This is what relatives are....

To do or not to do...
to tell or not to tell...

this is the problem I faced this week,
something my uncle did makes me ask myself this question.
It is by far not a very big serious situation,but I am fumed when I heard this from my sis.

Basically,my uncle left my sister alone with 2 stranger to do up his floor in his apartment and when he and my aunt went away from the city to a small town where my uncle practices his medicine and stay over in the weekend. they din even pack in preparation for the small little renovation, and expect that my sis disessemble the bed for them and move their cupboard and remove the furniture for the work men to do their work.(what kind of adult leave a teenager to do all this heavy work by herself huh??luckily my sis is an ex LM)

I'm surprise that my uncle would be that irresponsible and treating my sis like a maid...which i think this is way overboard...

my sis ask me not to tell my parents what my uncle did, mainly because she doesn't want to make a scene out of it...and she doesn't our parents to worry about it.

But with my big mouth dun expect me to shut up, still told my parents anyway.

Mainly, after my parents speak to my uncle abt what he did, he still din thinks that he is wrong by doin that...
but honestly would you in your sanest mind leave a 17 yr old teen with 2 stranger in an apartment??
and would you as a parent leave your own daughter with 2 stranger in an apartment for two wole days staright??

this however isn't the major part of the story yet,
after my mom had a long talk with my uncle abt everything, all he did when he call my sis is asking how his friggin floor is doin and will she help him clean up the floor??!!!!

what the hell is wrong with him??huh!!! how can u just ignore everything and just wanted to know that how your precious floor is doin!!!!go to hell man.to think that he is my relative jus make me hate him more...

Now, my "Saint" uncle thinks that it is my sis who told them abt what happen, and then complain every small little details abt what my sis din wan to do for him when he told him to do like....can she throw away the pampers his daughter used for him, while he planed to bring his daughter and his wife out for a nice little walk!!!GOSH...breaking news my uncle jus got a maid from malaysia who also happen to be my sis and his very own niece....
how terrible can he be then??
It's not even becos my mom doesn't pay him anything for my sis livin in his place....she pays alot ok..enuf for my sis to live in a 5 star hotel ok!!!!

so everybody pls beware, if u ever planning to study oversea...stay away from relatives..this is the worse nightmare u can get...even if they offer to let u stay with them(that's wat my uncle did)... even if you think u noe them well, bcos ppl change when you live with them long enuf....

I wish I can curse him for what he did to my sis... haih, poor little sis, she would be goin thru hell right now...

P/S: this type incident may not happen to some, bcos their relative are really an angel.Just be careful if u ever make a decision to stay with a relative in the future.

报应

这个星期，已经被烫伤了两次。。。不知是不是因为我是恶魔所带来的报应？因为我得自私而得来的结果。

以前，我都会常听人说长大以后你会慢慢变成另一个人。。。当时我不明白为何他们会这样说，心想本性难移啊！！现在得知了，虽然说是本性难移，但为了应付这个世界你会慢慢地把真正的自己埋藏起来。。。

这就是所谓的变成另一个人。

刚开始或许你会不断地责怪自己，因为你所做的一切一切伤害了不少人，但久而久之你就会被这个假象代替了真正的你。。。

这就是事实吗？难道世界就是那么的丑陋？？人类也因此得越变越复杂？？

以前的我是不会像现在那样为了自己而不顾身边的人的感受， 可能这就是所有变化的开始。。。因为我现在觉得很愧疚。

当然要不要变得更恶劣，我扮演了做决定的那个角色。。。

人的恶和善，是如何的分辨？对自己好就代表着你或许在过程中会伤害很多人，这是好？坏？

对别人好自己却因这而失去了千载难逢的机会，这又是好还是坏？

nothing interesting

Just got back from work...gosh so tired...
Lately I have been very slow....and dreamy dunno what's the reason....
I went to donate blood this week but they say I can't donate cos my iron count is too low...no wonder i feel tired lately...
the nurse told me to have more red meat and more fruit juice....
seems like if you really like to help and care for the others, you have to take care of your self first...if not even if you have the heart you won't have the ability to do whatever is needed from you.
ok this is it for now...I have to go back to my assignment.

