a guy who buys bikini

I had a story to tell.It seems to me that I have some kind of luck to run into weird guys.

And the story I'm about to tell you is my latest "discovery".

It all started in a fine day.....

where me and my uni mate when to the mall.

we planned to meet up one of her high schoolmate,

so...

this guy turn up and my friend go through the normal process

of introducing your friend to the other friend thing thingy.

Trust me it all started well with him asking us for

our feminine taste for a birthday gift.

And the birthday gift turns out to be a new set of bikinis...

shocked is the word of the moment...

my my spechless right?

ok maybe you don't see so much fuss over a new set of bikinis as a bday gift

The spotlight is this guy hasn't met the recipient of gift before

and he is buying her a set of new bikinis....

with a bra size of 38D.

WoW!!It must be quite heavy...

Why on earth would A guy buy a bikini as a bday gift for a friend that you haven't met before?

Ok..all the alpha males here...

would you buy a set of bikinis for a stranger?

all right, on with the story.

And so we went into countless shops to look around for the "perfect size"

mind you it is hard to find the right size for a person with that body

Killer.

HE insist on brand names as well,

what the reason behind it? I don't want to know.

Wondering.....he must be really desperate.

Plus he keep on insisting that he is a poor chap...

well, if you are not rich you wouldn't spend a fortune on a stranger that you met over the internet.

and with the poor man part it kinda remind of the other weird guy I met last time.

Finally, we found the prefect 1

and the "cute" part is he finally felt there is something wrong in buying a bikini for a girl.

You all should have look at every shopper that went into that shop.

It's a sight to behold.

Just imagine a guy staring a ton's of bikinis in a shop full of women intimate apparels

all I can say about him is that he one weird and "brave" guy.

rainy days

Uni started this week and apparently it seems that this course is starting to become more of a challenge for me. Life start to get busy with another huge pile of assignments to be finished before I can start dreaming of getting back home to Malaysia.
It looks to me that this sem. we are going to know more about medications and I will be going to clinical placement at the end of september for 2 weeks, feels kind of excited and scare at the same time. I'm starting to ask myself whether I have learn enough to go to hospital for clinicals...hahah wouldn't want to harm any patients I'm attending to right?
so for those that is in Gosford, Australia don't get sick between the last week of september and the first week of october....
or if you do get real sick and in need of hospitalisation don't come to gosford hospital...I will be there...don't say I didn't warn you guys.
It has been raining the whole week now, I hate winter....super cold.
and finally my study buddy arrive earlier this week...the name is PRESSURE....thought I lost her after I have finish my A-levels....looks like I'm wrong.
so there will more rainy days up ahead for me....

P/s: I have added a new link under the name stanley.....this blog writes quite good review about movies and songs...if you have loads of time...feel free to browse around. enjoy.

舍得吗？

哎。。。假期即将结束现在好有点不想上课了呢。。。
anyway..你们大家一定很奇怪我最近怎么那么静。。。没经常update这个blog一定是在臭骂着林巧君到底“活”去那里了。。。哈哈。。或许就没人发现我的缺席。。。
好啦，废话少说进入正题吧。
这个星期呢。。。我跑去我朋友家住一整个星期哈哈爽吧？而且还通晓很多晚呢。。。
看了超级多连戏剧。。上一个post 介绍你们的戏也是其中一个。。。看到我现在都还有点头痛了呢。。哈哈。。不过很过瘾
erm...除了看戏外还去了很多地方。。。还吃到好好吃的韩国餐。。。hee hee...
也因为这样，我也越来越了解我这个朋友了。。。想到我明年不会在这里读了就有点不舍得她。。。本以为我不会在乎这些事情的。。哪知道。。。日子久了人的思想都会有所改变。
想到我们在火车上讲的笑话。。哈哈还真是好笑的。。有机会就讲给你们啦。。。
下个学期即将开始了，下一半年将会发生什么事呢。。。有点想知道。
好啦，现在就到此吧！
大家好好保重身体哦！
*看了那么多韩剧，突然间很想学一学韩语。

Princess Hours

This series is quite popular in korea lately, I have watch it and find it quite special as it is set in a world where korea has a royal family.
The story evolve around a high school called Shen Chae Gyung betrothed to the crown prince Lee Shin.














This special background story made it a popular series in korea, and is highly recommend by lots of people.
It combine some of the essence from the Full House, 2004.
There is a rumour about a second part in the making, whether this true....i'm not sure.
so hope u enjoyed this drama as much I had.

Happy Watching.However, I have to warned those who has limited time on their because this drama is highly addictive...hahaha...so please make sure u have ample time in your hand before starting this series.

Shen Chae Gyung, an ordinary high school student became the wife to the crown prince. A modern cinderella that wants to become a designer in the future. But it all changes when she decide to married the crown prince because of her family.

The crown prince, Lee shin. Has a passion for photography and dream to become a director one day.A selfish and a lonely prince that Chae gyung hate at first, but as time goes on the prince slowly influenced by chae gyung became more open and less selfish.

In the picture, he is holding favourite teddy bear, Alfred.

Seong Lin, crown prince's girlfriend. The girl whom the prince wanted to married in the first place. However, she reject the prince's proposal and choose instead to fufill her own dream as a professional ballet dancer.

Lee Lv, second in line to the throne, a prince too. Cousin of the crown prince. He loves chae gyung and tries to win her heart, I personally thinks that he is more handsome than the crown price himself haha....

Alfred, has no line in the series. But the crown prince treat him as a treasure and a silent friend. This bear is given to the crown prince by the great emperor himself. Alfred is cute right? haha...

Pictures in courtesy of MBC production.

A surprise.

I recieved a surprised today, maybe it doesn't sounds very special to you lot out there...
but with the living style I'm currently in, it sort of a present for me.
A friend whom I thought I have lost replied my email today...am very very happy about it.
It seems that this friend of mine change alot since I last met her...
It seems that it is true that you can't stop being a friend once you are....
one day you will still contact each other no matter what happen before.
Friendship forever.

a long holiday

Been absent for more than a week in this blog...seems like an eternity..
Finally I have reached the end of my semester in uni...
Now I'm on a long holiday...the total length is 1 month...haha you all must be thinking what a lucky I'm
well, to be honest I dread it...too long to be exact..when you have nothing to do...
Just got back from melbourne this wednesday...already missing the pace of the city.
Will be goin to sydney for a second tour...too bad I dun have a camera to show you guys what sydney looks like...

Lately, I'm into a taiwan series called 恶作剧之吻。The main actor is 郑元畅(he also starr in another series called The Rose) and main actress is 林依晨。。。
I bet some of you had seen the japanese version before..but trust me this is much more better than the old one..the stories makes more sense..haha..
well i highly recommend you watch the chinese version and apparently there is news that they are gonna have the second part as well talking about 直树 and 相琴 married life just like the original story from the comic....it is predicted that the 2nd part will come out in year 2007....
ermm..abt this I not really sure whether isit true..
but watch it anyway..I recommend it for those that are crazy abt the jap version...and if you like 蔷薇之恋 this is your cup of tea...especially the main actor..wahaha...
all right that all for now...now I'm goin back to be a lazy pig again....
will post soon.

be content...

tonight has the most beautiful night sky....cloudless
full of stars..just like in the drawing,in the movie...so unreal
Just imagine the cold night air around you...where hot air from your breathing comes out as mist
there is some serenity and peace.... i suddenly realise
this is winter

i'm surprise it took me so long to notice the treasure that is here all along, I guess I'm so caught up with being scared, being sad, thinking all the things, the possibilty and not really sit down and observe.I complain too much, i realised that now.
I guess I have finally come to my senses that life is always full of challenges, time won't just stop there for me until i have accepted it. It will fly pass you even if it seems like the end of the world for you.
Somehow, things will become smooth again. Then why all the stress? Just relax and let it be, things will turn out ok everytime. What a naive thought you will think..maybe.
just be content.

when the second time comes around.

when you encounter the first,
you would have thought that it is bad enough for you to have gone through it.
Because your friends doesn't seems to encounter this ssort of problem before...
or maybe they have and you didn't know anything about it.

