There's a crack in my heart...

To be honest everyone, I feel crappy at this very moment.

I have been moody for the past week, which I blame it on my ever fluctuating hormones.

It's not doing me any good as it has stir some doubts on my current relationship and currently contemplating on whether I should end it or give it another go.

It all started on the day where I start reflecting back on the past year and recent events. I came to realize that some things are not right in my life. I spent half of last year travelling between Melbourne and Sydney.

If anyone ever consider having a long distance relationship, I suggest that you think again and again and again.

It sucks! (i guess it's common knowledge, whatever drove me to commit to this in the first place, I'm not even sure. Considering that I'm a non-believer as well.)

why is he not taking up the burden as well? work was the main thing. I was studying back then so I have time on my hand.

But now that i'm starting to work full time, how are we going to do this? Tried to talk to him. but it seems like my effort is futile, he somehow manage to make it as awkward as possible or totally avoid it. what is he trying to tell me? should I read in between the lines?

I need some guidance somewhere if anyone is reading. Tell me is it normal that a guy doesn't talk back when someone says that his girlfriend is ugly? even when the person who made that comment was his cousin or his best mate?

I felt disappointed. why doesn't he defend me? I felt so unimportant to him. it seems like i don't matter at all?I would have thought he was better than that and I would like to give him the benefit of doubt but how ??

I'm so disappointed. so so disappointed.

What have i been up to these days?

Plenty...
Sorry for the amazingly long absence from this blog.
Time really fly fast.

I think I shall start with the most recent event then. Just got back from Sydney. This time we went to Hunter Valley, where all the Shiraz and Semillion of Australia come from.

Was there for 3days 2 night and stayed in a haunted house @.@
was scared to death for the first night after reading the entries from previous visitors to that house!

The house was a lovely old farm house however getting to the place wasn't at all lovely because the only access to the place is dirt gravel road.The loveliest part of this house is the bathroom, which has a cool underfloor heating. Thus making it the warmest place of the house.

The old phone really works but it gave us a jump when it rang*Spooky*

I love this bed...the best i have ever slept on so far.It's hard to get up once you lie on it.

Absolutely love this view..especially in the morning with lots of bird sound.

As for the most interesting part of this house, which we only found out when we got there was that the house still has some of it's original occupants. A boy with a tricycle and his granny and the boy would come out and play in the early morning of 3am! Previous visitor got woken up by his tricycle sounds on the veranda and the moving rocking chair. I heard the noise made by the tricycle on the first night but was too scared to validate the source of sound so I can just say that it's probably some sound from the heater in the next room.

The place was still lovely when the morning came, we found out that there were 4 cows munching grass on our front lawn! It's a pity that I was enjoying the moment and forgot to take the picture of 4 really cute cow eating...

Apart from the house we went around to a few wineries and I bought a few bottles of really nice ones.

Wyndham Estate

The floor moved!

There's an earthquake in Melbourne!
It happened yesterday night before 9. When I was just sitting down browsing through the TV channels...

At first I thought it was my brother jumping up and down, then I realized that's pretty stupid...

Well, according to the news report the quake center is located around 90km south-east of Melbourne the magnitude is recorded as 4.6 on the Richter scale...

and there you go the highlight of yesterday

A really really belated Valentines for me

Just got back from Sydney 3 days ago and I had the best time there(always do...hehe)

This time I visited Blue Mountain, went to a really famous restaurant in Sydney and went to a small little beach town called Mollymook.

First stop: Blue Mountain...our valentine weekend.

and I got my bouquet of flower as well *happy*

in front of the Wentworth falls..the largest I have seen so far...

1st part..

2nd part...


and the 3rd part!!

and the surrounding area of the fall.




the place that we live in is beautiful..it's a pity that I didn't take any pics...
and the view is amazing...

just imagine waking up to this in the morning...
and a small little waterfall..


2nd stop: Tetsuya's














3rd stop: The town of Mollymook


Just love the sky in Australia...always so blue.
Remember last year when I visited Kiama...
well this town is even further away from Sydney...3 hours from Sydney
so we all can celebrate Joe's Birthday..


the designated driver...
and the birthday boy(below)

We went to the beach, dinner then games....
dinner was good but it got even better after the alcohols..lol


Such a gay picture..lol

Christmas!!

Christmas is just round the corner and this is my first time spending Christmas in Australia considering that I have been here for nearly 3 years now.

There is festive atmosphere everywhere I go in Melbourne. The decorations put up are really beautiful but I still think that the decorations in Malaysia's shopping center is way more extravagant...hehe...

here some pics... so enjoy

This is window display on Myers... This year's theme is "How Santa Really Work?" Showing above is the production department...

this is the storage department...the santa is so cute!!

The letters department where all the letters from the children are read

and of course...the transport department...which is very important!!!hehe....

The graffitti wall... Written on it is all the little kid's Christmas wishes...


on Federation Square is the Advent Calendar... every night @9pm...there will be a little performance to reveal things that represent Christmas...

Apart from Melbourne, the decorations in Sydney is pretty unique with
a Christmas tree being made out of chairs and the humongous tree in QVB that I only manage to get only a small part the tree.

it looks like a pile of old chairs to me...but I heard it's pretty when the lights are turn on at night...

part of a giant Christmas tree

women

Well...
I have disappeared long enough and I apologise for the lack of update.
If anyone is still visiting this long abandon blog, I have a troubled mind that needs to be cleared.

here is the problem...

It's nearly half a year since my boyfriend move back to sydney, meaning he is currently living with his parents and I have always thought that I get along with his mom. That I never really need to worry about her not liking me or something on that line.

But after this trip to sydney, something happen and it made me think otherwise. From what I gather, there may be more than one occasion that she complain about me to George.

To be honest, I am surprise. Because she seem to be courteous to me. Saying that she doesn't need my help when I offer. That goes to when I even insisted that I help her, she still says no.

Now she turns around and say that she doesn't like people that sits around and do nothing!!


I have to admit that I have given up offering her my help because everytime i did she made me look stupid so i stopped. Maybe I shouldn't have stop.

It seems like I can never assume what she is thinking.

It led me to think that women are such a complicated animal. It is never a simple yes or no , it is always tied with some kind of term and condition.
No wonder we ourselves never seem to understand fully what we want.


From this incident it makes me think that women are cunning and manipulative so that they always get their way. Well at this point there may be female reader would want to object my views strongly.
But I must say sometimes I would think of ways to get what I want. Does this make me manipulative and cunning?

Godd bye, Grace.

Have a safe journey home, Grace.
We will miss you in Melbourne.