wow!!I actually got a letter from ANU.....

Long time never post a thing in this blog.....

alot of things has happened this past few days......

as you all know,I'm now working as a cashier in a book rental store.

The story begin on a rainy night around 10pm...

It's time to close shop and I was summing up the cash of the day when I found out that.....the cash was actually lesser than the total amount in the register!!!

Man,at that particular moment my body went cold.....

and i started panicking
The actual sum is RM 28.9 lesser than the total in the register!!!
when I told my boss about it,his face immediately become black like hell.....
well you must be wondering what happen to the 28.90......to be honest I don't know because apart from me,there is also a girl working the same shift that night.

I was scared that the boss will accused me of stealing....and he sounded angry when he talk to me after that.....

he told me to go back and think over what happen to the money....and I was confused...

why isit only me he is suspicious about....what about the other girl???

she took over the counter when I'm out having my dinner....

in addition to that who would be that stupid to steal the money when he/ she is in charge of the money!!!

As expected the girl denied every responsibility,saying that she register every sales that pass through her hand.....and I think the boss believed her.
Naturally,all suspicion falls on me.....
On that very moment my stupidity got hold of me.....I didn't defend myself...I just say nothing!!!

I cant sleep that night....

spend the whole night worrying.......

will the boss believe me

if i tell him that I didn't took the money.

I feel like quiting the job.....

because who would believe the cashier after she lost the money.

It is definite that the trust wouldn't be there after

this type of incident......

But I can't...

At the end my boss minus the sum of money loss from my salary :(

to think that I have to work for 1 day and 2 hours

before I can get that sum back!!!

Just feel unfair...

what about the other girl ????

well, I think my boss never deduct anything from her salary.

Next time when I'm sharing a shift with somebody else...

I definitely won't be the cashier.

自私？？I think not!!

以前总觉得人人都很自私，

也就这样我也慢慢开始审问自己。。。

我是否在别人眼中也是一个自私自利的人呢？

其实“自私”的定义是什么我自己也不太清楚。。。

那我为何又说别人自私呢？

是因为他们的所做所为是为自己而做

也没考虑到这个做法到底我喜不喜欢

所以另到我不悦吗？

从此他就背上了“自私”的罪名！？

啊！原来我比任何人都自私。

SHIT! I hate them!!!!!!

I hate them!I hate them!I hate them!
So what if you are one of my relatives !!!
Why should I always be the one who accomadate what you all need....
Why should I be the 1 who let you have what you want......
You think tears can let you have everything you want?TRUST ME you are so damn wrong!!!!!
And i personally will make it so hard for you that you will regret treating me wrongly!
Respect that's what they say we need for each other,
why should I respec both of you while you don't even treat me as a human......
Yeah right!You are always the snobbish Know-it-all,who thinks you are always right......
and you,you that has been spoiled since young,you think you can get away with everything .....that they just don't noe what you are doin behing their back.
TRUST ME.....THis Stupid big MOuth will spill out all your beans if you are not careful.just you wait!!!!!!
GOsh I really Hate you 2 man!!!!!
HAte!!!It's the only word I can describe the fellings i have for you 2!!!!!!

The creature

There was once a creature,who live in an island.
It was a small but very cosy island,
Apart from this creature
There was also some other animals
Who share this island.
There was a dog, a rat, a snake and a monkey.

The dog is a very wise and has a very stable character,
While the rat is a very kind and understanding animal.
The snake is smart and beautiful
The monkey has a bright mind

Eventhough the snake is smart but it is very selfish....
Eventhough the monkey has a very bright mind but it is never understanding...
Eventhough the dog is wise but it never listen to the others...

What about the rat?
Well,because it is kind and understanding
The others tend to bully the rat.....

The creature is a very observant animal but has a very low self esteem.
It always compare itself with the snake and feels that the snake is better.

The rat like the snake,the dog and the monkey....
but I'm not sure if it like the creature.

The snake is very close to the rat, the monkey and the dog....
but I'm not sure whether it like the creature.

The monkey like the company of the snake,the dog and the rat....
but I can't find out whether it feels the same towards the creature.

Why?
I don't know.

But one thing I'm sure about the creature is that....
it feels that it is being left out
Maybe it is because it doesn't know how to take people's heart
Maybe it is because it felt that nobody understands
Maybe it is because it separate itself from the others.....

What is the real reason behind ?
This I'm not sure.

