This is what relatives are....

To do or not to do...
to tell or not to tell...

this is the problem I faced this week,
something my uncle did makes me ask myself this question.
It is by far not a very big serious situation,but I am fumed when I heard this from my sis.

Basically,my uncle left my sister alone with 2 stranger to do up his floor in his apartment and when he and my aunt went away from the city to a small town where my uncle practices his medicine and stay over in the weekend. they din even pack in preparation for the small little renovation, and expect that my sis disessemble the bed for them and move their cupboard and remove the furniture for the work men to do their work.(what kind of adult leave a teenager to do all this heavy work by herself huh??luckily my sis is an ex LM)

I'm surprise that my uncle would be that irresponsible and treating my sis like a maid...which i think this is way overboard...

my sis ask me not to tell my parents what my uncle did, mainly because she doesn't want to make a scene out of it...and she doesn't our parents to worry about it.

But with my big mouth dun expect me to shut up, still told my parents anyway.

Mainly, after my parents speak to my uncle abt what he did, he still din thinks that he is wrong by doin that...
but honestly would you in your sanest mind leave a 17 yr old teen with 2 stranger in an apartment??
and would you as a parent leave your own daughter with 2 stranger in an apartment for two wole days staright??

this however isn't the major part of the story yet,
after my mom had a long talk with my uncle abt everything, all he did when he call my sis is asking how his friggin floor is doin and will she help him clean up the floor??!!!!

what the hell is wrong with him??huh!!! how can u just ignore everything and just wanted to know that how your precious floor is doin!!!!go to hell man.to think that he is my relative jus make me hate him more...

Now, my "Saint" uncle thinks that it is my sis who told them abt what happen, and then complain every small little details abt what my sis din wan to do for him when he told him to do like....can she throw away the pampers his daughter used for him, while he planed to bring his daughter and his wife out for a nice little walk!!!GOSH...breaking news my uncle jus got a maid from malaysia who also happen to be my sis and his very own niece....
how terrible can he be then??
It's not even becos my mom doesn't pay him anything for my sis livin in his place....she pays alot ok..enuf for my sis to live in a 5 star hotel ok!!!!

so everybody pls beware, if u ever planning to study oversea...stay away from relatives..this is the worse nightmare u can get...even if they offer to let u stay with them(that's wat my uncle did)... even if you think u noe them well, bcos ppl change when you live with them long enuf....

I wish I can curse him for what he did to my sis... haih, poor little sis, she would be goin thru hell right now...

P/S: this type incident may not happen to some, bcos their relative are really an angel.Just be careful if u ever make a decision to stay with a relative in the future.

报应

这个星期，已经被烫伤了两次。。。不知是不是因为我是恶魔所带来的报应？因为我得自私而得来的结果。

以前，我都会常听人说长大以后你会慢慢变成另一个人。。。当时我不明白为何他们会这样说，心想本性难移啊！！现在得知了，虽然说是本性难移，但为了应付这个世界你会慢慢地把真正的自己埋藏起来。。。

这就是所谓的变成另一个人。

刚开始或许你会不断地责怪自己，因为你所做的一切一切伤害了不少人，但久而久之你就会被这个假象代替了真正的你。。。

这就是事实吗？难道世界就是那么的丑陋？？人类也因此得越变越复杂？？

以前的我是不会像现在那样为了自己而不顾身边的人的感受， 可能这就是所有变化的开始。。。因为我现在觉得很愧疚。

当然要不要变得更恶劣，我扮演了做决定的那个角色。。。

人的恶和善，是如何的分辨？对自己好就代表着你或许在过程中会伤害很多人，这是好？坏？

对别人好自己却因这而失去了千载难逢的机会，这又是好还是坏？

nothing interesting

Just got back from work...gosh so tired...
Lately I have been very slow....and dreamy dunno what's the reason....
I went to donate blood this week but they say I can't donate cos my iron count is too low...no wonder i feel tired lately...
the nurse told me to have more red meat and more fruit juice....
seems like if you really like to help and care for the others, you have to take care of your self first...if not even if you have the heart you won't have the ability to do whatever is needed from you.
ok this is it for now...I have to go back to my assignment.