The time was hard to pass during your first encounter,
everything around you seems to collapse and you didn't know what to do.
Then, everything is solved and you think that it is so silly that you make such a fussed about it...
when all you need to do is to talk things out.

After, it is all over you think things back
have a laugh with it but...
remember that next time this kind of thing happens, you will know what to do.
However, deep down you pray that you would not go through it again.

So, life goes on and in fact everything seems to be getting better.
suddenly, BOOM!!
here it goes again...
the thing you dreaded the most.

You will think, you might not be as freak out as you did before...
but with the fact that you have gone through hell once
thinking about it makes you shiver even more...
although part of it is due to the stupid cold weather.

Now, you have gotten the shocking blow...
same as the first time ..
you just sat there asking yourself,
what have I done to deserve this.

however, in addtion to that question
it trigger yourself to prompt out another question
how many times is this gonna happen to me?
why is this always happening to me?

By now, you start shivering again...
then you started to sniffle
then the storm came in
you are now crying like it is the end of the world.

When the second time comes around,
you will still be as lost as the first time...
panicking, blaming, angry, wanting to shout out loud, crying
then you became silent.....

.....
.....
.....
the numbness you feel is overbearing

but this time you manage to be calm
and started to think.
What needs to be done to save yourself from
going through the ordeal you face 2 seasons ago.

you try to talk to someone which have more senses
but you wouldn't want your parents to worry about anything that had just happen
so message your friend...
in the midst of your conversation, the line got disconnected.

Man...
how bad luck can you be in 1 day.
you get this news, then you lose your internet connection
later you found out that you lose your phone connection as well.

Is this the main reason for not letting you to connect with the outside world
you think....

trapped and helpless,
you nearly go and kill this woman you hated so much...
but because you are too rasional even to do that
you just sat there dumbstruck.

After a sleepless night,
you get up in the morning and talk things through.
you solved the problem
and what is the main cause of all this thing

So, you solved it big deal...
tired and dehydrated...
you went to sleep
woke up...

You still feel like the same as you have felt the night before, bad.
fear is in the air.
uncertainty still hang around
insecurity sinking in.

Then you realise,
this is the harsh reality of life.
you will still feel shock no matter how many times you have encounter the prolem.

So do you accept the way of life
and move on , or...
you fight back ?

because of this incident...
it make you feel awful again...
to think you have to do everything to make yourself happy again is so...
tiring.

the difference between a culture

What's the difference between ang-mor and Hokkien fairy tales?

Ang-mor fairy tales begin with: "Once upon a time..."
Hokkien fairy tales begin with: "Lim Peh ka li kong..."

from: http://www.talkingcock.com/html/jokexec.php?op=JokeView&lexicon=jokes&jcat=Weird%20Singapore

it is all about jokes this week..

A Tale of Two Cows

TRADITIONAL CAPITALISM. You have two cows. You sell one and buy a bull. Your herd multiplies, and the economy grows. You sell them and retire on the income.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION. You have two cows. You sell one, and force the other to produce the milk of four cows. You are surprised when the cow drops dead.

A FRENCH CORPORATION. You have two cows. You go on strike because you want three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION. You have two cows. You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk. You then create clever cow cartoon images called 'Cowkimon' and market them worldwide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION. You have two cows. You reengineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and milk themselves. A BRITISH CORPORATION. You have two cows. Both are mad.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION. You have two cows, but you don't know where they are. You break for lunch.

A SWISS CORPORATION. You have 5000 cows, none of which belong to you. You charge others for storing them.

A CHINESE CORPORATION. You have two cows. You have 300 people milking them. You claim full employment and high bovine productivity. You have the newsman who reported on the numbers arrested.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION. You have two cows. You worship them.

A MALAYSIAN CORPORATION. You have two cows. You signed a 40-year contract to supply milk at 0.06 per lit. Then midway you raised the price to 0.60 or you cut supply. When the buyer agrees to the new price, you change your mind again and now want 1.20. The buyer decided you can keep the milk and they go look for milk that comes from recycled cows. Your two cows retire together with the PM.

A SINGAPOREAN CORPORATION. You have two cows: One "cow-peh" and one "cow-bu". Both are owned by a government linked corporation.

from http://www.talkingcock.com/html/jokexec.php?op=JokeView&lexicon=jokes&jcat=Weird%20Singapore

The Da vinci code....

hey guys, one of my friend found a very interesting site about da vinci code...
go and have a look...

http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html

hahaha...enjoy.

希望

希望是一个很奇妙的东西，它的力量庞大。。。
它会使一个人把所忘的东西都带回来，
它会使一个人的四周围变得非常的美丽，
因为它，心情都变得很好，期待也从冷房里拿出来解冻了。
看来，希望的好处并不小。

当你拥有那么好的东西时，
你认为任何事情都是好的。。。
其实你并不知道，希望已经慢慢的离你而去。。。
希望是什么？？
是当你觉得不可能发生的事，突然之间变成有可能了。。。这就是希望。

在这个时候，你就会想好多好多。。。
比如，突然之间你有希望可以回家。。。
不知不觉地，你就会开始想，当你回到家时你会做什么。。。
你会看到什么？？
这时你就会想，你终于可以看到你天天挂念的家人，朋友，熟悉的地方。
你就会想你可以回到以前那个你熟悉的生活。。。
睡在那个你很熟悉的被窝。。。抱着那个可爱的玩具小狗

想着想着，慢慢的这些就会进入你的梦中。
天天就期待着你所要的消息，
虽然你可能认为，你其实已经没那么的想家了。
但，对不起你错了。

认为给这个人希望的人做了残忍的事？？
是否应该等到一切确定在告诉他？？
而不是给他一个假的希望。。。

winter is settling in.

Today is the first day of winter.
Felt quite weird, I spending winter days first time in my life.
Autumn seems to me is short, maybe winter will be long .

About the last post, I would like to know how many people thinks that I'm doing the wrong thing and how many people thinks that I'm right by telling my parents...don't be afraid that I'll be angry or anything, and I know that it won't make any difference now but just wanna know.

Holiday is coming soon, actually been dreading it...
dunno why but I woulnd't know what to do with so much time, mind you the total length is around 1 month, too bad I can't come back to malaysia.

This is what relatives are....

To do or not to do...
to tell or not to tell...

this is the problem I faced this week,
something my uncle did makes me ask myself this question.
It is by far not a very big serious situation,but I am fumed when I heard this from my sis.

Basically,my uncle left my sister alone with 2 stranger to do up his floor in his apartment and when he and my aunt went away from the city to a small town where my uncle practices his medicine and stay over in the weekend. they din even pack in preparation for the small little renovation, and expect that my sis disessemble the bed for them and move their cupboard and remove the furniture for the work men to do their work.(what kind of adult leave a teenager to do all this heavy work by herself huh??luckily my sis is an ex LM)

I'm surprise that my uncle would be that irresponsible and treating my sis like a maid...which i think this is way overboard...

my sis ask me not to tell my parents what my uncle did, mainly because she doesn't want to make a scene out of it...and she doesn't our parents to worry about it.

But with my big mouth dun expect me to shut up, still told my parents anyway.

Mainly, after my parents speak to my uncle abt what he did, he still din thinks that he is wrong by doin that...
but honestly would you in your sanest mind leave a 17 yr old teen with 2 stranger in an apartment??
and would you as a parent leave your own daughter with 2 stranger in an apartment for two wole days staright??

this however isn't the major part of the story yet,
after my mom had a long talk with my uncle abt everything, all he did when he call my sis is asking how his friggin floor is doin and will she help him clean up the floor??!!!!

what the hell is wrong with him??huh!!! how can u just ignore everything and just wanted to know that how your precious floor is doin!!!!go to hell man.to think that he is my relative jus make me hate him more...