变了

今天，上课时发生了一些事情。。。
我因为一个同学没来上课而对她发脾气。。。也不知为什么我不把事情好好地解释给她听。。。
明知她一定不会明白到底发生什么。。我都不想多费力气去解释给她听。。。课后去找她时。。。她还那么得轻松的上网我看了就更气。。。你们现在一定在奇怪为什么我那么的夸张的。。。只不过是一堂课而已吗...不需要那么得大惊小怪的。。。
在我就读的课程里，每一堂实习课我们都必须上。。如有缺席除非是生病不然会算是全科不及格的。。。明白了吧？好了又回到那个故事去。。。
直到我把一切详细的解释后她才以一个责怪我的眼神看我。。。看她就快要哭的样子我也没心情去安慰她。。。随便跟她说几句就走了。。。
心里只想着为什么她那么的笨啊？自己的事不会去打理吗？总是依赖身边的我去帮她注意。。。不只是第一次了。。。经过那么多次了还不会自己注意一下吗？。。。还怪我？我上课之前就打电话告诉你，你一定要现在就来上课。。。说时间已经换了。。。
现在回想起来。。我对当时的我感到好害怕哦。。。如果是以前的我。。我一定会帮忙她而不是一走了之的。。就算帮不上我也会在她身边安慰她。。。而不是视而不见地说再见。。。
我变了吗？变成了冷酷无情，骄傲瞧不起人的人吗？我以前也是那么的依赖我的朋友。。。为什么我现在就不会像我的朋友一样帮忙她呢？我变残忍了。。。真是不寒而栗啊！！！
恐怖的人上。

welcome to my world...

ok...
I finally got myself a webcam...and I have taken some photo of my room and the house i'm currently living in.....
I hope you can bear with the pictures...it's blur....

不知道为什么。。。。

今天我又想起了他，也不知道什么事情让我再度回想起以前的事。。。
不知他现在是否安好呢？
地球的另一边会是什么样子呢？
我以为我会放得下。。。那为什么现在又那么的执著？

finally civilisation....

Finally after I have arrived here for more than 3 months....the civilisation has come to me...I got broadband!!!
yeap...I know you think that should I announce to the whole world about this small-little-unexciting-and-you-get-to-use-it-everyday thing....
But you have to realise that I'm at down under where everything is so laid back even the technology get affected too.....however I think this lifestyle so far still hasn't had any impact on me...cos I still change job at a very high speed...the yum cha place boss got fired....hahaha...
but the new 1 i have got... i really hope it will last though...haih...th job is fairly easy....drying out plates and bowls and setting up the tables...i did so many times during the night that i dreamt abt it during the night...
i know what you think..it won't last..but let just see if i can stand it for a month than we will discuss abt the prospect of this new job

happy birthday to me....

today is my 20th birthday....had a wonderful day and surprisingly I'm not depressed by the fact that I'm out of malaysia.
Because being out here makes me know there is actually alot of people do actually care about me and they haven't for got about my birthday....although I'm still short on the present....well, i'm kind enough bcos I will still recieve them eventhough it is late...haha
Actually, vanessa celebrated my birthday with me by bringing me for a dinner and a movie today...and I'm touched by the fact that she would go so far out to celebrate it with me and even a card and a present from her plus a handmade birthday cake from her too....and after we are back from the movies she made me some warm cocoa...
to be in short, I'm surprised , thankful and touched by what she did, bcos....to be honest even friends that know me so long wouldn't do that....
so I think I finally made up my mind about my landlady.....she is trulyt a knid and understanding person and I have done her a great injustice by scolding her last time ...and I think the greatest gift that i have recieved would be that I found a friend in her.....a one that I can approach when I'm in trouble...plus the fact that she finally decided to install broadband(although i still paid my share of the fee)...so you'll be seeing me on9 for 24 7 ....hahahaha.....

