lazy

been lazy to post something for ages...so I hope everybody like this new skin...personally I do like it...
Lately I'm addicted to an online game...can't stop myself from playing haha...so that explain why I'm absent from the blog for such a long time.
This online game is quite nice to play.....
For those who are bored you may go to the URL below to download this game...
www.maplesea.com... the name of this game is Maple story.
BTW I wish everybody a very Merry Christmas.....
It's only 5 more days to christmas and I haven't even found a present for my friend...drat!!

Something about the future

I'm sure some of you guys may sometime day dream about your future life but maybe nobody does that but me.
I've always wished that I'll be rich,well who doesn't......Maybe not that rich but I'll live a comfortable life.With a nice house and all those cool stuff to decorate it.
The house will have a water feature....a pool or a pond or something else and definitely with some night light for it to be seen at night.
I wouldn't want a big house, a medium one will do, cos I hate the cold feeling you have in a huge house,the cosy ones are much better....
The house will have some sky light in the living room....you know the ones that has glass on the ceiling.....so I can watch the star at night while listening to soft and slow music....
as for the bedroom,it will have soft carpet where it will feel like moss when you walk on it.......with a walk in wardrobe....
the room will also have french windows that open up to a small balcony overlooking the sea..yea it'll be nice and on the balcony I will put some holes on the wall so I can put on the candles at night.
For the dining room,there will be glass windows that strecth from the ceiling till the floor so that while I'm having my meals I can also admire my garden.
of course to realise all these dreams I'll have to work extra hard to earn that kind of money....haha

happy birthday great grandfather!!

I celebrated my great grandfather's 100th birthday yesterday.Yup!he's still alive and strong,quite proud of him too :)

I have been wondering why nobody left any message for me lately???Is my blog starting to get boring liao....haha.
Anyway I change my hairdo liao,I curled my hair and even coloured it so the next time you see me I think you'll get a shock.
Well most of my relative can't recognise me when they first saw me.....so I don't reckon anybody can figure it's me when they see me with my new hairdo.

By the way,wen ching is coming back to malaysia on the 19th and can't wait to meet up with her.Miss the old days so much.....

As for my job, I quit again!!what's the reason??Don't ask,it's the same one....hee hee..goodbye comic books and extra income :(

One of my old classmate is back from the down under,but haven't had the time to meet up with her....and I owe her a proper birthday hug.

and One thing......I'm BROKE!!!
sad:( have to find another job liao....wonder what to do this time....
oh worse!is there any job available....
haih!!
who would want to hired me

Unorganized deep thoughts

I felt pretty left out lately, from friends...Family....

my surrounding area.Every where I go I just don't fit in....

as if in this world there is not a place where I can call it my own...

nobody really understand me.

They tend to judge me by their version of me,just felt so helpless because they never think of my feelings.

Maybe you'll think I'm selfish...

maybe I'm selfish...

but I just want people to notice who I really am and not their version of me....

I just want to know that somehow people care about me...

that I'm not an invisible human.

You may say that I'm hungry for attention...

There is so many times that I wish that someone

would ask me how am I feeling today.....

who would see me through all those action and

understand the reason behind those act...

I have always felt out of place....

with my family,my friends

anytime,anywhere.

Seems to me whatever I do or say

always comes out the opposite.

Either I have problem in conveying my message across

or it's that they interpret the meaning wrongly.

My guess is that it's my problem and not the others

cause it's not possible for everybody to interpret my meaning wrongly

right?

Maybe I'm just jealous when I feel that my family

seems to like my sis more than me...

that my sis is a better person than I'm.

Felt that I can't live up to my parents hope.

It' s just so difficult...

difficult not to feel that way.

I just don't fit in...

not with anyone or at anywhere.

What will happen to the world if I was not born into this world?

will everything be the same?

I wonder.

Yeah!I'm thinking too much...

but I need the support

I need the advice

I need the help

I need to feel that I belong somewhere...

that someone will actually think me as one of the important person in their life

but who am I to be consider as one?

Alone in this world it's what I feel....

nobody really care what happen to me...

maybe my family do...

but apart from them I just can't think of anyone else.