Now, my "Saint" uncle thinks that it is my sis who told them abt what happen, and then complain every small little details abt what my sis din wan to do for him when he told him to do like....can she throw away the pampers his daughter used for him, while he planed to bring his daughter and his wife out for a nice little walk!!!GOSH...breaking news my uncle jus got a maid from malaysia who also happen to be my sis and his very own niece....
how terrible can he be then??
It's not even becos my mom doesn't pay him anything for my sis livin in his place....she pays alot ok..enuf for my sis to live in a 5 star hotel ok!!!!

so everybody pls beware, if u ever planning to study oversea...stay away from relatives..this is the worse nightmare u can get...even if they offer to let u stay with them(that's wat my uncle did)... even if you think u noe them well, bcos ppl change when you live with them long enuf....

I wish I can curse him for what he did to my sis... haih, poor little sis, she would be goin thru hell right now...

P/S: this type incident may not happen to some, bcos their relative are really an angel.Just be careful if u ever make a decision to stay with a relative in the future.

报应

这个星期，已经被烫伤了两次。。。不知是不是因为我是恶魔所带来的报应？因为我得自私而得来的结果。

以前，我都会常听人说长大以后你会慢慢变成另一个人。。。当时我不明白为何他们会这样说，心想本性难移啊！！现在得知了，虽然说是本性难移，但为了应付这个世界你会慢慢地把真正的自己埋藏起来。。。

这就是所谓的变成另一个人。

刚开始或许你会不断地责怪自己，因为你所做的一切一切伤害了不少人，但久而久之你就会被这个假象代替了真正的你。。。

这就是事实吗？难道世界就是那么的丑陋？？人类也因此得越变越复杂？？

以前的我是不会像现在那样为了自己而不顾身边的人的感受， 可能这就是所有变化的开始。。。因为我现在觉得很愧疚。

当然要不要变得更恶劣，我扮演了做决定的那个角色。。。

人的恶和善，是如何的分辨？对自己好就代表着你或许在过程中会伤害很多人，这是好？坏？

对别人好自己却因这而失去了千载难逢的机会，这又是好还是坏？

nothing interesting

Just got back from work...gosh so tired...
Lately I have been very slow....and dreamy dunno what's the reason....
I went to donate blood this week but they say I can't donate cos my iron count is too low...no wonder i feel tired lately...
the nurse told me to have more red meat and more fruit juice....
seems like if you really like to help and care for the others, you have to take care of your self first...if not even if you have the heart you won't have the ability to do whatever is needed from you.
ok this is it for now...I have to go back to my assignment.

变了

今天，上课时发生了一些事情。。。
我因为一个同学没来上课而对她发脾气。。。也不知为什么我不把事情好好地解释给她听。。。
明知她一定不会明白到底发生什么。。我都不想多费力气去解释给她听。。。课后去找她时。。。她还那么得轻松的上网我看了就更气。。。你们现在一定在奇怪为什么我那么的夸张的。。。只不过是一堂课而已吗...不需要那么得大惊小怪的。。。
在我就读的课程里，每一堂实习课我们都必须上。。如有缺席除非是生病不然会算是全科不及格的。。。明白了吧？好了又回到那个故事去。。。
直到我把一切详细的解释后她才以一个责怪我的眼神看我。。。看她就快要哭的样子我也没心情去安慰她。。。随便跟她说几句就走了。。。
心里只想着为什么她那么的笨啊？自己的事不会去打理吗？总是依赖身边的我去帮她注意。。。不只是第一次了。。。经过那么多次了还不会自己注意一下吗？。。。还怪我？我上课之前就打电话告诉你，你一定要现在就来上课。。。说时间已经换了。。。
现在回想起来。。我对当时的我感到好害怕哦。。。如果是以前的我。。我一定会帮忙她而不是一走了之的。。就算帮不上我也会在她身边安慰她。。。而不是视而不见地说再见。。。
我变了吗？变成了冷酷无情，骄傲瞧不起人的人吗？我以前也是那么的依赖我的朋友。。。为什么我现在就不会像我的朋友一样帮忙她呢？我变残忍了。。。真是不寒而栗啊！！！
恐怖的人上。

welcome to my world...

ok...
I finally got myself a webcam...and I have taken some photo of my room and the house i'm currently living in.....
I hope you can bear with the pictures...it's blur....

不知道为什么。。。。

今天我又想起了他，也不知道什么事情让我再度回想起以前的事。。。
不知他现在是否安好呢？
地球的另一边会是什么样子呢？
我以为我会放得下。。。那为什么现在又那么的执著？

finally civilisation....

Finally after I have arrived here for more than 3 months....the civilisation has come to me...I got broadband!!!
yeap...I know you think that should I announce to the whole world about this small-little-unexciting-and-you-get-to-use-it-everyday thing....
But you have to realise that I'm at down under where everything is so laid back even the technology get affected too.....however I think this lifestyle so far still hasn't had any impact on me...cos I still change job at a very high speed...the yum cha place boss got fired....hahaha...
but the new 1 i have got... i really hope it will last though...haih...th job is fairly easy....drying out plates and bowls and setting up the tables...i did so many times during the night that i dreamt abt it during the night...
i know what you think..it won't last..but let just see if i can stand it for a month than we will discuss abt the prospect of this new job

happy birthday to me....

today is my 20th birthday....had a wonderful day and surprisingly I'm not depressed by the fact that I'm out of malaysia.
Because being out here makes me know there is actually alot of people do actually care about me and they haven't for got about my birthday....although I'm still short on the present....well, i'm kind enough bcos I will still recieve them eventhough it is late...haha
Actually, vanessa celebrated my birthday with me by bringing me for a dinner and a movie today...and I'm touched by the fact that she would go so far out to celebrate it with me and even a card and a present from her plus a handmade birthday cake from her too....and after we are back from the movies she made me some warm cocoa...
to be in short, I'm surprised , thankful and touched by what she did, bcos....to be honest even friends that know me so long wouldn't do that....
so I think I finally made up my mind about my landlady.....she is trulyt a knid and understanding person and I have done her a great injustice by scolding her last time ...and I think the greatest gift that i have recieved would be that I found a friend in her.....a one that I can approach when I'm in trouble...plus the fact that she finally decided to install broadband(although i still paid my share of the fee)...so you'll be seeing me on9 for 24 7 ....hahahaha.....

Thanks everybody for the warm birthday wishes you gave me last night....it's enough to know that you still remember my birthday and that was the best you can give me for a gift.(that is bcos i keep on reminding some of you hahaha)

Back from Melbourne

And so I'm back from melbourne after a very long easter break.
With a heavy heart, I took an hour bus to the airport....
the scenery along the way was very nice but with me in the prospect of leaving my sis and melbourne I'm not in the mood to really enjoy it.
As I walk towards the plane, my heart getting heavy and heavier, although I can nearly see all the flat grassland surrounding me but inside it seems that everything is squeezing into a very small space.....
the plane took off...and with it my heart drop...I'm really leaving...melbourne in a bird's eye view...i don't like it when I'm goin back to sydney...like it better when I'm landing on it..
So, Goodbye Melbourne,I'm goin back to that place....*Sad*
in total i had a very nice time with my sis in melb, eventhough we didn't do much together..mainly just do nothing but watch movie and lepak around the city...but it feels more like a home in a place where your closest relative is with you.
Hey sis, thanks for your birthday gift and the wasabi nuts...hahaha...

*我喜欢这儿不是因为它是一个城市或是一个热闹的地方，这份喜欢是因为你在这儿。。。一个非常清楚我的人。*

here comes the change....

Yeap...here is another new face for my blog.
Like the background music alot.....it's a soundtrack from a japanese series but I forgot which one...I know this is a bit depressing but have to find to replace the old one cos....the image can't be used anymore....so I hope you'll bear with it for a while before I find a more happy and nicer one...
so enjoy it...
winter is coming soon here.

how I fall in love....