Thanks everybody for the warm birthday wishes you gave me last night....it's enough to know that you still remember my birthday and that was the best you can give me for a gift.(that is bcos i keep on reminding some of you hahaha)

Back from Melbourne

And so I'm back from melbourne after a very long easter break.
With a heavy heart, I took an hour bus to the airport....
the scenery along the way was very nice but with me in the prospect of leaving my sis and melbourne I'm not in the mood to really enjoy it.
As I walk towards the plane, my heart getting heavy and heavier, although I can nearly see all the flat grassland surrounding me but inside it seems that everything is squeezing into a very small space.....
the plane took off...and with it my heart drop...I'm really leaving...melbourne in a bird's eye view...i don't like it when I'm goin back to sydney...like it better when I'm landing on it..
So, Goodbye Melbourne,I'm goin back to that place....*Sad*
in total i had a very nice time with my sis in melb, eventhough we didn't do much together..mainly just do nothing but watch movie and lepak around the city...but it feels more like a home in a place where your closest relative is with you.
Hey sis, thanks for your birthday gift and the wasabi nuts...hahaha...

*我喜欢这儿不是因为它是一个城市或是一个热闹的地方，这份喜欢是因为你在这儿。。。一个非常清楚我的人。*

here comes the change....

Yeap...here is another new face for my blog.
Like the background music alot.....it's a soundtrack from a japanese series but I forgot which one...I know this is a bit depressing but have to find to replace the old one cos....the image can't be used anymore....so I hope you'll bear with it for a while before I find a more happy and nicer one...
so enjoy it...
winter is coming soon here.

how I fall in love....

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

the meaning of my....

Your Birthdate: May 2

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense. You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends. Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone. Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive. Your strength: Your universal compassion Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings Your power color: Mauve Your power symbol: Butterfly Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

我是一个常感到饥饿的小孩

饥饿？？？？
哈哈啊哈哈。。。。。
终于如愿以偿的到了这个城市了。。。。。
一切就像我所想象的一样，夜昼不分的热闹， 连绵不断的人潮，充满了琳琅满目的店。
在这里的每一天可算是过得非常的精彩。

不过，我相信这只是我暂时的反应， 对一个大城市的反应。。。
而且我相信在这儿住久了。。。可能会变得很空虚，看似很热闹的城市其实是很寂寞的。
再漂亮的夜景也不过是欺骗与引诱人们的好奇心。

那为何我又那么热恋着这个城市呢？
哈哈。。。因为我是个渴望着自由却又想要有个家的饥饿小孩
刚好这个城市符合我所有的条件。。。可说是家外家啊。。。
不久过后我就要飞回我那个小镇去上课了。。。或许下个假期不会再来这儿了。。
哎！真开始有点不舍得了。

好啦！就到止为止吧。。。
马来西亚的朋友们，要好好的照顾自己哦！
很快的，我就回到马来西亚了。。。（哈哈哈哈。。。或许还要等多九个月吧！）

19.5 degree C

Finally the long awaited day has arrived for me, I took a train from gosford to sydney airport to board my plane to melbourne...but I arrived at the airport four and a half hours earlier...gosh! you should have see how I waste all my time in the airport....haha...
After what seems like an eternity I finally board the plane....Finally, I'm on my way to melbourne. Had a very nice window seat on the plane (that is because I'm the earliest passenger to check in ...hahaha)able to catch a glimpse of the bay in sydney before I'm off to melbourne...talked to a business man during the flight about the craziness of sudoku...haha a very nice and funny conversation I had..time flies and in no time I'm in melbourne.
Lucky to catched the view of the sun setting on the horizon...oh if only I got a camera with me... it'll be a very nice picture...haih......
It's funny to see melbourne in a bird's eye view again after two years of my last visit.Things here apparently didn't change much, especially the weather...still as temperament as it was 2 years ago......
Spent 2 days exploring the city by foot, found my bearing in the city again with some new found surprising little shops...which I quite like..... There is a alot of cafes and restaurant in melbourne city it self...every corner you turn there would be at least one shop that has anything to do with food and all this restaurant or cafe has very good feedback from the food critics....hahaha so during my first night in melbourne I was lost...don't know which shop to go....for dinner.
My sis and I even discover a very cosy small little lane that is full with cafes with live music performance....I like the atmosphere there....
Gain some baking experience..by baking some muffins for my sis.....don't worry my sis hasn't had any symptoms of food poisoning...although maybe she will just fake 1 so that she doesn't need to attend school...
It's a wonder that no matter how cold isit you felt ...the temoerature will still be 19.5 degree....just amazing..by now I think i quite immune to the cold weather liao...except for my throat...hope that I won't be down with a flu
ok that's for now...will post up more soon....
have a nice holiday for those on vacation or break...and try to enjoy your day for those that is still working hard.....haha...so .....kudos :>

Off to melbourne....finally.

