Latest news from abroad and my pau story...read all about it.

The second post of the day...rare right?

Just chatted with two of my friends on the msn just now.....
feel so nice to know that there's people that actually care about me and i'm not just another passerby in their life.
In this moment of my life, I can felt the warmth of their care eventhough the night is cold.

To wen ching,
I am really glad that you got that offer from UCL... eventhough I don't know what does it stands for...haha...but I'm happy for you, all your hard work will finally pay off soon. Don't worry too much on whether you will finish your 2000 words essay in time...because from the day I know you I have always thought you are good in your language and your maths(although this nothing to do with the essay) so, get into UCL and find a place in london so i can visit u soon..haha...
oh yeah BTW tell me the date you are gonna slaughter yew keat so i can lodge a police report for you, see I'm such good friend.
seeing that we both like city so much....maybe you can get me some sovenir(i dun noe whether dis is the correct spelling)hahaha...so when you are travelling around you won't miss me that much...haha
but of course....we will exchange presents like we used to do....jus pass mine to hui jin and you will get yours next year cos i dun think i can come home this july *sad* and dun worry I'll leave your christmas present to hui jin too....
So, good luck to you with you university offer.
Ever angelic *evil grin*,
Chiau Chuin.

To Hwa Khang,
I'm so sorry that so many bad things happen to you recently, I hope that things will start going your way soon. As I said last time about me-missing-the-bus-on-tha- day,-but-got-lucky-on-the-second-day-concept... hahaha...i know sometimes it won't work for you...so I have decided to sing a song for you......no la just kidding.....but if you want to,just let me know anytime....ok?
orelse I can send some you of my precious microwave pau...hahaha....but in exchange you have to post the double fillet for me....must be in an express 1 so it can reach me the next day...
Hope that your aunt is ok....and see around in the msn soon.
The pau eater,
Chiau Chuin


and Here is my pau story....trust me it's funny I made it up myself....hahaha hee hee
for those who heard the story i made before will certainly what is coming up.....hahaha

well, this story happen in a far away land on a very cold day....
er....
you will have to wait for the rest because I just can't think abt anything to go on with it...

ok everybody take care ya....and miss you all loads...

Well...

Time flies this week...and I have done loads of things...ok, here a few of them.

On Monday, I went down to sydney to have a look.Enjoyed it so much...makes me feel that I haven't even left home...because life in the city was busy.....visited all the tourist spot(nearly all...) saw the sydney opera house, harbour bridge, china town...bought some egg tarts there..miss them so much
Oh how i wish I had a camera with me....I would have capture every moment I have spent in sydney and show you guys about it..... So right now, I'm just waiting for someone to climb the harbour bridge with me....so who is up for it?
Well, I did write about some to shao rou....Hope you recieved the letter already...

And for the rest of the week, I'm living on a blissful state...must be the after effect of visiting the city...and try to finish my essay.....and I finally finished it..yesterday hahaha....

maybe I will visit the city again soon...just can't stand living in a ulu place any longer.
don't worry I'll keep you guys up to date about everything that is happening to me...which is if you are intrested abt it.

This is what you want.....hahaha

Well, since she highly doubt that I'll do it....
This is for you Soo Imm,

My earliest memory....

of my Grandmother was when she was alone in the kitchen cleaning up after the chinese reunion dinner.Nobody actually help her ,so I'm quite angry with my aunts for not doing that.

At school I ...

used to take part in the singing contest every year in my primary school.But I never seems to sing properly because I'll just be down with a flu or a cough.haih....

My first relationship.....

well, never had 1 so this question irrelevant to me....hahaha

I wish I had never worn....

so much high heels...at least now I'll have nicer legs....haih...

My Mother and father always told me.....

control my temper....hahaha..I'm famous for my terrible temper...I think I have change a bit.

I wish I had....

a friend that really stay with me ...not physically but will always be there for me...and where we can talk abt things no matter where we are or what have we become.

I wish I hadn't....

shut myself up for so long.....not until I have realise that I'm losing all the wonderful friends that used to be around.

