I got evicted .

Guess what happen today?
My landlady told me to move out within 2 weeks,that means I have to move out by 13 th of March.
To be honest I don't know what really happen and why she want me out of her house.
I thought we are getting along fine, me not arguing with her, saying yes to every rule she stated and she is talking jokes to me just last night.There was no warning about what is going to happen to me in the near future then.
Although for the 2nd week, there is some misunderstanding I thought I solve it but looks like I'm wrong.

时间的恐怖

刚看完了我其中一个朋友的blog。。。。里头写了关于她如何讨厌她的妈妈。。说她的妈妈如何不了解她。。。等等
想起以前我有这么像的想法。。。。。才知道原来在这么短的日子，改变可以那么的恐怖。。。。
要知道其实父母是疼爱我们。。。是很难得的东西。因为等到我们发觉时。。往往已经太迟了。。。只希望时间还有一点同情心让我们好好地珍惜他们对我们的付出。
离开了我那个20年的家让我真的想通好多好多事情。

曾经有那么一个时候是我妈妈为我准备吃的，住的，穿的。。。。。
曾竟有那么一个时候是我爸爸为我担忧生活的一切一切。。。。。
但不知什么时候开始他们不再做这些事了。。。。
醒来就只有我一个人在那边忙着做这一切。。。。
不管心里有多难过。。。却慢慢得明白说从此以后我必须好好的照顾自己了。。。背后不会再有那两个人看着我了。

当然每当遇到不如意的事时。。。。我真想逃。。。。逃到那个叫做家的地方。。
而这个家往后的20年还会像以前那个20年吗？

有好多人像以前的我一样。。。 一直喊着要自由。。。一直喊着不要管我，这是我的生活。。。
我觉得，那是因为我们觉得太有安全感了。。。。活得不够刺激。。。。

朋友啊，好好地珍惜身边所有的人。

It's too peaceful here!!!!!!!

Uni started this week but there is not much goin on.I practically have a whole week off except for tuesday and wednesday......
Well, don't admire this type of uni life cos you will die of boredom real soon.......
It's too peaceful here.....so peaceful that you will lose touch of the whole wide world and you can here yourself talking to your own self...... scary huh???
Well,as this boredom sucks out my life the weather here is getting colder which is an A plus for me ....cos since I got here I have got a tan that every australian wanted but!!!!...I don't want it.
Spend the whole day watchng movies and eating ice creams....I'm nuts right eating ice cream during a cold day.....though I sill have 2 essay waiting for me to finish which in total has 2500 words.....
See told you not think of getting a uni life same as mine.....it's only 1st week and I've already got 2500 words of essay to write.
I think these essays will help me get used to my new laptop keyboard...so next time when I chat with some of you guys I'll be faster.
okok....Let me introduce some of my new friends
The first is a HK who lives here for 2 and a half years, met her on the first day of orientation.Her name is Annie.
The second is Kyle....he's an australian,quite a nce looking chap...got the living next door look.....he is annie's high school friend and a very funny guy,although to my disappoinment already has a girlfriend ;( but because he is in the same course with me..somebody thinks that he is a "gayish" type...you know what I mean.....but look at Gaylord M. Focker he is married to a girl!!!!
and there a cute girl who is a swedish her name is rachel.
My class is quite big compare to the others so I haven't met all of them yet..
Just hope that I can really take on this new challenge cos it seems to me everyone is so well prepare than me....
so wish me luck..
will keep posting....so ther won't be any voice inmy head talking to me....

I miss home so so much!!!!

Hi everybody...how are you guys ....hope everyone is fine back there.
Uni starts this week but I don't get any lecture till next week so I'm preety free at the moment.
However I won't be online as long and as many time as I can because my landlady is using a dial up connection and I'll be using up her phone line if do that too much.
Feel pretty lonely up here....just feels out of place...and have to face lots of unimaginable problem and stuff.
I just feel the emptiness in me ,everything I do just some how reminds me of my family and my friends,to think that I can't do that anyore just make me feel worse.......
I think I'm a bit slow with my feeling cos I didn't really miss anything up until now.
It's been a week since i left and I found that Australian eventhough they are nce they can be very lazy.
For the whole first week I have been trying to get my timetable done I still can't seems to get to contact the person in charge.
Lucky for me,I met one of my coursemate on the first day of the orientation....she a Hong Kong-nese and a very sweet girl....but it's weird though...I mean the feeling......it's just isn't the same .
I don't think I'll anymore right now orelse I think I'll keep on feeling my homesickness.
Will try to post more if I can......
Luv you all....bye for now.