I will be going to melbourne this coming wednesday and pretty excited by it...just can't wait..been planning this trip for like ages..why can't time fly faster...huh?
haha.....
lately, something been bothering me though...like soo imm I also have some problem with my group work and the group member....argghhhh..just can't stand them...but I know for sure i won't give them credit for anything by the end the semester...no way...if you like to be lazy...do it yourway....don't think that you still can get high marks if you didn't do any work...I'm just not a good guy..too bad you dunno abt it...by that time I'll be laughing my way to next semester with high marks and know more than you about practically anything that has to do with this course..and I hope you cry.

ok enough, today is the day when they announce the winner for a competition to win a trip to Italy....for15 days...nice right?
oooooo can't wait......hahaah...although the chance of me winning is pretty slim...but hope that i'm lucky enough to get the trip and the rock...(hahaha someone will know what I am talking about)
ok then , I'm off hogging down the program..they will announce the winner soon....
Pray hard that i get it...
the next time i post, I'll be in melbourne.
will say more abt the would be intresting life in Melbourne.....take care everyone...

I'm on a bad dreamy mood today...

Obviously I have hit another low again today....just don't know why
Just don't have the mood to work.
Thanks to my ability to self doubt myself i'm blue.

Been in this town for nearly 2 months now, everyday I'll wake up in the morning, prepare myself to face another day in University.Hoping everyday at least I'll enjoy myself with this new environment, that I'll get to talk about something else apart from course work with one of my course mate...something that I can do naturally back in malaysia. Is it me only having this problem while the others don't,I just wonder.
How do you do it?Now that I have realised that I just don't know how to socialise.
everyone seems to get along well with somebody but somehow I don't fit into the picture. Am I too proud?serious? or is it my mind that is playing games with me.
Why am I even here in the first place?...haha...probably you all will be laughing at me right now.... serves you right after all it's my decision that I want to come here....I really need someone to talk to..where is your best friend when you need them?even if she is, it won't help much cos she won't understand.


well, at least I got something to look forward to this week..cos I'm going to Melbourne to meet my sister and stay there for 2 and a half weeks....in my easter holiday....maybe I'll get a camera too...that is if I can afford it...hahaha
gosh I really should go get myself a job..considering that I fired the boss on my last job....haha..yeah you are right..again.

I think I better not wallow in my sad thoughts any longer or else I won't recover in time for my trip to melbourne....now I'm excited...finally get to meet one of my family..it's amazing that you'll never know how much you miss them until now.

ok la...now someone is pestering me..so i'm off to chat ...tata

What age do you act?

You Are 19 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Latest news from abroad and my pau story...read all about it.

The second post of the day...rare right?

Just chatted with two of my friends on the msn just now.....
feel so nice to know that there's people that actually care about me and i'm not just another passerby in their life.
In this moment of my life, I can felt the warmth of their care eventhough the night is cold.

To wen ching,
I am really glad that you got that offer from UCL... eventhough I don't know what does it stands for...haha...but I'm happy for you, all your hard work will finally pay off soon. Don't worry too much on whether you will finish your 2000 words essay in time...because from the day I know you I have always thought you are good in your language and your maths(although this nothing to do with the essay) so, get into UCL and find a place in london so i can visit u soon..haha...
oh yeah BTW tell me the date you are gonna slaughter yew keat so i can lodge a police report for you, see I'm such good friend.
seeing that we both like city so much....maybe you can get me some sovenir(i dun noe whether dis is the correct spelling)hahaha...so when you are travelling around you won't miss me that much...haha
but of course....we will exchange presents like we used to do....jus pass mine to hui jin and you will get yours next year cos i dun think i can come home this july *sad* and dun worry I'll leave your christmas present to hui jin too....
So, good luck to you with you university offer.
Ever angelic *evil grin*,
Chiau Chuin.