At home I cook...

alot..some already tasted my apple pie...and some bake pies with me....well sooner or later I'll be a big whale....which I hope not...and the fact is my only expertise is how to goreng telur...haha

When I was a child,I wanted to....

be a singer....so I can sing my lungs out of everything that I feel.

The book that changed my life is .....

to be honest...I can't remember I have 1....because every book that I read seems to change my perspective of life somehow.

If only I would....

be able to sing and dance about my life ...just like they do in the musicals.

Friends say I am....

drop dead serious, funny, sometimes irritating, quite, noisy, frightening(that is my famous first impression to everyone), cold, keep to myself, confident but has a low self esteem, contradicting, slow, witty, evil......and the list goes on.

What I don't find amusing is.....

when my friends thinks that I like the foreign country more than my own.....which I get alot since I got the PR for Australia.

I often wonder.....

what my future life would be....will I finally found myself a boyfriend....will I still be nurse after 10 years.

I'm passing the baton to....

Hui Jin, Wen Ching, Shaorou

He replied my message!!!!!

Hahahahahahahaha....never have been so happy for a while now.I'm in cloud nine...*grin*
Gosh!guess what?he replied my message....
I never thought he would cos...it's been a long time since we contacted or saw each other.
Dunno why I feel so happy, even though now we both are in the a very different end of the world...but it really feels nice.
ok, I admit I have feelings for this guy...well, since I was in secondary school......he never knows about it...and I keep it as tight as I can....not to let him know.Nobody actually knows.
It all started in the internet, during form 2.....long rite?nearly 6 years liao...I used to avoid him, don't ask me why i do that......eventhough I had a major crush on him.and the best thing of all is that he is in the same school as me so i get to see him nearly everyday.....To me he was just attractive(not the face and body kind) but just somehow I like him and I can't stop it, not even now....hahaha..fanatic right?( If you happen to know which guy I'm talking about , i prefer that you don't shout about it ok?Don't even think of whispering a word, get me?)
still a bit sad though, he has a girlfriend......*sigh* if only I tell him how I feels about him earlier....
Nvm,I through all of it now ...i think. and I really wish him well, cos I think he like her very very much.
because somehow I realise that we are not the same kind of people...
I'm just glad we still can talk and joke about anything ...just like we used too...thru the internet.....

Can you believe it, he replied my message!!!!!
ok, i know you all get it already....i'll stop....(he replied my message!!! ....weeeeeee.eeeeeee)

oh yeah, Have I tell you all that I miss you all so much!!!and he replied my message!!!!

It's SATURDAY!!!!

ok It's Saturday.....Finally had some time to start....really start my essay.
but bad news the only essay i'm writing now is my blog.
Can't seems to know why .....

ARGhhhhhh super boring!!!!!
Make my self stay home today to finish up my assignment ...
BUt all i do is pigging on the apple pies and the ice creams.
Watch 3 DVD today...now i feel like a spinster
you know those kind that have no where to go but stay at home with 2 cats and having dinner in front of the TV....gosh! someday I think that I'm going to have obesity as my health problem....haha....

with the Bach's Prelude playing on the background as I write....I feel I might end up getting old with this music and be statisfied with it......don't understand what I'm whinging about?nvm I don't either.....

As I was saying to Hwa Khang last night that i miss malaysian food.....funny though because not too long ago I was having the same conversation with wen ching when she just settling down in UK.....now I know what is the feeling like...so wen ching sorry for teasing you that time.....hahaha...
P/S: HK i'm writing down the promise of you Belanja me a bowl of laksa here so I won't forget all abt it when i get back......
Ok, pls help me get into the mood of doing my assignments....
my, neva thought that a few months break from school can get me to become so lazy......

Now I have running out of things to write. So, will write there's something happening in my life again....( which i think would be ages unless I go naked and start stalking the respectable neighbourhood i'm living in right now....haha...maybe i will do that....who knows...so look out for me in the front page of a tabloid)

Here's my ad of the day,
Get boring by sitting in a couch all day flipping through TV channels it's a great way to spend your life.

all for now,bye.