I'm surviving

arrived in australia....
still missing home and not sure when will i be over it.
Just want to say thanks to all my friends...
thank you jing tien....... hwa khang......hui jin .....soo imm.

It's happening

I recieved 3 offer from 3 uni.They are from Monash,La Trobe and Newcastle.Accepted the Newcastle's offer to study nursing the Ourimbah Campus.
So,if everything go as planned.I'll be leaving Malaysia before the chinese new year ends...
I think is on the 11th of february.
I practically have 2 weeks left before I depart to sydney.
will miss all my friend here...

Guilty of all charges

I feel so terrible now......
Had a quarrel with my dad last night...don't ask what is the reason you will never want to know.The worse part is I think I cause my father to resign from his job.
Lately he's been so depressed mainly from the pressure of his job and starting to have ideas of starting anew in Melbourne,but my mom managed to convince him to stay on for the family...with this outbreak I think my father has reach his maximum tolerance of anything from pressure of his job to everyday problem...
finally he let go of everything.
The thing is if my dad resign,he'll be jobless and at my father's age it'll harder for him to find a job than the others especially now.Where economies are not booming but starting to drop,who would want to hire new employees???
why I couldn't just be patient enough and not quarrel with him? Hadn't had an outbreak for so long why can't I just keep my mouth shut then....
I feel that I'm so ungrateful and unthankful for what he has done for our family....yet I'm not sure what to do to make up for what I did.
Now that I have done it the worse is yet to come.
The whole family might go to Australia by the end of the year if this situation continues.....but how are we to cope with the living expenses there and in addition to it my uni tuition fees plus my siblings'......
No use regretting now just hope that my father's boss will try to retain him until things get better......and my father to accept his offer.
I'm sorry dad hope things get better for you.

My regards ..

Thanks Wen Ching,for your comment...I never know I'm a brave person until you mention it....so just wanna ask you a question:are you sure ah??
Haa Haa
How are you lately ?still miss Malaysia ?(of course what am i asking)
Like the background music of this blog?Reminds me of the time in college....

Hey,Hwa Khang where are you lately???
Haven't heard your news for a long time?That is very unusual for you la.....
You class started liao??
Must remember to come to my house during CNY ok??

Hui Jin,
I hope you solved your problem liao.....sorry I wasn't able to help
Feel bad about it....are you free on CNY ??
Come to my house and gather ok?

Hey Soo Imm,
How are you lately?'attack' any mall lately?
haa haa.....CNY is round the corner so make sure you leave some space in your calendar for me k?

Shing Shuang,
I was actually quiet angry with you about the whole meeting up with wen ching thing....Especially when you never actually told us that you cannot join us at the red box....you should no quiet about the reservation rules of Red Box.
Never thought you would be that irresponsible.....are you still angry with us about the day in Mid Valley?
To be honest with you....I was actually planning a surprise Birthday party for you in KL.....never thought you would cancel last minute.Too bad for you then!!

Finally! A new post!

School reopen this week and everyone is back to their normal routine .
Now,the house feel so empty without my siblings around .
Lately,I can't help thinking about my move to Melbourne.Will I like the life there?Am I doing the right thing?What will it feel like living alone in a strange place?Tons of question keep on filling my thoughts.
Apart from the fear,I am also excited about it.....going to new place,meeting new people,finding surprises everywhere.Yes, you can say that I have some kind of dream and I know I may be dissapointed by it when I arrive there.
The offer from the uni still have not arrived yet,a bit worried about it.What if my result is not good enough to be accepted into any U.What would I do then?
Lucky,for me I'll be celebrating Chinese New Year here unlike some of my friends who have no choice but to spend it oversea.
Met Suet Ei today,she changed her hairstyle too.Have not seen her since Wai Lee's farewell party.She working as a cashier in a comic book rental shop too.Yup!same like me......but I realised that sometime fantasy doesn't come true in real life.Well, at least I know that working at this type of shop is not fun as it seems to be.
Wen Ching went back to UK this week,will miss her terribly.Hope this will not be the last time we all can gather together.I really enjoyed our KL outing....went to red box and then shopping!!!!I finally I get to visit her house(actually it's some sort of an apartment),met her famous 'boyfriend',inspected her wardrobe and met the famous Big Bear.
As for the lacking of new posts,you guys have to pardon me.
During the last week of school holiday,I have been travelling alot.