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

the meaning of my....

Your Birthdate: May 2

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense. You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends. Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone. Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive. Your strength: Your universal compassion Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings Your power color: Mauve Your power symbol: Butterfly Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

我是一个常感到饥饿的小孩

饥饿？？？？
哈哈啊哈哈。。。。。
终于如愿以偿的到了这个城市了。。。。。
一切就像我所想象的一样，夜昼不分的热闹， 连绵不断的人潮，充满了琳琅满目的店。
在这里的每一天可算是过得非常的精彩。

不过，我相信这只是我暂时的反应， 对一个大城市的反应。。。
而且我相信在这儿住久了。。。可能会变得很空虚，看似很热闹的城市其实是很寂寞的。
再漂亮的夜景也不过是欺骗与引诱人们的好奇心。

那为何我又那么热恋着这个城市呢？
哈哈。。。因为我是个渴望着自由却又想要有个家的饥饿小孩
刚好这个城市符合我所有的条件。。。可说是家外家啊。。。
不久过后我就要飞回我那个小镇去上课了。。。或许下个假期不会再来这儿了。。
哎！真开始有点不舍得了。

好啦！就到止为止吧。。。
马来西亚的朋友们，要好好的照顾自己哦！
很快的，我就回到马来西亚了。。。（哈哈哈哈。。。或许还要等多九个月吧！）

19.5 degree C

Finally the long awaited day has arrived for me, I took a train from gosford to sydney airport to board my plane to melbourne...but I arrived at the airport four and a half hours earlier...gosh! you should have see how I waste all my time in the airport....haha...
After what seems like an eternity I finally board the plane....Finally, I'm on my way to melbourne. Had a very nice window seat on the plane (that is because I'm the earliest passenger to check in ...hahaha)able to catch a glimpse of the bay in sydney before I'm off to melbourne...talked to a business man during the flight about the craziness of sudoku...haha a very nice and funny conversation I had..time flies and in no time I'm in melbourne.
Lucky to catched the view of the sun setting on the horizon...oh if only I got a camera with me... it'll be a very nice picture...haih......
It's funny to see melbourne in a bird's eye view again after two years of my last visit.Things here apparently didn't change much, especially the weather...still as temperament as it was 2 years ago......
Spent 2 days exploring the city by foot, found my bearing in the city again with some new found surprising little shops...which I quite like..... There is a alot of cafes and restaurant in melbourne city it self...every corner you turn there would be at least one shop that has anything to do with food and all this restaurant or cafe has very good feedback from the food critics....hahaha so during my first night in melbourne I was lost...don't know which shop to go....for dinner.
My sis and I even discover a very cosy small little lane that is full with cafes with live music performance....I like the atmosphere there....
Gain some baking experience..by baking some muffins for my sis.....don't worry my sis hasn't had any symptoms of food poisoning...although maybe she will just fake 1 so that she doesn't need to attend school...
It's a wonder that no matter how cold isit you felt ...the temoerature will still be 19.5 degree....just amazing..by now I think i quite immune to the cold weather liao...except for my throat...hope that I won't be down with a flu
ok that's for now...will post up more soon....
have a nice holiday for those on vacation or break...and try to enjoy your day for those that is still working hard.....haha...so .....kudos :>

Off to melbourne....finally.

I will be going to melbourne this coming wednesday and pretty excited by it...just can't wait..been planning this trip for like ages..why can't time fly faster...huh?
haha.....
lately, something been bothering me though...like soo imm I also have some problem with my group work and the group member....argghhhh..just can't stand them...but I know for sure i won't give them credit for anything by the end the semester...no way...if you like to be lazy...do it yourway....don't think that you still can get high marks if you didn't do any work...I'm just not a good guy..too bad you dunno abt it...by that time I'll be laughing my way to next semester with high marks and know more than you about practically anything that has to do with this course..and I hope you cry.

ok enough, today is the day when they announce the winner for a competition to win a trip to Italy....for15 days...nice right?
oooooo can't wait......hahaah...although the chance of me winning is pretty slim...but hope that i'm lucky enough to get the trip and the rock...(hahaha someone will know what I am talking about)
ok then , I'm off hogging down the program..they will announce the winner soon....
Pray hard that i get it...
the next time i post, I'll be in melbourne.
will say more abt the would be intresting life in Melbourne.....take care everyone...

I'm on a bad dreamy mood today...

Obviously I have hit another low again today....just don't know why
Just don't have the mood to work.
Thanks to my ability to self doubt myself i'm blue.

Been in this town for nearly 2 months now, everyday I'll wake up in the morning, prepare myself to face another day in University.Hoping everyday at least I'll enjoy myself with this new environment, that I'll get to talk about something else apart from course work with one of my course mate...something that I can do naturally back in malaysia. Is it me only having this problem while the others don't,I just wonder.
How do you do it?Now that I have realised that I just don't know how to socialise.
everyone seems to get along well with somebody but somehow I don't fit into the picture. Am I too proud?serious? or is it my mind that is playing games with me.
Why am I even here in the first place?...haha...probably you all will be laughing at me right now.... serves you right after all it's my decision that I want to come here....I really need someone to talk to..where is your best friend when you need them?even if she is, it won't help much cos she won't understand.


well, at least I got something to look forward to this week..cos I'm going to Melbourne to meet my sister and stay there for 2 and a half weeks....in my easter holiday....maybe I'll get a camera too...that is if I can afford it...hahaha
gosh I really should go get myself a job..considering that I fired the boss on my last job....haha..yeah you are right..again.

I think I better not wallow in my sad thoughts any longer or else I won't recover in time for my trip to melbourne....now I'm excited...finally get to meet one of my family..it's amazing that you'll never know how much you miss them until now.

ok la...now someone is pestering me..so i'm off to chat ...tata

What age do you act?

You Are 19 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Latest news from abroad and my pau story...read all about it.

The second post of the day...rare right?

Just chatted with two of my friends on the msn just now.....
feel so nice to know that there's people that actually care about me and i'm not just another passerby in their life.
In this moment of my life, I can felt the warmth of their care eventhough the night is cold.

To wen ching,
I am really glad that you got that offer from UCL... eventhough I don't know what does it stands for...haha...but I'm happy for you, all your hard work will finally pay off soon. Don't worry too much on whether you will finish your 2000 words essay in time...because from the day I know you I have always thought you are good in your language and your maths(although this nothing to do with the essay) so, get into UCL and find a place in london so i can visit u soon..haha...
oh yeah BTW tell me the date you are gonna slaughter yew keat so i can lodge a police report for you, see I'm such good friend.
seeing that we both like city so much....maybe you can get me some sovenir(i dun noe whether dis is the correct spelling)hahaha...so when you are travelling around you won't miss me that much...haha
but of course....we will exchange presents like we used to do....jus pass mine to hui jin and you will get yours next year cos i dun think i can come home this july *sad* and dun worry I'll leave your christmas present to hui jin too....
So, good luck to you with you university offer.
Ever angelic *evil grin*,
Chiau Chuin.

To Hwa Khang,
I'm so sorry that so many bad things happen to you recently, I hope that things will start going your way soon. As I said last time about me-missing-the-bus-on-tha- day,-but-got-lucky-on-the-second-day-concept... hahaha...i know sometimes it won't work for you...so I have decided to sing a song for you......no la just kidding.....but if you want to,just let me know anytime....ok?
orelse I can send some you of my precious microwave pau...hahaha....but in exchange you have to post the double fillet for me....must be in an express 1 so it can reach me the next day...
Hope that your aunt is ok....and see around in the msn soon.
The pau eater,
Chiau Chuin


and Here is my pau story....trust me it's funny I made it up myself....hahaha hee hee
for those who heard the story i made before will certainly what is coming up.....hahaha

well, this story happen in a far away land on a very cold day....
er....
you will have to wait for the rest because I just can't think abt anything to go on with it...

ok everybody take care ya....and miss you all loads...