I'm just a pedestrian in their life

so are they in mine

but why am I asking the pedestrians to care about me?

Maybe I am always taking

and not always giving.

and there's a quote which says that

we must give more than we take.

wow!!I actually got a letter from ANU.....

Long time never post a thing in this blog.....

alot of things has happened this past few days......

as you all know,I'm now working as a cashier in a book rental store.

The story begin on a rainy night around 10pm...

It's time to close shop and I was summing up the cash of the day when I found out that.....the cash was actually lesser than the total amount in the register!!!

Man,at that particular moment my body went cold.....

and i started panicking
The actual sum is RM 28.9 lesser than the total in the register!!!
when I told my boss about it,his face immediately become black like hell.....
well you must be wondering what happen to the 28.90......to be honest I don't know because apart from me,there is also a girl working the same shift that night.

I was scared that the boss will accused me of stealing....and he sounded angry when he talk to me after that.....

he told me to go back and think over what happen to the money....and I was confused...

why isit only me he is suspicious about....what about the other girl???

she took over the counter when I'm out having my dinner....

in addition to that who would be that stupid to steal the money when he/ she is in charge of the money!!!

As expected the girl denied every responsibility,saying that she register every sales that pass through her hand.....and I think the boss believed her.
Naturally,all suspicion falls on me.....
On that very moment my stupidity got hold of me.....I didn't defend myself...I just say nothing!!!

I cant sleep that night....

spend the whole night worrying.......

will the boss believe me

if i tell him that I didn't took the money.

I feel like quiting the job.....

because who would believe the cashier after she lost the money.

It is definite that the trust wouldn't be there after

this type of incident......

But I can't...

At the end my boss minus the sum of money loss from my salary :(

to think that I have to work for 1 day and 2 hours

before I can get that sum back!!!

Just feel unfair...

what about the other girl ????

well, I think my boss never deduct anything from her salary.

Next time when I'm sharing a shift with somebody else...

I definitely won't be the cashier.

自私？？I think not!!

以前总觉得人人都很自私，

也就这样我也慢慢开始审问自己。。。

我是否在别人眼中也是一个自私自利的人呢？

其实“自私”的定义是什么我自己也不太清楚。。。

那我为何又说别人自私呢？

是因为他们的所做所为是为自己而做

也没考虑到这个做法到底我喜不喜欢

所以另到我不悦吗？

从此他就背上了“自私”的罪名！？

啊！原来我比任何人都自私。

SHIT! I hate them!!!!!!

I hate them!I hate them!I hate them!
So what if you are one of my relatives !!!
Why should I always be the one who accomadate what you all need....
Why should I be the 1 who let you have what you want......
You think tears can let you have everything you want?TRUST ME you are so damn wrong!!!!!
And i personally will make it so hard for you that you will regret treating me wrongly!
Respect that's what they say we need for each other,
why should I respec both of you while you don't even treat me as a human......
Yeah right!You are always the snobbish Know-it-all,who thinks you are always right......
and you,you that has been spoiled since young,you think you can get away with everything .....that they just don't noe what you are doin behing their back.
TRUST ME.....THis Stupid big MOuth will spill out all your beans if you are not careful.just you wait!!!!!!
GOsh I really Hate you 2 man!!!!!
HAte!!!It's the only word I can describe the fellings i have for you 2!!!!!!

The creature

There was once a creature,who live in an island.
It was a small but very cosy island,
Apart from this creature
There was also some other animals
Who share this island.
There was a dog, a rat, a snake and a monkey.

The dog is a very wise and has a very stable character,
While the rat is a very kind and understanding animal.
The snake is smart and beautiful
The monkey has a bright mind

Eventhough the snake is smart but it is very selfish....
Eventhough the monkey has a very bright mind but it is never understanding...
Eventhough the dog is wise but it never listen to the others...

What about the rat?
Well,because it is kind and understanding
The others tend to bully the rat.....

The creature is a very observant animal but has a very low self esteem.
It always compare itself with the snake and feels that the snake is better.

