighbourhood and suddenly....there was avery loud scream...(trust me it is the loudest I've ever heard.....hee hee.... :P) followed by some cursing....
It happen that Hwa Khang accidentaly scratch his hand against the stick which is sticking from his back pocket.....
Hence, this is the famous scar I left on Hwa Khang's hand.......so reader be fair, do you think that it was I who left the scar on HK's hand??......
Now now HK,I have already done some justice for the scar I supposedly left on your hand....haa haa

P/S:In case you are wondering what i'm saying please refer to the blog"lord of the lanterns" comment.

The Lord of the Lanterns

haa...haa...Had a wonderful night yesterday.....
Along with a few of my primary school friend,we terrorised the neighbourhood with lanterns...singing our old primary school song, relighting our lantern every every now and then and singing some songs was what we did to celebrate the mid autumn festivals....
We even met the future Beethoven with his large load of musical lantern.......on the spot,this little composer show off his skill by competing his musical battery run lantern with our ever silent lantern.....
I never had such a fun mid autumn festival for a long time.
Come to think of it, if all goes according to my plan,it'll be the last mid autumn festival I'll be spending in Malaysia.Sad is the most appopriate to describe what I feel now.
The lord of the lantern terrorised the neighbourhood for nearly 3 whole hours until the last light of the lantern died off...
had a wonderful time guys.....thanks for the beautiful memory...

Mid autumn thoughts...

Just came back from my aunt's house......we all had a nice talk today....practically about anything...where she serve us with tea and mooncake.While my uncle some antique coin,where some of it is dated back to the year 1880....
He even show us some of the coins from China....
my aunt even told me about the story of how our ancestor came to malaya
and how poor they are ....It make me realise how fortunate I am....especially my family.....
Well,while I'm living comfortably here in K.L.,some of my cousin in my hometown have to worry about how their future would be.....
One of my cousin,same age as me, doesn't have the luxury to think whether she,herself want to have a university education or not .....her family just haven't had enough fund for that....yet her mother tried ways just to be able to collect the sum of money needed for her daughter's education.
With the hope that,eventually her daughter would be better off than her.
So....I have thank my dad for that....
He work day and night just to provide us with only the best....
My friends always thought that my dad is strict...well,I also agreed with that but what I see is that my dad had already cultivate a sense of belonging for the family.....which I notice that some of my friend's family lack off...
Even though he is strict,he always bring us to fine restaurant for dinner, let us experience new thing,my mom will always have the weekend off and we do the groceries together....well some of my friend is surprise by that...
However,sometimes I do feel a little tight up....and I used to argue with him about not giving us freedom and all,that I'm not a little kid anymore...those kind of stuff...slowly I came to realise that...I'm just not matured enough for me to go out alone to this big world......it just naive of me or anyone to say they are big enough to handle the world by him/herself.....
haha...how far my thoughts wander off....
so as my final words in this post...I wish all of my friend a very happy mid-autumn festival...

An outing

This very morning I wake up very early,just to find myself preparing the ingredients for lunch....took me nearly the whole hour just to do that .
Luckily,there is just enough time to prepare myself before hwa khang come..and fetch me to Puay Chai for a visit....met one of my friend,Jing Tien there who apparently enjoy teaching science by adding some spices of butterflies and bees thing just to get her student's attention...
Now I'm crazy enough to go back for a week to be a teacher once again.....
god....What was I thinking when I agree to do that....
well...at least I got something to do.....
if not I think my brain will degenerate until a size of a pea......
my diagnosis would be....Parkinson disease!
lately I just make a new friend his name is lim keat.....
whenever he sms me.......just make me thing will there ever be just friendship among a boy and a girl.....
for me it is just like making a new friend....
because I think he is just not mature enough....
he is a year younger than me.....and is one of my student's older bro....
dun ask me how do we know each other....to be honest I haven't even met him before....
quite impossible right?
I think I shouldn't have even agree to meet up with him after I heard what my friends said.....
Just make me feel bad....
Anyway,enough of that crap...
after failing to get his salary,me and hwa khang went to soo imm's house......where her cute little dog and her father greet us.
Soo Imm who apparently have diarrhea for the last 5 days was amazingly fit enough to talk with us.....
well in that short span of time...i manage to finish a can of 100 plus and nearly a bowl of carrot cake(i think it is the name for what i eat gua)....
god this time i'll be so fat
another diagnosis......obesity...
and finally her comes the big announcement....
I nearly beat Hwa khang with all the fight we had in PS2.....haha
except when he use his panda...... :(
ok la that's all for today...i think is the longest blog i have written so far....
have a nice day.....
oh yeah right forgor to mention that I had McD for lunch today with Jing Tien and Hwa Khang....
we had a nice talk.....enjoy it so much.....

yay!I'm goin on a tour......

Yes!I'm goin to China finally.ermm...Jiuzhaigou to be exact...hee hee...
Heard it is beautiful there,look like a heaven on earth ..that's what my freind said when she was back from her holiday ......
so god!I just can't wait to be there now....
Well,I'm goin there on the 23rd of october which means there is still more than a month of waiting to do...... :(
I'm definitely looking forward to this trip.....because I think it will be the last trip with the whole family together....before I go on to university.....which is in Melbourne.......
Hope it'll be a memorable trip for all of us,just like the trip to Paris we had a few years back......

The time of parting

Soon most of my friends will be flying to UK .

Already,some is already on board a plane flying to their known destination yet unfamiliar place.

Just last week I send off 2 friends whose destination is the same,UK.

One is my secondary school mate while the other is my college mate.

Wai Lee, secondary school mate,whom I'm very close with for the last 2 year in my secondary school,including 2 other friend Ai Yee and Puay Boon, were fast friend and our conversation used to be never ending, we can talk from clothes to school teacher and even to the ways of cooking a drumstick.Not only the teachers,even our classmates complained that we are very noisy!

But that is the past,I just hope that in the future Wai Lee can be a successful lawyer.

The other one which is my college mate, Wen Ching.This girl strikes me as a very quiet and intelligent girl when I first met her.However,never judge a book by it's cover,I have been surprised by her quiet a few times we met.The time we, including Hui Jin and Shing Shuang,spend together are the best time I had in college.We had so many surprise birthday Party for each other until I lost count.

So, Wen Ching I hope you can do better this time with the road you are walking now ,remember our gathering on year 2010 and remember the promises behind this date.Can't wait to see you back again.

陌生人、时间、爱

相爱是什么滋味呢？

寂寞我知道

常都听到、读到、看到互相珍惜的恋人

自己却未尝试过

好奇心越强。。。

就越觉得寂寞

或许就像别人说的一样。。。。

这些事要拿号码排队急不来的

有时还真有点担心，

担心这辈子一个人过！

哈哈！原来我也是怕孤独的人。

曾经以为已经遇到彼此相爱的人

那时的我心情好复杂。。。

开心、害怕

就因为自己缺少了勇气而错过了时机

啊！原来时间是那么重要！

现在的他已经找到适合他的一位女孩。。。

从他眼里看得出，她很重要。。。

他脸上有了一种无法形容的骄傲

那一瞬间。。。。

我祝福了他们

原来我一直活在梦中！