In the middle of the night.

it's now the midnight here.
Been a bit busy lately,with all the assignment piling up asking abt question like what is health?
what is a Nurse?.....bla bla bla...the list goes on.
Other than that I think I had a quite week....and I'm thankful about it
I hope I can find some work soon.....if not I think I'll dry up my dad's bank account.
Anyway, there's been alot of sale lately.....it's just too bad I can't really splurge if not i'll definitely buy present for everyone.....
bcos there seems so much to buy.
Just imagine a shirt for only $3.
Or a jeans for only $15....
cheap rite?
and the quality is good too.....
oh now i wish i have loads of money....hahahaha
Soo Imm,just imagine the nicest top u can find all for only $10......
Trust me it's even better than the pink pussycat tank top.....
Even though i think this place is ulu....but it's a shopping heaven...
Maybe i haven't been out to the city for too long to think that this place is the heaven.
ok..enuf of this.
What I like most about my life right now is the 8.07 am No.37 bus to Ourimbah.....
Y?
cos I just feel happy sitting in the bus fill with small little primary school children going to school.
Here you can really the real scene where parents really wait with their kids for the bus.
when the kids is on the bus, they actually wave good bye to their parents.
Even the bus driver seems to be in a very good mood on that particular time everyday.
I have been thinking,maybe it reminds me of the time I had in Puay Chai when I was teaching n the 5G class that's why I'm feeling comfortable.....and happy.

Maybe I should consider to be a teacher rather than a Nurse.....
haha...just kidding....maybe later.When I'm bored with nursing.
Ok got to go liao....
will post later after I attack my pile of assignments .
Tirah.

Updates

During this past week , alot has happened to me.
I just don't know where to begin.
ok...here it is.
I have been having a little bit trouble with my accomodation but lucky me...all have been settled
and it turns out to be a big misunderstanding with my landlady.
so I think other than that I am ok.
and thanks for all the help everybody has been giving me....
I'm touched.

I got evicted .

Guess what happen today?
My landlady told me to move out within 2 weeks,that means I have to move out by 13 th of March.
To be honest I don't know what really happen and why she want me out of her house.
I thought we are getting along fine, me not arguing with her, saying yes to every rule she stated and she is talking jokes to me just last night.There was no warning about what is going to happen to me in the near future then.
Although for the 2nd week, there is some misunderstanding I thought I solve it but looks like I'm wrong.

时间的恐怖

刚看完了我其中一个朋友的blog。。。。里头写了关于她如何讨厌她的妈妈。。说她的妈妈如何不了解她。。。等等
想起以前我有这么像的想法。。。。。才知道原来在这么短的日子，改变可以那么的恐怖。。。。
要知道其实父母是疼爱我们。。。是很难得的东西。因为等到我们发觉时。。往往已经太迟了。。。只希望时间还有一点同情心让我们好好地珍惜他们对我们的付出。
离开了我那个20年的家让我真的想通好多好多事情。

曾经有那么一个时候是我妈妈为我准备吃的，住的，穿的。。。。。
曾竟有那么一个时候是我爸爸为我担忧生活的一切一切。。。。。
但不知什么时候开始他们不再做这些事了。。。。
醒来就只有我一个人在那边忙着做这一切。。。。
不管心里有多难过。。。却慢慢得明白说从此以后我必须好好的照顾自己了。。。背后不会再有那两个人看着我了。

当然每当遇到不如意的事时。。。。我真想逃。。。。逃到那个叫做家的地方。。
而这个家往后的20年还会像以前那个20年吗？

有好多人像以前的我一样。。。 一直喊着要自由。。。一直喊着不要管我，这是我的生活。。。
我觉得，那是因为我们觉得太有安全感了。。。。活得不够刺激。。。。

朋友啊，好好地珍惜身边所有的人。

It's too peaceful here!!!!!!!