• went to perak to visit my aunt on christmas day.We actually stayed there for 2 nights....
• we then went to Genting Highland at the eve of New Year eve...have a nice time there ...and I finally conquer all the rides in the park except for the newest flying coaster cos it's too scary and expensive.The night view up there was marvellous!!Loved it.
• went to mid valley to celebrate a late christmas with my college mate on the day that I'm going to genting.....feel so sorry to my friends....we exchanged every present imaginable.....christmas gifts,souvenirs from UK and China,birthday gift to wen ching and Hui Jin gave us a birthday bear each.Hope we can do this next year..

lazy

been lazy to post something for ages...so I hope everybody like this new skin...personally I do like it...
Lately I'm addicted to an online game...can't stop myself from playing haha...so that explain why I'm absent from the blog for such a long time.
This online game is quite nice to play.....
For those who are bored you may go to the URL below to download this game...
www.maplesea.com... the name of this game is Maple story.
BTW I wish everybody a very Merry Christmas.....
It's only 5 more days to christmas and I haven't even found a present for my friend...drat!!

Something about the future

I'm sure some of you guys may sometime day dream about your future life but maybe nobody does that but me.
I've always wished that I'll be rich,well who doesn't......Maybe not that rich but I'll live a comfortable life.With a nice house and all those cool stuff to decorate it.
The house will have a water feature....a pool or a pond or something else and definitely with some night light for it to be seen at night.
I wouldn't want a big house, a medium one will do, cos I hate the cold feeling you have in a huge house,the cosy ones are much better....
The house will have some sky light in the living room....you know the ones that has glass on the ceiling.....so I can watch the star at night while listening to soft and slow music....
as for the bedroom,it will have soft carpet where it will feel like moss when you walk on it.......with a walk in wardrobe....
the room will also have french windows that open up to a small balcony overlooking the sea..yea it'll be nice and on the balcony I will put some holes on the wall so I can put on the candles at night.
For the dining room,there will be glass windows that strecth from the ceiling till the floor so that while I'm having my meals I can also admire my garden.
of course to realise all these dreams I'll have to work extra hard to earn that kind of money....haha

happy birthday great grandfather!!

I celebrated my great grandfather's 100th birthday yesterday.Yup!he's still alive and strong,quite proud of him too :)

I have been wondering why nobody left any message for me lately???Is my blog starting to get boring liao....haha.
Anyway I change my hairdo liao,I curled my hair and even coloured it so the next time you see me I think you'll get a shock.
Well most of my relative can't recognise me when they first saw me.....so I don't reckon anybody can figure it's me when they see me with my new hairdo.

By the way,wen ching is coming back to malaysia on the 19th and can't wait to meet up with her.Miss the old days so much.....

As for my job, I quit again!!what's the reason??Don't ask,it's the same one....hee hee..goodbye comic books and extra income :(

One of my old classmate is back from the down under,but haven't had the time to meet up with her....and I owe her a proper birthday hug.

and One thing......I'm BROKE!!!
sad:( have to find another job liao....wonder what to do this time....
oh worse!is there any job available....
haih!!
who would want to hired me

Unorganized deep thoughts

I felt pretty left out lately, from friends...Family....

my surrounding area.Every where I go I just don't fit in....

as if in this world there is not a place where I can call it my own...

nobody really understand me.

They tend to judge me by their version of me,just felt so helpless because they never think of my feelings.

Maybe you'll think I'm selfish...

maybe I'm selfish...

but I just want people to notice who I really am and not their version of me....

I just want to know that somehow people care about me...

that I'm not an invisible human.

You may say that I'm hungry for attention...

There is so many times that I wish that someone

would ask me how am I feeling today.....

who would see me through all those action and

understand the reason behind those act...

I have always felt out of place....

with my family,my friends

anytime,anywhere.

Seems to me whatever I do or say

always comes out the opposite.