The rat like the snake,the dog and the monkey....
but I'm not sure if it like the creature.

The snake is very close to the rat, the monkey and the dog....
but I'm not sure whether it like the creature.

The monkey like the company of the snake,the dog and the rat....
but I can't find out whether it feels the same towards the creature.

Why?
I don't know.

But one thing I'm sure about the creature is that....
it feels that it is being left out
Maybe it is because it doesn't know how to take people's heart
Maybe it is because it felt that nobody understands
Maybe it is because it separate itself from the others.....

What is the real reason behind ?
This I'm not sure.

It keep on thinking why doesn't anybody understand or tries to understand...
The creature has tried a lot of ways to join in the group
but none of it seems to work....

(well,now you must be thinking what is the main point of this story?)
(I'm not sure)
(Maybe I'll just stop here)

How?
The creature think and think....
Not sure of what to do
because whatever it do
It always seems to be wrong.

Harry potter 4

Went to watch the movie yesterday with my friend.
This is first time I went to a movie with him,I'm a bit surprise since we have known each other since primary school.
The movie is quite hilarious and exciting and I can say it's better than the last potter movie....Much better...And it's the best among it's kind,but if you have already read the book don't expect the movie to be exactly the same.....The plot in the movie is rearranged.....To a simpler version...Without all those explanation of course...
The acting of the casts has improved especially Daniel.However, there is some bad acting in the part of Professor Dumbeldore.Well,he seems very unstable...Not like the one we know from book.
On the whole this movie is definitely worth your money whole movie length is about two and a half hours....(I think the ad accommodate nearly 20 minute of the time)
The most exciting part of the movie is when Harry perform the first task.
So,for those who are still thinking whether to spend your money on the cinema or pasar malam...then I suggest you go to the cinema..the sound effect is much better...although you may hear some little irritating kids calling out to their parents .(well,me and my friend have this kind of situation...hope you don't meet one of those brat during your session)
after the movie....we had lunch and I met my college mate...and I end up going shopping with my her...haa haa...that's how I spend my day off....
By the time I reached home it's already 5pm!!Phew..what a tiring day...

a change of...

while munching on my peanut butter and jelly sandwich this is what i wrote:
just came back from work......oh ya!I changed my job already...so fast?!!..yup...because my parents is too worried about my safety...so i just quit...now I'm working in a book rental shop called Walk-in-rent-a-book.well compare to the previous job this is much less exciting.....but I get to read comic book whole day!!!!haha....is this nice or what? summore no need pay money....wow.What is good about this job is that it has shorter working hours,near my house yet far enough for me to get enough exercise and if I can stay on this job for a month.....I get a raise...from RM3.50 to RM 4.....perfect right?.....so now I'm content.No more complaining about being bored anymore.hee hee

first day

Wow!Now i'm super tired....been working fo 9 hours straight.But the work is very enjoyable....I work in the CD-Rama department so I get to play loads of CD....yay!especially Jay Chou's and some instrumental CD which is super nice!!!Now you can ask me which CD is worth buying and which is not...and which has the discounted price.....haha...cos I've been changing price tag for the whole day liao....tear until my hand sore liao...now I still can feel the sticker in my hand la.....but they also got raised some CD price.....
When I got back from work,kena scold by my father cos..by the time I reach home it is nearly 8 o'clock.He even call me to quit the job....hope I can persuade him to let me work for a while yet...until I run ourt of CD to play...haha!!!!
I do enjoy my work!It' just the journey to work that makes me dread it....now I wish I got a car....
ok gtg liao.....my hand is on the verge of collapsing....will post in more if I still got my hand ....hahaha!!!night everybody.

害怕

忘　我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘
那些和日記一起收藏的過往
孤單在思緒之中變得很漫長

想　我沒有很刻意讓自己不去想
那些和照片一起靜止的模樣
我學著堅強　堅強到不用學著不想　學著遺忘

＊還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
　還是害怕不經意的聽見你的消息
　然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰
　當擁有已經是失去　就勇敢的放棄

　還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
　還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
　然而當愛最後的出口是分離
　我會這麼相信　走下去＊
Repeat＊

忘　我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘　遺忘

success!

haha finally been able to get a job liao....eventhough the pay is not high....at least I get something to do...so if you happen to be in 1 utama....you can come visit me in the Popular book shop.

finally!