Uni started this week but there is not much goin on.I practically have a whole week off except for tuesday and wednesday......
Well, don't admire this type of uni life cos you will die of boredom real soon.......
It's too peaceful here.....so peaceful that you will lose touch of the whole wide world and you can here yourself talking to your own self...... scary huh???
Well,as this boredom sucks out my life the weather here is getting colder which is an A plus for me ....cos since I got here I have got a tan that every australian wanted but!!!!...I don't want it.
Spend the whole day watchng movies and eating ice creams....I'm nuts right eating ice cream during a cold day.....though I sill have 2 essay waiting for me to finish which in total has 2500 words.....
See told you not think of getting a uni life same as mine.....it's only 1st week and I've already got 2500 words of essay to write.
I think these essays will help me get used to my new laptop keyboard...so next time when I chat with some of you guys I'll be faster.
okok....Let me introduce some of my new friends
The first is a HK who lives here for 2 and a half years, met her on the first day of orientation.Her name is Annie.
The second is Kyle....he's an australian,quite a nce looking chap...got the living next door look.....he is annie's high school friend and a very funny guy,although to my disappoinment already has a girlfriend ;( but because he is in the same course with me..somebody thinks that he is a "gayish" type...you know what I mean.....but look at Gaylord M. Focker he is married to a girl!!!!
and there a cute girl who is a swedish her name is rachel.
My class is quite big compare to the others so I haven't met all of them yet..
Just hope that I can really take on this new challenge cos it seems to me everyone is so well prepare than me....
so wish me luck..
will keep posting....so ther won't be any voice inmy head talking to me....

I miss home so so much!!!!

Hi everybody...how are you guys ....hope everyone is fine back there.
Uni starts this week but I don't get any lecture till next week so I'm preety free at the moment.
However I won't be online as long and as many time as I can because my landlady is using a dial up connection and I'll be using up her phone line if do that too much.
Feel pretty lonely up here....just feels out of place...and have to face lots of unimaginable problem and stuff.
I just feel the emptiness in me ,everything I do just some how reminds me of my family and my friends,to think that I can't do that anyore just make me feel worse.......
I think I'm a bit slow with my feeling cos I didn't really miss anything up until now.
It's been a week since i left and I found that Australian eventhough they are nce they can be very lazy.
For the whole first week I have been trying to get my timetable done I still can't seems to get to contact the person in charge.
Lucky for me,I met one of my coursemate on the first day of the orientation....she a Hong Kong-nese and a very sweet girl....but it's weird though...I mean the feeling......it's just isn't the same .
I don't think I'll anymore right now orelse I think I'll keep on feeling my homesickness.
Will try to post more if I can......
Luv you all....bye for now.

I'm surviving

arrived in australia....
still missing home and not sure when will i be over it.
Just want to say thanks to all my friends...
thank you jing tien....... hwa khang......hui jin .....soo imm.

It's happening

I recieved 3 offer from 3 uni.They are from Monash,La Trobe and Newcastle.Accepted the Newcastle's offer to study nursing the Ourimbah Campus.
So,if everything go as planned.I'll be leaving Malaysia before the chinese new year ends...
I think is on the 11th of february.
I practically have 2 weeks left before I depart to sydney.
will miss all my friend here...

Guilty of all charges

I feel so terrible now......
Had a quarrel with my dad last night...don't ask what is the reason you will never want to know.The worse part is I think I cause my father to resign from his job.
Lately he's been so depressed mainly from the pressure of his job and starting to have ideas of starting anew in Melbourne,but my mom managed to convince him to stay on for the family...with this outbreak I think my father has reach his maximum tolerance of anything from pressure of his job to everyday problem...
finally he let go of everything.
The thing is if my dad resign,he'll be jobless and at my father's age it'll harder for him to find a job than the others especially now.Where economies are not booming but starting to drop,who would want to hire new employees???
why I couldn't just be patient enough and not quarrel with him? Hadn't had an outbreak for so long why can't I just keep my mouth shut then....
I feel that I'm so ungrateful and unthankful for what he has done for our family....yet I'm not sure what to do to make up for what I did.
Now that I have done it the worse is yet to come.
The whole family might go to Australia by the end of the year if this situation continues.....but how are we to cope with the living expenses there and in addition to it my uni tuition fees plus my siblings'......
No use regretting now just hope that my father's boss will try to retain him until things get better......and my father to accept his offer.
I'm sorry dad hope things get better for you.