Well...

Time flies this week...and I have done loads of things...ok, here a few of them.

On Monday, I went down to sydney to have a look.Enjoyed it so much...makes me feel that I haven't even left home...because life in the city was busy.....visited all the tourist spot(nearly all...) saw the sydney opera house, harbour bridge, china town...bought some egg tarts there..miss them so much
Oh how i wish I had a camera with me....I would have capture every moment I have spent in sydney and show you guys about it..... So right now, I'm just waiting for someone to climb the harbour bridge with me....so who is up for it?
Well, I did write about some to shao rou....Hope you recieved the letter already...

And for the rest of the week, I'm living on a blissful state...must be the after effect of visiting the city...and try to finish my essay.....and I finally finished it..yesterday hahaha....

maybe I will visit the city again soon...just can't stand living in a ulu place any longer.
don't worry I'll keep you guys up to date about everything that is happening to me...which is if you are intrested abt it.

This is what you want.....hahaha

Well, since she highly doubt that I'll do it....
This is for you Soo Imm,

My earliest memory....

of my Grandmother was when she was alone in the kitchen cleaning up after the chinese reunion dinner.Nobody actually help her ,so I'm quite angry with my aunts for not doing that.

At school I ...

used to take part in the singing contest every year in my primary school.But I never seems to sing properly because I'll just be down with a flu or a cough.haih....

My first relationship.....

well, never had 1 so this question irrelevant to me....hahaha

I wish I had never worn....

so much high heels...at least now I'll have nicer legs....haih...

My Mother and father always told me.....

control my temper....hahaha..I'm famous for my terrible temper...I think I have change a bit.

I wish I had....

a friend that really stay with me ...not physically but will always be there for me...and where we can talk abt things no matter where we are or what have we become.

I wish I hadn't....

shut myself up for so long.....not until I have realise that I'm losing all the wonderful friends that used to be around.

At home I cook...

alot..some already tasted my apple pie...and some bake pies with me....well sooner or later I'll be a big whale....which I hope not...and the fact is my only expertise is how to goreng telur...haha

When I was a child,I wanted to....

be a singer....so I can sing my lungs out of everything that I feel.

The book that changed my life is .....

to be honest...I can't remember I have 1....because every book that I read seems to change my perspective of life somehow.

If only I would....

be able to sing and dance about my life ...just like they do in the musicals.

Friends say I am....

drop dead serious, funny, sometimes irritating, quite, noisy, frightening(that is my famous first impression to everyone), cold, keep to myself, confident but has a low self esteem, contradicting, slow, witty, evil......and the list goes on.

What I don't find amusing is.....

when my friends thinks that I like the foreign country more than my own.....which I get alot since I got the PR for Australia.

I often wonder.....

what my future life would be....will I finally found myself a boyfriend....will I still be nurse after 10 years.

I'm passing the baton to....

Hui Jin, Wen Ching, Shaorou

He replied my message!!!!!

Hahahahahahahaha....never have been so happy for a while now.I'm in cloud nine...*grin*
Gosh!guess what?he replied my message....
I never thought he would cos...it's been a long time since we contacted or saw each other.
Dunno why I feel so happy, even though now we both are in the a very different end of the world...but it really feels nice.
ok, I admit I have feelings for this guy...well, since I was in secondary school......he never knows about it...and I keep it as tight as I can....not to let him know.Nobody actually knows.
It all started in the internet, during form 2.....long rite?nearly 6 years liao...I used to avoid him, don't ask me why i do that......eventhough I had a major crush on him.and the best thing of all is that he is in the same school as me so i get to see him nearly everyday.....To me he was just attractive(not the face and body kind) but just somehow I like him and I can't stop it, not even now....hahaha..fanatic right?( If you happen to know which guy I'm talking about , i prefer that you don't shout about it ok?Don't even think of whispering a word, get me?)
still a bit sad though, he has a girlfriend......*sigh* if only I tell him how I feels about him earlier....
Nvm,I through all of it now ...i think. and I really wish him well, cos I think he like her very very much.
because somehow I realise that we are not the same kind of people...
I'm just glad we still can talk and joke about anything ...just like we used too...thru the internet.....

Can you believe it, he replied my message!!!!!
ok, i know you all get it already....i'll stop....(he replied my message!!! ....weeeeeee.eeeeeee)

oh yeah, Have I tell you all that I miss you all so much!!!and he replied my message!!!!

It's SATURDAY!!!!

ok It's Saturday.....Finally had some time to start....really start my essay.
but bad news the only essay i'm writing now is my blog.
Can't seems to know why .....

ARGhhhhhh super boring!!!!!
Make my self stay home today to finish up my assignment ...
BUt all i do is pigging on the apple pies and the ice creams.
Watch 3 DVD today...now i feel like a spinster
you know those kind that have no where to go but stay at home with 2 cats and having dinner in front of the TV....gosh! someday I think that I'm going to have obesity as my health problem....haha....

with the Bach's Prelude playing on the background as I write....I feel I might end up getting old with this music and be statisfied with it......don't understand what I'm whinging about?nvm I don't either.....

As I was saying to Hwa Khang last night that i miss malaysian food.....funny though because not too long ago I was having the same conversation with wen ching when she just settling down in UK.....now I know what is the feeling like...so wen ching sorry for teasing you that time.....hahaha...
P/S: HK i'm writing down the promise of you Belanja me a bowl of laksa here so I won't forget all abt it when i get back......
Ok, pls help me get into the mood of doing my assignments....
my, neva thought that a few months break from school can get me to become so lazy......

Now I have running out of things to write. So, will write there's something happening in my life again....( which i think would be ages unless I go naked and start stalking the respectable neighbourhood i'm living in right now....haha...maybe i will do that....who knows...so look out for me in the front page of a tabloid)

Here's my ad of the day,
Get boring by sitting in a couch all day flipping through TV channels it's a great way to spend your life.

all for now,bye.

In the middle of the night.

it's now the midnight here.
Been a bit busy lately,with all the assignment piling up asking abt question like what is health?
what is a Nurse?.....bla bla bla...the list goes on.
Other than that I think I had a quite week....and I'm thankful about it
I hope I can find some work soon.....if not I think I'll dry up my dad's bank account.
Anyway, there's been alot of sale lately.....it's just too bad I can't really splurge if not i'll definitely buy present for everyone.....
bcos there seems so much to buy.
Just imagine a shirt for only $3.
Or a jeans for only $15....
cheap rite?
and the quality is good too.....
oh now i wish i have loads of money....hahahaha
Soo Imm,just imagine the nicest top u can find all for only $10......
Trust me it's even better than the pink pussycat tank top.....
Even though i think this place is ulu....but it's a shopping heaven...
Maybe i haven't been out to the city for too long to think that this place is the heaven.
ok..enuf of this.
What I like most about my life right now is the 8.07 am No.37 bus to Ourimbah.....
Y?
cos I just feel happy sitting in the bus fill with small little primary school children going to school.
Here you can really the real scene where parents really wait with their kids for the bus.
when the kids is on the bus, they actually wave good bye to their parents.
Even the bus driver seems to be in a very good mood on that particular time everyday.
I have been thinking,maybe it reminds me of the time I had in Puay Chai when I was teaching n the 5G class that's why I'm feeling comfortable.....and happy.

Maybe I should consider to be a teacher rather than a Nurse.....
haha...just kidding....maybe later.When I'm bored with nursing.
Ok got to go liao....
will post later after I attack my pile of assignments .
Tirah.

Updates

During this past week , alot has happened to me.
I just don't know where to begin.
ok...here it is.
I have been having a little bit trouble with my accomodation but lucky me...all have been settled
and it turns out to be a big misunderstanding with my landlady.
so I think other than that I am ok.
and thanks for all the help everybody has been giving me....
I'm touched.

