Emo in the making....

*warning: If you don't like complaints....skip this post and come back for a happier one next time.*

Is there any device that can make the time pass faster?
I want to go back to Melbourne...yet I want to spend time here in Malaysia with my friends and family...
this time around, the effect of leaving Malaysia for such a long time is obvious....too obvious.

Everybody has their own things to do, new friends to hang out with, countless uni activities to attend to, work to get extra money,spend time with their other half....etc

I am frustrated!!!!
Frustrated that I can't go anywhere on myself...
Frustrated that I can't work.
Frustrated that I am wasting time here doing nothing.....
Frustrated that I can only message him and not talk to him about things that happen here....
Frustrated that there is such ridiculous high cost in calling international calls.
Frustrated that I can't arrange anything for the months ahead because the timetable is not out yet.
Frustrated that somebody thinks that I am a traitor to my own country just by stating some very truthful fact.....wake up BOLLOCKS!!!!

SO SO Frustrated that I feel like I am becoming a alligator snapping at everyone at any given moment...... Feel like crying

If only there is some special way that can let me travel between here and Melbourne in seconds.
If only things would be as simple as it appear to be...
then it wouldn't be so hard now.
If only I can hug him now.
If only...