My regards ..

Thanks Wen Ching,for your comment...I never know I'm a brave person until you mention it....so just wanna ask you a question:are you sure ah??
Haa Haa
How are you lately ?still miss Malaysia ?(of course what am i asking)
Like the background music of this blog?Reminds me of the time in college....

Hey,Hwa Khang where are you lately???
Haven't heard your news for a long time?That is very unusual for you la.....
You class started liao??
Must remember to come to my house during CNY ok??

Hui Jin,
I hope you solved your problem liao.....sorry I wasn't able to help
Feel bad about it....are you free on CNY ??
Come to my house and gather ok?

Hey Soo Imm,
How are you lately?'attack' any mall lately?
haa haa.....CNY is round the corner so make sure you leave some space in your calendar for me k?

Shing Shuang,
I was actually quiet angry with you about the whole meeting up with wen ching thing....Especially when you never actually told us that you cannot join us at the red box....you should no quiet about the reservation rules of Red Box.
Never thought you would be that irresponsible.....are you still angry with us about the day in Mid Valley?
To be honest with you....I was actually planning a surprise Birthday party for you in KL.....never thought you would cancel last minute.Too bad for you then!!

Finally! A new post!

School reopen this week and everyone is back to their normal routine .
Now,the house feel so empty without my siblings around .
Lately,I can't help thinking about my move to Melbourne.Will I like the life there?Am I doing the right thing?What will it feel like living alone in a strange place?Tons of question keep on filling my thoughts.
Apart from the fear,I am also excited about it.....going to new place,meeting new people,finding surprises everywhere.Yes, you can say that I have some kind of dream and I know I may be dissapointed by it when I arrive there.
The offer from the uni still have not arrived yet,a bit worried about it.What if my result is not good enough to be accepted into any U.What would I do then?
Lucky,for me I'll be celebrating Chinese New Year here unlike some of my friends who have no choice but to spend it oversea.
Met Suet Ei today,she changed her hairstyle too.Have not seen her since Wai Lee's farewell party.She working as a cashier in a comic book rental shop too.Yup!same like me......but I realised that sometime fantasy doesn't come true in real life.Well, at least I know that working at this type of shop is not fun as it seems to be.
Wen Ching went back to UK this week,will miss her terribly.Hope this will not be the last time we all can gather together.I really enjoyed our KL outing....went to red box and then shopping!!!!I finally I get to visit her house(actually it's some sort of an apartment),met her famous 'boyfriend',inspected her wardrobe and met the famous Big Bear.
As for the lacking of new posts,you guys have to pardon me.
During the last week of school holiday,I have been travelling alot.

• went to perak to visit my aunt on christmas day.We actually stayed there for 2 nights....
• we then went to Genting Highland at the eve of New Year eve...have a nice time there ...and I finally conquer all the rides in the park except for the newest flying coaster cos it's too scary and expensive.The night view up there was marvellous!!Loved it.
• went to mid valley to celebrate a late christmas with my college mate on the day that I'm going to genting.....feel so sorry to my friends....we exchanged every present imaginable.....christmas gifts,souvenirs from UK and China,birthday gift to wen ching and Hui Jin gave us a birthday bear each.Hope we can do this next year..

lazy

been lazy to post something for ages...so I hope everybody like this new skin...personally I do like it...
Lately I'm addicted to an online game...can't stop myself from playing haha...so that explain why I'm absent from the blog for such a long time.
This online game is quite nice to play.....
For those who are bored you may go to the URL below to download this game...
www.maplesea.com... the name of this game is Maple story.
BTW I wish everybody a very Merry Christmas.....
It's only 5 more days to christmas and I haven't even found a present for my friend...drat!!