I got evicted .

Guess what happen today?
My landlady told me to move out within 2 weeks,that means I have to move out by 13 th of March.
To be honest I don't know what really happen and why she want me out of her house.
I thought we are getting along fine, me not arguing with her, saying yes to every rule she stated and she is talking jokes to me just last night.There was no warning about what is going to happen to me in the near future then.
Although for the 2nd week, there is some misunderstanding I thought I solve it but looks like I'm wrong.

时间的恐怖

刚看完了我其中一个朋友的blog。。。。里头写了关于她如何讨厌她的妈妈。。说她的妈妈如何不了解她。。。等等
想起以前我有这么像的想法。。。。。才知道原来在这么短的日子，改变可以那么的恐怖。。。。
要知道其实父母是疼爱我们。。。是很难得的东西。因为等到我们发觉时。。往往已经太迟了。。。只希望时间还有一点同情心让我们好好地珍惜他们对我们的付出。
离开了我那个20年的家让我真的想通好多好多事情。

曾经有那么一个时候是我妈妈为我准备吃的，住的，穿的。。。。。
曾竟有那么一个时候是我爸爸为我担忧生活的一切一切。。。。。
但不知什么时候开始他们不再做这些事了。。。。
醒来就只有我一个人在那边忙着做这一切。。。。
不管心里有多难过。。。却慢慢得明白说从此以后我必须好好的照顾自己了。。。背后不会再有那两个人看着我了。

当然每当遇到不如意的事时。。。。我真想逃。。。。逃到那个叫做家的地方。。
而这个家往后的20年还会像以前那个20年吗？

有好多人像以前的我一样。。。 一直喊着要自由。。。一直喊着不要管我，这是我的生活。。。
我觉得，那是因为我们觉得太有安全感了。。。。活得不够刺激。。。。

朋友啊，好好地珍惜身边所有的人。

It's too peaceful here!!!!!!!

Uni started this week but there is not much goin on.I practically have a whole week off except for tuesday and wednesday......
Well, don't admire this type of uni life cos you will die of boredom real soon.......
It's too peaceful here.....so peaceful that you will lose touch of the whole wide world and you can here yourself talking to your own self...... scary huh???
Well,as this boredom sucks out my life the weather here is getting colder which is an A plus for me ....cos since I got here I have got a tan that every australian wanted but!!!!...I don't want it.
Spend the whole day watchng movies and eating ice creams....I'm nuts right eating ice cream during a cold day.....though I sill have 2 essay waiting for me to finish which in total has 2500 words.....
See told you not think of getting a uni life same as mine.....it's only 1st week and I've already got 2500 words of essay to write.
I think these essays will help me get used to my new laptop keyboard...so next time when I chat with some of you guys I'll be faster.
okok....Let me introduce some of my new friends
The first is a HK who lives here for 2 and a half years, met her on the first day of orientation.Her name is Annie.
The second is Kyle....he's an australian,quite a nce looking chap...got the living next door look.....he is annie's high school friend and a very funny guy,although to my disappoinment already has a girlfriend ;( but because he is in the same course with me..somebody thinks that he is a "gayish" type...you know what I mean.....but look at Gaylord M. Focker he is married to a girl!!!!
and there a cute girl who is a swedish her name is rachel.
My class is quite big compare to the others so I haven't met all of them yet..
Just hope that I can really take on this new challenge cos it seems to me everyone is so well prepare than me....
so wish me luck..
will keep posting....so ther won't be any voice inmy head talking to me....

I miss home so so much!!!!

Hi everybody...how are you guys ....hope everyone is fine back there.
Uni starts this week but I don't get any lecture till next week so I'm preety free at the moment.
However I won't be online as long and as many time as I can because my landlady is using a dial up connection and I'll be using up her phone line if do that too much.
Feel pretty lonely up here....just feels out of place...and have to face lots of unimaginable problem and stuff.
I just feel the emptiness in me ,everything I do just some how reminds me of my family and my friends,to think that I can't do that anyore just make me feel worse.......
I think I'm a bit slow with my feeling cos I didn't really miss anything up until now.
It's been a week since i left and I found that Australian eventhough they are nce they can be very lazy.
For the whole first week I have been trying to get my timetable done I still can't seems to get to contact the person in charge.
Lucky for me,I met one of my coursemate on the first day of the orientation....she a Hong Kong-nese and a very sweet girl....but it's weird though...I mean the feeling......it's just isn't the same .
I don't think I'll anymore right now orelse I think I'll keep on feeling my homesickness.
Will try to post more if I can......
Luv you all....bye for now.

I'm surviving

arrived in australia....
still missing home and not sure when will i be over it.
Just want to say thanks to all my friends...
thank you jing tien....... hwa khang......hui jin .....soo imm.

It's happening

I recieved 3 offer from 3 uni.They are from Monash,La Trobe and Newcastle.Accepted the Newcastle's offer to study nursing the Ourimbah Campus.
So,if everything go as planned.I'll be leaving Malaysia before the chinese new year ends...
I think is on the 11th of february.
I practically have 2 weeks left before I depart to sydney.
will miss all my friend here...

Guilty of all charges

I feel so terrible now......
Had a quarrel with my dad last night...don't ask what is the reason you will never want to know.The worse part is I think I cause my father to resign from his job.
Lately he's been so depressed mainly from the pressure of his job and starting to have ideas of starting anew in Melbourne,but my mom managed to convince him to stay on for the family...with this outbreak I think my father has reach his maximum tolerance of anything from pressure of his job to everyday problem...
finally he let go of everything.
The thing is if my dad resign,he'll be jobless and at my father's age it'll harder for him to find a job than the others especially now.Where economies are not booming but starting to drop,who would want to hire new employees???
why I couldn't just be patient enough and not quarrel with him? Hadn't had an outbreak for so long why can't I just keep my mouth shut then....
I feel that I'm so ungrateful and unthankful for what he has done for our family....yet I'm not sure what to do to make up for what I did.
Now that I have done it the worse is yet to come.
The whole family might go to Australia by the end of the year if this situation continues.....but how are we to cope with the living expenses there and in addition to it my uni tuition fees plus my siblings'......
No use regretting now just hope that my father's boss will try to retain him until things get better......and my father to accept his offer.
I'm sorry dad hope things get better for you.

My regards ..

Thanks Wen Ching,for your comment...I never know I'm a brave person until you mention it....so just wanna ask you a question:are you sure ah??
Haa Haa
How are you lately ?still miss Malaysia ?(of course what am i asking)
Like the background music of this blog?Reminds me of the time in college....

Hey,Hwa Khang where are you lately???
Haven't heard your news for a long time?That is very unusual for you la.....
You class started liao??
Must remember to come to my house during CNY ok??

Hui Jin,
I hope you solved your problem liao.....sorry I wasn't able to help
Feel bad about it....are you free on CNY ??
Come to my house and gather ok?

Hey Soo Imm,
How are you lately?'attack' any mall lately?
haa haa.....CNY is round the corner so make sure you leave some space in your calendar for me k?

Shing Shuang,
I was actually quiet angry with you about the whole meeting up with wen ching thing....Especially when you never actually told us that you cannot join us at the red box....you should no quiet about the reservation rules of Red Box.
Never thought you would be that irresponsible.....are you still angry with us about the day in Mid Valley?
To be honest with you....I was actually planning a surprise Birthday party for you in KL.....never thought you would cancel last minute.Too bad for you then!!

Finally! A new post!