Either I have problem in conveying my message across

or it's that they interpret the meaning wrongly.

My guess is that it's my problem and not the others

cause it's not possible for everybody to interpret my meaning wrongly

right?

Maybe I'm just jealous when I feel that my family

seems to like my sis more than me...

that my sis is a better person than I'm.

Felt that I can't live up to my parents hope.

It' s just so difficult...

difficult not to feel that way.

I just don't fit in...

not with anyone or at anywhere.

What will happen to the world if I was not born into this world?

will everything be the same?

I wonder.

Yeah!I'm thinking too much...

but I need the support

I need the advice

I need the help

I need to feel that I belong somewhere...

that someone will actually think me as one of the important person in their life

but who am I to be consider as one?

Alone in this world it's what I feel....

nobody really care what happen to me...

maybe my family do...

but apart from them I just can't think of anyone else.

I'm just a pedestrian in their life

so are they in mine

but why am I asking the pedestrians to care about me?

Maybe I am always taking

and not always giving.

and there's a quote which says that

we must give more than we take.

wow!!I actually got a letter from ANU.....

Long time never post a thing in this blog.....

alot of things has happened this past few days......

as you all know,I'm now working as a cashier in a book rental store.

The story begin on a rainy night around 10pm...

It's time to close shop and I was summing up the cash of the day when I found out that.....the cash was actually lesser than the total amount in the register!!!

Man,at that particular moment my body went cold.....

and i started panicking
The actual sum is RM 28.9 lesser than the total in the register!!!
when I told my boss about it,his face immediately become black like hell.....
well you must be wondering what happen to the 28.90......to be honest I don't know because apart from me,there is also a girl working the same shift that night.

I was scared that the boss will accused me of stealing....and he sounded angry when he talk to me after that.....

he told me to go back and think over what happen to the money....and I was confused...

why isit only me he is suspicious about....what about the other girl???

she took over the counter when I'm out having my dinner....

in addition to that who would be that stupid to steal the money when he/ she is in charge of the money!!!

As expected the girl denied every responsibility,saying that she register every sales that pass through her hand.....and I think the boss believed her.
Naturally,all suspicion falls on me.....
On that very moment my stupidity got hold of me.....I didn't defend myself...I just say nothing!!!

I cant sleep that night....

spend the whole night worrying.......

will the boss believe me

if i tell him that I didn't took the money.

I feel like quiting the job.....

because who would believe the cashier after she lost the money.

It is definite that the trust wouldn't be there after

this type of incident......

But I can't...

At the end my boss minus the sum of money loss from my salary :(

to think that I have to work for 1 day and 2 hours

before I can get that sum back!!!

Just feel unfair...

what about the other girl ????

well, I think my boss never deduct anything from her salary.

Next time when I'm sharing a shift with somebody else...

I definitely won't be the cashier.

自私？？I think not!!

以前总觉得人人都很自私，

也就这样我也慢慢开始审问自己。。。

我是否在别人眼中也是一个自私自利的人呢？

其实“自私”的定义是什么我自己也不太清楚。。。

那我为何又说别人自私呢？

是因为他们的所做所为是为自己而做

也没考虑到这个做法到底我喜不喜欢

所以另到我不悦吗？

从此他就背上了“自私”的罪名！？

啊！原来我比任何人都自私。

SHIT! I hate them!!!!!!

I hate them!I hate them!I hate them!
So what if you are one of my relatives !!!
Why should I always be the one who accomadate what you all need....
Why should I be the 1 who let you have what you want......
You think tears can let you have everything you want?TRUST ME you are so damn wrong!!!!!
And i personally will make it so hard for you that you will regret treating me wrongly!
Respect that's what they say we need for each other,
why should I respec both of you while you don't even treat me as a human......
Yeah right!You are always the snobbish Know-it-all,who thinks you are always right......
and you,you that has been spoiled since young,you think you can get away with everything .....that they just don't noe what you are doin behing their back.
TRUST ME.....THis Stupid big MOuth will spill out all your beans if you are not careful.just you wait!!!!!!
GOsh I really Hate you 2 man!!!!!
HAte!!!It's the only word I can describe the fellings i have for you 2!!!!!!