Something about the future

I'm sure some of you guys may sometime day dream about your future life but maybe nobody does that but me.
I've always wished that I'll be rich,well who doesn't......Maybe not that rich but I'll live a comfortable life.With a nice house and all those cool stuff to decorate it.
The house will have a water feature....a pool or a pond or something else and definitely with some night light for it to be seen at night.
I wouldn't want a big house, a medium one will do, cos I hate the cold feeling you have in a huge house,the cosy ones are much better....
The house will have some sky light in the living room....you know the ones that has glass on the ceiling.....so I can watch the star at night while listening to soft and slow music....
as for the bedroom,it will have soft carpet where it will feel like moss when you walk on it.......with a walk in wardrobe....
the room will also have french windows that open up to a small balcony overlooking the sea..yea it'll be nice and on the balcony I will put some holes on the wall so I can put on the candles at night.
For the dining room,there will be glass windows that strecth from the ceiling till the floor so that while I'm having my meals I can also admire my garden.
of course to realise all these dreams I'll have to work extra hard to earn that kind of money....haha

happy birthday great grandfather!!

I celebrated my great grandfather's 100th birthday yesterday.Yup!he's still alive and strong,quite proud of him too :)

I have been wondering why nobody left any message for me lately???Is my blog starting to get boring liao....haha.
Anyway I change my hairdo liao,I curled my hair and even coloured it so the next time you see me I think you'll get a shock.
Well most of my relative can't recognise me when they first saw me.....so I don't reckon anybody can figure it's me when they see me with my new hairdo.

By the way,wen ching is coming back to malaysia on the 19th and can't wait to meet up with her.Miss the old days so much.....

As for my job, I quit again!!what's the reason??Don't ask,it's the same one....hee hee..goodbye comic books and extra income :(

One of my old classmate is back from the down under,but haven't had the time to meet up with her....and I owe her a proper birthday hug.

and One thing......I'm BROKE!!!
sad:( have to find another job liao....wonder what to do this time....
oh worse!is there any job available....
haih!!
who would want to hired me

Unorganized deep thoughts

I felt pretty left out lately, from friends...Family....

my surrounding area.Every where I go I just don't fit in....

as if in this world there is not a place where I can call it my own...

nobody really understand me.

They tend to judge me by their version of me,just felt so helpless because they never think of my feelings.

Maybe you'll think I'm selfish...

maybe I'm selfish...

but I just want people to notice who I really am and not their version of me....

I just want to know that somehow people care about me...

that I'm not an invisible human.

You may say that I'm hungry for attention...

There is so many times that I wish that someone

would ask me how am I feeling today.....

who would see me through all those action and

understand the reason behind those act...

I have always felt out of place....

with my family,my friends

anytime,anywhere.

Seems to me whatever I do or say

always comes out the opposite.

Either I have problem in conveying my message across

or it's that they interpret the meaning wrongly.

My guess is that it's my problem and not the others

cause it's not possible for everybody to interpret my meaning wrongly

right?

Maybe I'm just jealous when I feel that my family

seems to like my sis more than me...

that my sis is a better person than I'm.

Felt that I can't live up to my parents hope.

It' s just so difficult...

difficult not to feel that way.

I just don't fit in...

not with anyone or at anywhere.

What will happen to the world if I was not born into this world?

will everything be the same?

I wonder.

Yeah!I'm thinking too much...

but I need the support

I need the advice

I need the help

I need to feel that I belong somewhere...

that someone will actually think me as one of the important person in their life

but who am I to be consider as one?

Alone in this world it's what I feel....

nobody really care what happen to me...

maybe my family do...

but apart from them I just can't think of anyone else.

I'm just a pedestrian in their life

so are they in mine

but why am I asking the pedestrians to care about me?

Maybe I am always taking

and not always giving.

and there's a quote which says that

we must give more than we take.