School reopen this week and everyone is back to their normal routine .
Now,the house feel so empty without my siblings around .
Lately,I can't help thinking about my move to Melbourne.Will I like the life there?Am I doing the right thing?What will it feel like living alone in a strange place?Tons of question keep on filling my thoughts.
Apart from the fear,I am also excited about it.....going to new place,meeting new people,finding surprises everywhere.Yes, you can say that I have some kind of dream and I know I may be dissapointed by it when I arrive there.
The offer from the uni still have not arrived yet,a bit worried about it.What if my result is not good enough to be accepted into any U.What would I do then?
Lucky,for me I'll be celebrating Chinese New Year here unlike some of my friends who have no choice but to spend it oversea.
Met Suet Ei today,she changed her hairstyle too.Have not seen her since Wai Lee's farewell party.She working as a cashier in a comic book rental shop too.Yup!same like me......but I realised that sometime fantasy doesn't come true in real life.Well, at least I know that working at this type of shop is not fun as it seems to be.
Wen Ching went back to UK this week,will miss her terribly.Hope this will not be the last time we all can gather together.I really enjoyed our KL outing....went to red box and then shopping!!!!I finally I get to visit her house(actually it's some sort of an apartment),met her famous 'boyfriend',inspected her wardrobe and met the famous Big Bear.
As for the lacking of new posts,you guys have to pardon me.
During the last week of school holiday,I have been travelling alot.

• went to perak to visit my aunt on christmas day.We actually stayed there for 2 nights....
• we then went to Genting Highland at the eve of New Year eve...have a nice time there ...and I finally conquer all the rides in the park except for the newest flying coaster cos it's too scary and expensive.The night view up there was marvellous!!Loved it.
• went to mid valley to celebrate a late christmas with my college mate on the day that I'm going to genting.....feel so sorry to my friends....we exchanged every present imaginable.....christmas gifts,souvenirs from UK and China,birthday gift to wen ching and Hui Jin gave us a birthday bear each.Hope we can do this next year..

lazy

been lazy to post something for ages...so I hope everybody like this new skin...personally I do like it...
Lately I'm addicted to an online game...can't stop myself from playing haha...so that explain why I'm absent from the blog for such a long time.
This online game is quite nice to play.....
For those who are bored you may go to the URL below to download this game...
www.maplesea.com... the name of this game is Maple story.
BTW I wish everybody a very Merry Christmas.....
It's only 5 more days to christmas and I haven't even found a present for my friend...drat!!

Something about the future

I'm sure some of you guys may sometime day dream about your future life but maybe nobody does that but me.
I've always wished that I'll be rich,well who doesn't......Maybe not that rich but I'll live a comfortable life.With a nice house and all those cool stuff to decorate it.
The house will have a water feature....a pool or a pond or something else and definitely with some night light for it to be seen at night.
I wouldn't want a big house, a medium one will do, cos I hate the cold feeling you have in a huge house,the cosy ones are much better....
The house will have some sky light in the living room....you know the ones that has glass on the ceiling.....so I can watch the star at night while listening to soft and slow music....
as for the bedroom,it will have soft carpet where it will feel like moss when you walk on it.......with a walk in wardrobe....
the room will also have french windows that open up to a small balcony overlooking the sea..yea it'll be nice and on the balcony I will put some holes on the wall so I can put on the candles at night.
For the dining room,there will be glass windows that strecth from the ceiling till the floor so that while I'm having my meals I can also admire my garden.
of course to realise all these dreams I'll have to work extra hard to earn that kind of money....haha

happy birthday great grandfather!!

I celebrated my great grandfather's 100th birthday yesterday.Yup!he's still alive and strong,quite proud of him too :)

I have been wondering why nobody left any message for me lately???Is my blog starting to get boring liao....haha.
Anyway I change my hairdo liao,I curled my hair and even coloured it so the next time you see me I think you'll get a shock.
Well most of my relative can't recognise me when they first saw me.....so I don't reckon anybody can figure it's me when they see me with my new hairdo.

By the way,wen ching is coming back to malaysia on the 19th and can't wait to meet up with her.Miss the old days so much.....

As for my job, I quit again!!what's the reason??Don't ask,it's the same one....hee hee..goodbye comic books and extra income :(

One of my old classmate is back from the down under,but haven't had the time to meet up with her....and I owe her a proper birthday hug.

and One thing......I'm BROKE!!!
sad:( have to find another job liao....wonder what to do this time....
oh worse!is there any job available....
haih!!
who would want to hired me

Unorganized deep thoughts

I felt pretty left out lately, from friends...Family....

my surrounding area.Every where I go I just don't fit in....

as if in this world there is not a place where I can call it my own...

nobody really understand me.

They tend to judge me by their version of me,just felt so helpless because they never think of my feelings.

Maybe you'll think I'm selfish...

maybe I'm selfish...

but I just want people to notice who I really am and not their version of me....

I just want to know that somehow people care about me...

that I'm not an invisible human.

You may say that I'm hungry for attention...

There is so many times that I wish that someone

would ask me how am I feeling today.....

who would see me through all those action and

understand the reason behind those act...

I have always felt out of place....

with my family,my friends

anytime,anywhere.

Seems to me whatever I do or say

always comes out the opposite.

Either I have problem in conveying my message across

or it's that they interpret the meaning wrongly.

My guess is that it's my problem and not the others

cause it's not possible for everybody to interpret my meaning wrongly

right?

Maybe I'm just jealous when I feel that my family

seems to like my sis more than me...

that my sis is a better person than I'm.

Felt that I can't live up to my parents hope.

It' s just so difficult...

difficult not to feel that way.

I just don't fit in...

not with anyone or at anywhere.

What will happen to the world if I was not born into this world?

will everything be the same?

I wonder.

Yeah!I'm thinking too much...

but I need the support

I need the advice

I need the help

I need to feel that I belong somewhere...

that someone will actually think me as one of the important person in their life

but who am I to be consider as one?

Alone in this world it's what I feel....

nobody really care what happen to me...

maybe my family do...

but apart from them I just can't think of anyone else.

I'm just a pedestrian in their life

so are they in mine

but why am I asking the pedestrians to care about me?

Maybe I am always taking

and not always giving.

and there's a quote which says that

we must give more than we take.

wow!!I actually got a letter from ANU.....

Long time never post a thing in this blog.....

alot of things has happened this past few days......

as you all know,I'm now working as a cashier in a book rental store.

The story begin on a rainy night around 10pm...

It's time to close shop and I was summing up the cash of the day when I found out that.....the cash was actually lesser than the total amount in the register!!!

Man,at that particular moment my body went cold.....

and i started panicking
The actual sum is RM 28.9 lesser than the total in the register!!!
when I told my boss about it,his face immediately become black like hell.....
well you must be wondering what happen to the 28.90......to be honest I don't know because apart from me,there is also a girl working the same shift that night.

I was scared that the boss will accused me of stealing....and he sounded angry when he talk to me after that.....

he told me to go back and think over what happen to the money....and I was confused...

why isit only me he is suspicious about....what about the other girl???

she took over the counter when I'm out having my dinner....

in addition to that who would be that stupid to steal the money when he/ she is in charge of the money!!!

As expected the girl denied every responsibility,saying that she register every sales that pass through her hand.....and I think the boss believed her.
Naturally,all suspicion falls on me.....
On that very moment my stupidity got hold of me.....I didn't defend myself...I just say nothing!!!

I cant sleep that night....

spend the whole night worrying.......

will the boss believe me

if i tell him that I didn't took the money.

I feel like quiting the job.....

because who would believe the cashier after she lost the money.

It is definite that the trust wouldn't be there after

this type of incident......

But I can't...

At the end my boss minus the sum of money loss from my salary :(

to think that I have to work for 1 day and 2 hours

before I can get that sum back!!!

Just feel unfair...

what about the other girl ????

well, I think my boss never deduct anything from her salary.

Next time when I'm sharing a shift with somebody else...

I definitely won't be the cashier.

自私？？I think not!!

以前总觉得人人都很自私，

也就这样我也慢慢开始审问自己。。。

我是否在别人眼中也是一个自私自利的人呢？

其实“自私”的定义是什么我自己也不太清楚。。。

那我为何又说别人自私呢？

是因为他们的所做所为是为自己而做

也没考虑到这个做法到底我喜不喜欢

所以另到我不悦吗？

从此他就背上了“自私”的罪名！？

啊！原来我比任何人都自私。

SHIT! I hate them!!!!!!