Found a suitable skin for my blog liao....so what u guys think abt it then.
However there is still some problem with the music player.will try to solve the prob..
u can play some of this songs:

• jay chou-qing tian
• jay chou-an hao
• britney-sometimes
• stef-silent all these years

BTW....

been busy the whole day...u noe have to find work.tomorrow still have to go for interviews ...

jobless!

aihhhhh.....been back from china nearly 2 weeks and yet I still can't find a job......restless as ever,wishing that I would be able to find a job before this week is up....now I'm jealous of those who had to work from morning till night......at least they have something to use their brain on.....
Gosh!I so miss my school days .....
To imagine that I spent nearly the whole day blogging.....finally I have run out of ideas to contribute to my blog!

~*aLoNe

Alone....
are we alone in this big wide world ....
or is there alien out there(PEOPLE ALWAYS ASK THAT)
sometimes i wonder.
some is afraid to be alone in a place....
while some always stay away from everybody.

how do you desribe it?
isit...
the feeling that nobody care for you?
the feeling that all the people that you know are far away from you?
the feeling that appear after a fight with your love ones?
or isit...
the feeling that appear when you feel that nobody is there for you?

Loneliness is a very grey and great thing ....
he can reach you where ever you are...
even in the middle of a crowd
with hundreds of people with you
or he can make you sleepless throughout the night

how many people can stand being alone?
everybody?none?
we just don't know
So..
Are you afraid to be alone then?
can you stand the quiteness of your life without your friend?

That's what friends are for

Found this poem somewhere but i forgot where liao..
so if you are the owner of this poem...can you pls put your info in the
comment box,thanks.
And i never thought i'll feel this way

And as far as im concerned

Im glad i have the chance to say

That i do believe i love you

And if i should ever go away

Well then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me for sure

Thats what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

Thats what friends are for

Under RENOVATION

I'll be renovating my blog again this week so don't be alarmed when you will find it different when you visit next time......
BTW if there is any problem...pls inform me k?

Back from china

feels like a lifetime ago .......finally I'm back from China....overall it was a very intresting trip...the scenery in jiuzhaigou is amazing and I get to experience to type of seasons there....autumn and winter....and I finally got the chance to how white a mountain is when there is snow covering it and how beautiful is with different hue of colour covering the hills.....
the waterfalls and lakes in Jiuzhaigou is magnificent....it's really a heaven on earth....
however if you want to reach there you have to bear with some side effect from the trip up the mountain.....and the road up the mountain is horrifying!
but trust me the trip is worth all the pain that you are gonna get...because you get to see the magnificent view of mountain and high plane that is untouched by human.You can even see snow covered mountain along the way or hills that contained amazing waterfalls....
There are hill tribes living and sometimes if you are lucky you can even be the audience of their amazing singing......it's just like in the sound of music.....because their singing will be blown away by the wind.....you can listen to their singing even you are far away....
It's sad to think that eventhough China is progressing as I write.....there are still people who starve to death....the distribution of wealth in China is still far from being even.....the life is very tough...living through everyday is a big challenge for some...just imagine you can buy four orange with RM1!Imagine what they have to go through before they can the tree to bear fruit....some don't even own their own land, they rent it from the local gov...

November's chopin

Yes!Jay chou is going to release his sixth album....The November's chopin....on the 1st of november.The first track is known as Nocturne.....quite nice....so if you guys wants to listen you can go to www.getfox.net you can download from there.
The album's concept walks the line of "being temperamental". And, in order for the visual affect to flow with the thick sense of classical themes, the singer especially went to the city on the water, Venice, to get shots. Maintaining the style that started from his well-received album "Ye Hui Mei", this album's image and cover was created solely by Jay Chow.
They are taking in the orders for this album....for those who order beforehand will get the special edition of this album and his posters...so hurry
JAY CHOU rox!!!!