It keep on thinking why doesn't anybody understand or tries to understand...
The creature has tried a lot of ways to join in the group
but none of it seems to work....

(well,now you must be thinking what is the main point of this story?)
(I'm not sure)
(Maybe I'll just stop here)

How?
The creature think and think....
Not sure of what to do
because whatever it do
It always seems to be wrong.

Harry potter 4

Went to watch the movie yesterday with my friend.
This is first time I went to a movie with him,I'm a bit surprise since we have known each other since primary school.
The movie is quite hilarious and exciting and I can say it's better than the last potter movie....Much better...And it's the best among it's kind,but if you have already read the book don't expect the movie to be exactly the same.....The plot in the movie is rearranged.....To a simpler version...Without all those explanation of course...
The acting of the casts has improved especially Daniel.However, there is some bad acting in the part of Professor Dumbeldore.Well,he seems very unstable...Not like the one we know from book.
On the whole this movie is definitely worth your money whole movie length is about two and a half hours....(I think the ad accommodate nearly 20 minute of the time)
The most exciting part of the movie is when Harry perform the first task.
So,for those who are still thinking whether to spend your money on the cinema or pasar malam...then I suggest you go to the cinema..the sound effect is much better...although you may hear some little irritating kids calling out to their parents .(well,me and my friend have this kind of situation...hope you don't meet one of those brat during your session)
after the movie....we had lunch and I met my college mate...and I end up going shopping with my her...haa haa...that's how I spend my day off....
By the time I reached home it's already 5pm!!Phew..what a tiring day...

a change of...

while munching on my peanut butter and jelly sandwich this is what i wrote:
just came back from work......oh ya!I changed my job already...so fast?!!..yup...because my parents is too worried about my safety...so i just quit...now I'm working in a book rental shop called Walk-in-rent-a-book.well compare to the previous job this is much less exciting.....but I get to read comic book whole day!!!!haha....is this nice or what? summore no need pay money....wow.What is good about this job is that it has shorter working hours,near my house yet far enough for me to get enough exercise and if I can stay on this job for a month.....I get a raise...from RM3.50 to RM 4.....perfect right?.....so now I'm content.No more complaining about being bored anymore.hee hee

first day

Wow!Now i'm super tired....been working fo 9 hours straight.But the work is very enjoyable....I work in the CD-Rama department so I get to play loads of CD....yay!especially Jay Chou's and some instrumental CD which is super nice!!!Now you can ask me which CD is worth buying and which is not...and which has the discounted price.....haha...cos I've been changing price tag for the whole day liao....tear until my hand sore liao...now I still can feel the sticker in my hand la.....but they also got raised some CD price.....
When I got back from work,kena scold by my father cos..by the time I reach home it is nearly 8 o'clock.He even call me to quit the job....hope I can persuade him to let me work for a while yet...until I run ourt of CD to play...haha!!!!
I do enjoy my work!It' just the journey to work that makes me dread it....now I wish I got a car....
ok gtg liao.....my hand is on the verge of collapsing....will post in more if I still got my hand ....hahaha!!!night everybody.

害怕

忘　我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘
那些和日記一起收藏的過往
孤單在思緒之中變得很漫長

想　我沒有很刻意讓自己不去想
那些和照片一起靜止的模樣
我學著堅強　堅強到不用學著不想　學著遺忘

＊還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
　還是害怕不經意的聽見你的消息
　然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰
　當擁有已經是失去　就勇敢的放棄

　還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
　還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
　然而當愛最後的出口是分離
　我會這麼相信　走下去＊
Repeat＊

忘　我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘　遺忘

success!

haha finally been able to get a job liao....eventhough the pay is not high....at least I get something to do...so if you happen to be in 1 utama....you can come visit me in the Popular book shop.

finally!

Found a suitable skin for my blog liao....so what u guys think abt it then.
However there is still some problem with the music player.will try to solve the prob..
u can play some of this songs:

• jay chou-qing tian
• jay chou-an hao
• britney-sometimes
• stef-silent all these years

BTW....

been busy the whole day...u noe have to find work.tomorrow still have to go for interviews ...

jobless!

aihhhhh.....been back from china nearly 2 weeks and yet I still can't find a job......restless as ever,wishing that I would be able to find a job before this week is up....now I'm jealous of those who had to work from morning till night......at least they have something to use their brain on.....
Gosh!I so miss my school days .....
To imagine that I spent nearly the whole day blogging.....finally I have run out of ideas to contribute to my blog!