The creature

There was once a creature,who live in an island.
It was a small but very cosy island,
Apart from this creature
There was also some other animals
Who share this island.
There was a dog, a rat, a snake and a monkey.

The dog is a very wise and has a very stable character,
While the rat is a very kind and understanding animal.
The snake is smart and beautiful
The monkey has a bright mind

Eventhough the snake is smart but it is very selfish....
Eventhough the monkey has a very bright mind but it is never understanding...
Eventhough the dog is wise but it never listen to the others...

What about the rat?
Well,because it is kind and understanding
The others tend to bully the rat.....

The creature is a very observant animal but has a very low self esteem.
It always compare itself with the snake and feels that the snake is better.

The rat like the snake,the dog and the monkey....
but I'm not sure if it like the creature.

The snake is very close to the rat, the monkey and the dog....
but I'm not sure whether it like the creature.

The monkey like the company of the snake,the dog and the rat....
but I can't find out whether it feels the same towards the creature.

Why?
I don't know.

But one thing I'm sure about the creature is that....
it feels that it is being left out
Maybe it is because it doesn't know how to take people's heart
Maybe it is because it felt that nobody understands
Maybe it is because it separate itself from the others.....

What is the real reason behind ?
This I'm not sure.

It keep on thinking why doesn't anybody understand or tries to understand...
The creature has tried a lot of ways to join in the group
but none of it seems to work....

(well,now you must be thinking what is the main point of this story?)
(I'm not sure)
(Maybe I'll just stop here)

How?
The creature think and think....
Not sure of what to do
because whatever it do
It always seems to be wrong.

Harry potter 4

Went to watch the movie yesterday with my friend.
This is first time I went to a movie with him,I'm a bit surprise since we have known each other since primary school.
The movie is quite hilarious and exciting and I can say it's better than the last potter movie....Much better...And it's the best among it's kind,but if you have already read the book don't expect the movie to be exactly the same.....The plot in the movie is rearranged.....To a simpler version...Without all those explanation of course...
The acting of the casts has improved especially Daniel.However, there is some bad acting in the part of Professor Dumbeldore.Well,he seems very unstable...Not like the one we know from book.
On the whole this movie is definitely worth your money whole movie length is about two and a half hours....(I think the ad accommodate nearly 20 minute of the time)
The most exciting part of the movie is when Harry perform the first task.
So,for those who are still thinking whether to spend your money on the cinema or pasar malam...then I suggest you go to the cinema..the sound effect is much better...although you may hear some little irritating kids calling out to their parents .(well,me and my friend have this kind of situation...hope you don't meet one of those brat during your session)
after the movie....we had lunch and I met my college mate...and I end up going shopping with my her...haa haa...that's how I spend my day off....
By the time I reached home it's already 5pm!!Phew..what a tiring day...

a change of...

while munching on my peanut butter and jelly sandwich this is what i wrote:
just came back from work......oh ya!I changed my job already...so fast?!!..yup...because my parents is too worried about my safety...so i just quit...now I'm working in a book rental shop called Walk-in-rent-a-book.well compare to the previous job this is much less exciting.....but I get to read comic book whole day!!!!haha....is this nice or what? summore no need pay money....wow.What is good about this job is that it has shorter working hours,near my house yet far enough for me to get enough exercise and if I can stay on this job for a month.....I get a raise...from RM3.50 to RM 4.....perfect right?.....so now I'm content.No more complaining about being bored anymore.hee hee

first day

Wow!Now i'm super tired....been working fo 9 hours straight.But the work is very enjoyable....I work in the CD-Rama department so I get to play loads of CD....yay!especially Jay Chou's and some instrumental CD which is super nice!!!Now you can ask me which CD is worth buying and which is not...and which has the discounted price.....haha...cos I've been changing price tag for the whole day liao....tear until my hand sore liao...now I still can feel the sticker in my hand la.....but they also got raised some CD price.....
When I got back from work,kena scold by my father cos..by the time I reach home it is nearly 8 o'clock.He even call me to quit the job....hope I can persuade him to let me work for a while yet...until I run ourt of CD to play...haha!!!!
I do enjoy my work!It' just the journey to work that makes me dread it....now I wish I got a car....
ok gtg liao.....my hand is on the verge of collapsing....will post in more if I still got my hand ....hahaha!!!night everybody.