the reason::me::
Easter break is over for nearly a week now.
been busy like hell during the break...
working for 4 days straight.....leg nearly broke off, cannot walk properly for
the next 2 days...
but luckily this gives me time to finish off my assignment..haha
I think my procastination skill improved quite alot lately
it must be the lively city that i am in right now.
Got a question for all my friends out there....
is it purely the true reason when a guy states that he wants to be friends with you...
and yet calling you day and night, in between as well.
guys: is this how you get your girlfriend?
girls: is this how your boyfriend wins over your heart?
If the answer to both the question is yes...
then the reason i am still single is because of me, myself
everytime it started all well, we can talk like normal friends...
i actually enjoying talking with them...
but then it all change when that guy keep on calling me...
asking me how i feel today....what am i doing right now...
saying good night....etc
it make me feel like someone is stalking me 24/7
am i abnormal? bian tai?
or will you feel the same if this happen to you?
you see.. my reasoning is ...
if you want to be my friend then act normally ...
don't stalk me 24/7..or give me the feeling of being stalked.
I don't like to hurt people feelings....it make me thinks that i am cold blooded
i am not.
it is all right to ask me out for lunch or dinner...
but don't let me feel that you are desperate....
it really puts me off....
Well the recent victim
would be a mongolian guy.
We met on the street...sort of.
he was a security guard in one of the bar/lounge.
when i pass through there, we would always talk a bit.
I am happy that i am brave enough to talk to a stranger for the 1st time.
Improvement.
Never expect much out of it.
one day, on my way to uni.
He asked for my number, thinking that it is alright....
'he wouldn't be so boring to call me' so i gave him
he did call back. i mean that is the purpose of the phone number right?
we chatted for an hour...
mainly is him talking and me listening.
get to know him abit better.
after that he msg me and call me back at night....
suddenly there is this 'fear' coming out again...
'oh no this is not happening again.'
(did you see what happen here...it is the same as all those ones before....)
Any suggestions on how to change my thinking?
I think i am a 变态.....had a very weird thinking regarding this sort of things....
argh!!!! help me.
this is the reason why....
sometime i asked myself do i expect it to be like a fairytale?
or like those drama with happy ending?
i think it would not be like this if i have some feeling for the guy who asked my number.
who call me day and night and in between.
who wants to know what am i doing at that very moment.
but why isit the wrong guy everytime?
or isit i did not give them a chance everytime.