~*aLoNe

Alone....
are we alone in this big wide world ....
or is there alien out there(PEOPLE ALWAYS ASK THAT)
sometimes i wonder.
some is afraid to be alone in a place....
while some always stay away from everybody.

how do you desribe it?
isit...
the feeling that nobody care for you?
the feeling that all the people that you know are far away from you?
the feeling that appear after a fight with your love ones?
or isit...
the feeling that appear when you feel that nobody is there for you?

Loneliness is a very grey and great thing ....
he can reach you where ever you are...
even in the middle of a crowd
with hundreds of people with you
or he can make you sleepless throughout the night

how many people can stand being alone?
everybody?none?
we just don't know
So..
Are you afraid to be alone then?
can you stand the quiteness of your life without your friend?

That's what friends are for

Found this poem somewhere but i forgot where liao..
so if you are the owner of this poem...can you pls put your info in the
comment box,thanks.
And i never thought i'll feel this way

And as far as im concerned

Im glad i have the chance to say

That i do believe i love you

And if i should ever go away

Well then close your eyes and try

To feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me for sure

Thats what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

Thats what friends are for

Under RENOVATION

I'll be renovating my blog again this week so don't be alarmed when you will find it different when you visit next time......
BTW if there is any problem...pls inform me k?

Back from china

feels like a lifetime ago .......finally I'm back from China....overall it was a very intresting trip...the scenery in jiuzhaigou is amazing and I get to experience to type of seasons there....autumn and winter....and I finally got the chance to how white a mountain is when there is snow covering it and how beautiful is with different hue of colour covering the hills.....
the waterfalls and lakes in Jiuzhaigou is magnificent....it's really a heaven on earth....
however if you want to reach there you have to bear with some side effect from the trip up the mountain.....and the road up the mountain is horrifying!
but trust me the trip is worth all the pain that you are gonna get...because you get to see the magnificent view of mountain and high plane that is untouched by human.You can even see snow covered mountain along the way or hills that contained amazing waterfalls....
There are hill tribes living and sometimes if you are lucky you can even be the audience of their amazing singing......it's just like in the sound of music.....because their singing will be blown away by the wind.....you can listen to their singing even you are far away....
It's sad to think that eventhough China is progressing as I write.....there are still people who starve to death....the distribution of wealth in China is still far from being even.....the life is very tough...living through everyday is a big challenge for some...just imagine you can buy four orange with RM1!Imagine what they have to go through before they can the tree to bear fruit....some don't even own their own land, they rent it from the local gov...

November's chopin

Yes!Jay chou is going to release his sixth album....The November's chopin....on the 1st of november.The first track is known as Nocturne.....quite nice....so if you guys wants to listen you can go to www.getfox.net you can download from there.
The album's concept walks the line of "being temperamental". And, in order for the visual affect to flow with the thick sense of classical themes, the singer especially went to the city on the water, Venice, to get shots. Maintaining the style that started from his well-received album "Ye Hui Mei", this album's image and cover was created solely by Jay Chow.
They are taking in the orders for this album....for those who order beforehand will get the special edition of this album and his posters...so hurry
JAY CHOU rox!!!!

am I doin the right thing??

Found myself asking this question countless times....this morning my mom and I had a talk about the course I am going to study....nursing....my parents had some doubts about it...mainly on whether am I suitable for this career or not....

Up till now I still manage to surprise everyone with this choice....the first reaction is naturally the same..... haaaaa!why you choose this course ?Your result very bad meh?There are many other course for you to choose from,why choose this one?..... well, first thing first..I'm happy with my A-level result and is nursing that bad?everyone sounded as if I told them that I'm doing something insane.......

I know it's an uncommon decision I had made and for those who know me wouldn't even imagine me being a nurse....cos I'm can be consider an impatient girl with lousy temper and the clumsiness is my famous trait....
Most of you may thing that being a nurse may mean doing dirty jobs like cleaning after the patients....but I think this perception should change cos being a nurse means taking care of the very sick and ensuring that they can recover rapidly....it is nearly as noble as a doctor's job.

Since I know my grades won't allow me to be a doctor,nursing is the next best job in saving people lives...

as usual my dad starts worying about whether I'm suitable for the job (when I'm not even starting the term yet),the job hazards that i'm goin to face especially with the avian flu (predictably)on the rise.I know my dad just doesn't want me to do jobs like cleaning the wounds and stuff...and with my personality I may end up killing a person in the process..haha....
even though I'm sure that I'm going to study this course... but am I doing the right thing?can I stand it ?

well....I think only time has the answer to my questions..