To Hwa Khang,
I'm so sorry that so many bad things happen to you recently, I hope that things will start going your way soon. As I said last time about me-missing-the-bus-on-tha- day,-but-got-lucky-on-the-second-day-concept... hahaha...i know sometimes it won't work for you...so I have decided to sing a song for you......no la just kidding.....but if you want to,just let me know anytime....ok?
orelse I can send some you of my precious microwave pau...hahaha....but in exchange you have to post the double fillet for me....must be in an express 1 so it can reach me the next day...
Hope that your aunt is ok....and see around in the msn soon.
The pau eater,
Chiau Chuin


and Here is my pau story....trust me it's funny I made it up myself....hahaha hee hee
for those who heard the story i made before will certainly what is coming up.....hahaha

well, this story happen in a far away land on a very cold day....
er....
you will have to wait for the rest because I just can't think abt anything to go on with it...

ok everybody take care ya....and miss you all loads...

Well...

Time flies this week...and I have done loads of things...ok, here a few of them.

On Monday, I went down to sydney to have a look.Enjoyed it so much...makes me feel that I haven't even left home...because life in the city was busy.....visited all the tourist spot(nearly all...) saw the sydney opera house, harbour bridge, china town...bought some egg tarts there..miss them so much
Oh how i wish I had a camera with me....I would have capture every moment I have spent in sydney and show you guys about it..... So right now, I'm just waiting for someone to climb the harbour bridge with me....so who is up for it?
Well, I did write about some to shao rou....Hope you recieved the letter already...

And for the rest of the week, I'm living on a blissful state...must be the after effect of visiting the city...and try to finish my essay.....and I finally finished it..yesterday hahaha....

maybe I will visit the city again soon...just can't stand living in a ulu place any longer.
don't worry I'll keep you guys up to date about everything that is happening to me...which is if you are intrested abt it.

This is what you want.....hahaha

Well, since she highly doubt that I'll do it....
This is for you Soo Imm,

My earliest memory....

of my Grandmother was when she was alone in the kitchen cleaning up after the chinese reunion dinner.Nobody actually help her ,so I'm quite angry with my aunts for not doing that.

At school I ...

used to take part in the singing contest every year in my primary school.But I never seems to sing properly because I'll just be down with a flu or a cough.haih....

My first relationship.....

well, never had 1 so this question irrelevant to me....hahaha

I wish I had never worn....

so much high heels...at least now I'll have nicer legs....haih...

My Mother and father always told me.....

control my temper....hahaha..I'm famous for my terrible temper...I think I have change a bit.

I wish I had....

a friend that really stay with me ...not physically but will always be there for me...and where we can talk abt things no matter where we are or what have we become.

I wish I hadn't....

shut myself up for so long.....not until I have realise that I'm losing all the wonderful friends that used to be around.

At home I cook...

alot..some already tasted my apple pie...and some bake pies with me....well sooner or later I'll be a big whale....which I hope not...and the fact is my only expertise is how to goreng telur...haha

When I was a child,I wanted to....

be a singer....so I can sing my lungs out of everything that I feel.

The book that changed my life is .....

to be honest...I can't remember I have 1....because every book that I read seems to change my perspective of life somehow.

If only I would....

be able to sing and dance about my life ...just like they do in the musicals.

Friends say I am....

drop dead serious, funny, sometimes irritating, quite, noisy, frightening(that is my famous first impression to everyone), cold, keep to myself, confident but has a low self esteem, contradicting, slow, witty, evil......and the list goes on.

What I don't find amusing is.....

when my friends thinks that I like the foreign country more than my own.....which I get alot since I got the PR for Australia.

I often wonder.....

what my future life would be....will I finally found myself a boyfriend....will I still be nurse after 10 years.

I'm passing the baton to....

Hui Jin, Wen Ching, Shaorou