I hate them!I hate them!I hate them!
So what if you are one of my relatives !!!
Why should I always be the one who accomadate what you all need....
Why should I be the 1 who let you have what you want......
You think tears can let you have everything you want?TRUST ME you are so damn wrong!!!!!
And i personally will make it so hard for you that you will regret treating me wrongly!
Respect that's what they say we need for each other,
why should I respec both of you while you don't even treat me as a human......
Yeah right!You are always the snobbish Know-it-all,who thinks you are always right......
and you,you that has been spoiled since young,you think you can get away with everything .....that they just don't noe what you are doin behing their back.
TRUST ME.....THis Stupid big MOuth will spill out all your beans if you are not careful.just you wait!!!!!!
GOsh I really Hate you 2 man!!!!!
HAte!!!It's the only word I can describe the fellings i have for you 2!!!!!!

The creature

There was once a creature,who live in an island.
It was a small but very cosy island,
Apart from this creature
There was also some other animals
Who share this island.
There was a dog, a rat, a snake and a monkey.

The dog is a very wise and has a very stable character,
While the rat is a very kind and understanding animal.
The snake is smart and beautiful
The monkey has a bright mind

Eventhough the snake is smart but it is very selfish....
Eventhough the monkey has a very bright mind but it is never understanding...
Eventhough the dog is wise but it never listen to the others...

What about the rat?
Well,because it is kind and understanding
The others tend to bully the rat.....

The creature is a very observant animal but has a very low self esteem.
It always compare itself with the snake and feels that the snake is better.

The rat like the snake,the dog and the monkey....
but I'm not sure if it like the creature.

The snake is very close to the rat, the monkey and the dog....
but I'm not sure whether it like the creature.

The monkey like the company of the snake,the dog and the rat....
but I can't find out whether it feels the same towards the creature.

Why?
I don't know.

But one thing I'm sure about the creature is that....
it feels that it is being left out
Maybe it is because it doesn't know how to take people's heart
Maybe it is because it felt that nobody understands
Maybe it is because it separate itself from the others.....

What is the real reason behind ?
This I'm not sure.

It keep on thinking why doesn't anybody understand or tries to understand...
The creature has tried a lot of ways to join in the group
but none of it seems to work....

(well,now you must be thinking what is the main point of this story?)
(I'm not sure)
(Maybe I'll just stop here)

How?
The creature think and think....
Not sure of what to do
because whatever it do
It always seems to be wrong.

Harry potter 4

Went to watch the movie yesterday with my friend.
This is first time I went to a movie with him,I'm a bit surprise since we have known each other since primary school.
The movie is quite hilarious and exciting and I can say it's better than the last potter movie....Much better...And it's the best among it's kind,but if you have already read the book don't expect the movie to be exactly the same.....The plot in the movie is rearranged.....To a simpler version...Without all those explanation of course...
The acting of the casts has improved especially Daniel.However, there is some bad acting in the part of Professor Dumbeldore.Well,he seems very unstable...Not like the one we know from book.
On the whole this movie is definitely worth your money whole movie length is about two and a half hours....(I think the ad accommodate nearly 20 minute of the time)
The most exciting part of the movie is when Harry perform the first task.
So,for those who are still thinking whether to spend your money on the cinema or pasar malam...then I suggest you go to the cinema..the sound effect is much better...although you may hear some little irritating kids calling out to their parents .(well,me and my friend have this kind of situation...hope you don't meet one of those brat during your session)
after the movie....we had lunch and I met my college mate...and I end up going shopping with my her...haa haa...that's how I spend my day off....
By the time I reached home it's already 5pm!!Phew..what a tiring day...

a change of...

while munching on my peanut butter and jelly sandwich this is what i wrote:
just came back from work......oh ya!I changed my job already...so fast?!!..yup...because my parents is too worried about my safety...so i just quit...now I'm working in a book rental shop called Walk-in-rent-a-book.well compare to the previous job this is much less exciting.....but I get to read comic book whole day!!!!haha....is this nice or what? summore no need pay money....wow.What is good about this job is that it has shorter working hours,near my house yet far enough for me to get enough exercise and if I can stay on this job for a month.....I get a raise...from RM3.50 to RM 4.....perfect right?.....so now I'm content.No more complaining about being bored anymore.hee hee

first day

Wow!Now i'm super tired....been working fo 9 hours straight.But the work is very enjoyable....I work in the CD-Rama department so I get to play loads of CD....yay!especially Jay Chou's and some instrumental CD which is super nice!!!Now you can ask me which CD is worth buying and which is not...and which has the discounted price.....haha...cos I've been changing price tag for the whole day liao....tear until my hand sore liao...now I still can feel the sticker in my hand la.....but they also got raised some CD price.....
When I got back from work,kena scold by my father cos..by the time I reach home it is nearly 8 o'clock.He even call me to quit the job....hope I can persuade him to let me work for a while yet...until I run ourt of CD to play...haha!!!!
I do enjoy my work!It' just the journey to work that makes me dread it....now I wish I got a car....
ok gtg liao.....my hand is on the verge of collapsing....will post in more if I still got my hand ....hahaha!!!night everybody.

害怕

忘　我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘
那些和日記一起收藏的過往
孤單在思緒之中變得很漫長

想　我沒有很刻意讓自己不去想
那些和照片一起靜止的模樣
我學著堅強　堅強到不用學著不想　學著遺忘

＊還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
　還是害怕不經意的聽見你的消息
　然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰
　當擁有已經是失去　就勇敢的放棄

　還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
　還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
　然而當愛最後的出口是分離
　我會這麼相信　走下去＊
Repeat＊

忘　我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘　遺忘

success!

haha finally been able to get a job liao....eventhough the pay is not high....at least I get something to do...so if you happen to be in 1 utama....you can come visit me in the Popular book shop.

finally!

Found a suitable skin for my blog liao....so what u guys think abt it then.
However there is still some problem with the music player.will try to solve the prob..
u can play some of this songs:

• jay chou-qing tian
• jay chou-an hao
• britney-sometimes
• stef-silent all these years

BTW....

been busy the whole day...u noe have to find work.tomorrow still have to go for interviews ...

jobless!

aihhhhh.....been back from china nearly 2 weeks and yet I still can't find a job......restless as ever,wishing that I would be able to find a job before this week is up....now I'm jealous of those who had to work from morning till night......at least they have something to use their brain on.....
Gosh!I so miss my school days .....
To imagine that I spent nearly the whole day blogging.....finally I have run out of ideas to contribute to my blog!

~*aLoNe

Alone....
are we alone in this big wide world ....
or is there alien out there(PEOPLE ALWAYS ASK THAT)
sometimes i wonder.
some is afraid to be alone in a place....
while some always stay away from everybody.

how do you desribe it?
isit...
the feeling that nobody care for you?
the feeling that all the people that you know are far away from you?
the feeling that appear after a fight with your love ones?
or isit...
the feeling that appear when you feel that nobody is there for you?

Loneliness is a very grey and great thing ....
he can reach you where ever you are...
even in the middle of a crowd
with hundreds of people with you
or he can make you sleepless throughout the night

how many people can stand being alone?
everybody?none?
we just don't know
So..
Are you afraid to be alone then?
can you stand the quiteness of your life without your friend?

That's what friends are for

Found this poem somewhere but i forgot where liao..
so if you are the owner of this poem...can you pls put your info in the
comment box,thanks.
And i never thought i'll feel this way

And as far as im concerned

Im glad i have the chance to say

That i do believe i love you

And if i should ever go away

Well then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me for sure

Thats what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

Thats what friends are for

Under RENOVATION

I'll be renovating my blog again this week so don't be alarmed when you will find it different when you visit next time......
BTW if there is any problem...pls inform me k?