I can't!I'm allergic you know......???

Haha finally I'm irritating everyone with my freelance state....Hey guys you do notice I rarely posted something like "what a peaceful day!!" right...I think it is probably the side effect of the medication I'm taking for my cough.....You know...Hallucination...starting to imagine things liao....
In case some of you are wandering what am I with all the free time in the world...then I'll keep you up to date....
You see after spending a few weeks of free time my day kind of fall into a format...

• Starting by waking up around 10 am....(maybe a bit later this few days due to unforseen circumstances..hee hee) of course this include the morning routine of bathing and all those stuff
• then had my brunch....you see I had the luxury to have it everyday while most of you guys can only enjoy it during the weekends! :)
• read the newspaper thoroughly including the classified section.....you know to find jobs...
• by the time i'm finished with the newspaper......it's probably around 1pm...YaY!...psst....the record time for when i finish reading the paper is around 2pm...
• then help my mom with the endless chores.....to prevent me from getting fat...
• follow by the whole afternoon of books and naps...this is my fav part...haha

(by the way for those who are busy from morning till night feel frre to slap me...hahahahaha)

• then i'll drag my dog for a long tiring walk.....now i think I know every detail part of the padang.....
• had some dinner
• then it's series time!!
• first starting with the cantonese at 7pm and follow by the korean series at 8.30pm.....in between the two series I have a short intermission of 30 minutes..you it's tiring to keep on watching TV :p
• then I'm playing games on my PC...or updating my blog!!

ok...that's practically all the general details of my everyday life....and HK I think I know what you want to say......Go find a job!!!(am i correct??)

eer...the details may subject to change due to unforseen situation...and time may vary.... :p

What a peaceful day!

It rained this morning and how comfortable and lucky was I to spend the whole morn in my bed.... when I woke up around 11am and whoa....the sun is already shining so bright....
Had a heavy breakfast or more appropriately a brunch with the daily newspaper and off I go nagging my bro to get prepared for school....done some chores for my mom
Today is a windy and sunny day...it seems almost a perfect day .....so peaceful....so relaxing....with the leaves rustling when the wind blew...it makes me think that i'm back to the beach where I usually spend my holidays in....
There are very big trees on that seaside and when the sea breeze came the tree leaves rustle forming some kind of melody which always makes me doze off to sleep......
Just imagine yourself sitting under a big old tree with its branch partially blocking out the sun ray and there's a mild wind keep on whistling around....and in front of you there is the big wide ocean...where you can doze off whenever you want.....without ever worrying that you have to finish something afterward...or to meet up with somebody.....it's just you and the surrounding.
Oh how I miss the seaside...

an unusually eventful day

This morning woke up early to help my mom with the apple tarts,which took me nearly 2 hours to prepare the apple filling and the baking of the crust......and after that took a shower and off I go to visit my student.....well today was suppose to be children's day...played some games with them....and had a very good and crazy time with them....I'll surely miss them...the first ever cute bunch of kids I teached...haha....
Then,I had some lunch withmy primary schoolmates.....finally I tried the ever famous nando's chicken....it's delicious ...if you haven't taste it before,I highly recommend you to taste it....although I suggest that you order the mild one...because it can be quite spicy for some...hee hee...
Guess what happen next.....I made a very quick decision to go on a shopping spree with Soo Imm.....I think we spent nearly seven hours in 1-utama......where among it is an hour wait for our dinner to arrive.....
to be honest this is the first time I really went on a shopping spree.....bought many things....you see I'm usually not a big spender but dunno what got into me today....nearly spent finish my whole working salary!!!hahaha.....
at first I feel it is the most heart breaking thing I have ever done....but I look at all the things I have bought...and the time I spent with my friend I think it is worth the money....although I still think it is a bit dangerous to go on a shopping spree with Soo Imm....haha cos she can manage to persuade me to buy all kinds of things.......
here is a list of what I bought today:

• A purse
• A bag
• A t-shirt
• A Jacket(the favourite!!)
• a hair clip(still think it is expensive la...imm)
• a few facial mask....haha....

had a wonderful dinner although we have to wait for an hour before our food arrive.....aihhhh

ok nite then i'm off to bed liao cannot stand la.....

my leg having cramps now.....from the over exercise....haha