变了

今天，上课时发生了一些事情。。。
我因为一个同学没来上课而对她发脾气。。。也不知为什么我不把事情好好地解释给她听。。。
明知她一定不会明白到底发生什么。。我都不想多费力气去解释给她听。。。课后去找她时。。。她还那么得轻松的上网我看了就更气。。。你们现在一定在奇怪为什么我那么的夸张的。。。只不过是一堂课而已吗...不需要那么得大惊小怪的。。。
在我就读的课程里，每一堂实习课我们都必须上。。如有缺席除非是生病不然会算是全科不及格的。。。明白了吧？好了又回到那个故事去。。。
直到我把一切详细的解释后她才以一个责怪我的眼神看我。。。看她就快要哭的样子我也没心情去安慰她。。。随便跟她说几句就走了。。。
心里只想着为什么她那么的笨啊？自己的事不会去打理吗？总是依赖身边的我去帮她注意。。。不只是第一次了。。。经过那么多次了还不会自己注意一下吗？。。。还怪我？我上课之前就打电话告诉你，你一定要现在就来上课。。。说时间已经换了。。。
现在回想起来。。我对当时的我感到好害怕哦。。。如果是以前的我。。我一定会帮忙她而不是一走了之的。。就算帮不上我也会在她身边安慰她。。。而不是视而不见地说再见。。。
我变了吗？变成了冷酷无情，骄傲瞧不起人的人吗？我以前也是那么的依赖我的朋友。。。为什么我现在就不会像我的朋友一样帮忙她呢？我变残忍了。。。真是不寒而栗啊！！！
恐怖的人上。

welcome to my world...

ok...
I finally got myself a webcam...and I have taken some photo of my room and the house i'm currently living in.....
I hope you can bear with the pictures...it's blur....

不知道为什么。。。。

今天我又想起了他，也不知道什么事情让我再度回想起以前的事。。。
不知他现在是否安好呢？
地球的另一边会是什么样子呢？
我以为我会放得下。。。那为什么现在又那么的执著？

finally civilisation....

Finally after I have arrived here for more than 3 months....the civilisation has come to me...I got broadband!!!
yeap...I know you think that should I announce to the whole world about this small-little-unexciting-and-you-get-to-use-it-everyday thing....
But you have to realise that I'm at down under where everything is so laid back even the technology get affected too.....however I think this lifestyle so far still hasn't had any impact on me...cos I still change job at a very high speed...the yum cha place boss got fired....hahaha...
but the new 1 i have got... i really hope it will last though...haih...th job is fairly easy....drying out plates and bowls and setting up the tables...i did so many times during the night that i dreamt abt it during the night...
i know what you think..it won't last..but let just see if i can stand it for a month than we will discuss abt the prospect of this new job

happy birthday to me....

today is my 20th birthday....had a wonderful day and surprisingly I'm not depressed by the fact that I'm out of malaysia.
Because being out here makes me know there is actually alot of people do actually care about me and they haven't for got about my birthday....although I'm still short on the present....well, i'm kind enough bcos I will still recieve them eventhough it is late...haha
Actually, vanessa celebrated my birthday with me by bringing me for a dinner and a movie today...and I'm touched by the fact that she would go so far out to celebrate it with me and even a card and a present from her plus a handmade birthday cake from her too....and after we are back from the movies she made me some warm cocoa...
to be in short, I'm surprised , thankful and touched by what she did, bcos....to be honest even friends that know me so long wouldn't do that....
so I think I finally made up my mind about my landlady.....she is trulyt a knid and understanding person and I have done her a great injustice by scolding her last time ...and I think the greatest gift that i have recieved would be that I found a friend in her.....a one that I can approach when I'm in trouble...plus the fact that she finally decided to install broadband(although i still paid my share of the fee)...so you'll be seeing me on9 for 24 7 ....hahahaha.....

Thanks everybody for the warm birthday wishes you gave me last night....it's enough to know that you still remember my birthday and that was the best you can give me for a gift.(that is bcos i keep on reminding some of you hahaha)